~*My 20th Birthday*~Part 2

Haha....as i promise in my previous blog that i want to share about the things that made me sad which had happen on my 20th birthday.

1) Although i receive a whole pile of SMSes from all of my frens, whom include my new cell group member, churchmate, frens and others.....there's one sms that made me feel....disappointed.....that's one of the sms from my best friend....i remember for her birthday.... sing a birthday song for her and send it to her by using voice sms....i plan sooo much for her birthday....i spend sooo much time on her present where i walk almost all of the shopping mall around KL....However, things was soooo different for me....i do not receive any birthday song from her....but i do receive one FORWARDED sms from her....somemore that sms had to be shared with other ppl....this means that...in one sms, there are 2 persons name in it....i'm sooooo depressed....

2) I've never receive a present whereby made me feel sooooo disappointed....i receive an iron chain with a cross on it.....this present doesn't sounds bad rite....(since i'm a christian)....but my point is....it's IRON!!!!the colour is like....it just make me feel sooo disappointed....i just cant believe that someone whom i expect to know me well give me such a things....if someone who know me well will know that he/she shouldn't give me jewellery as a present....i've had more than enough since i was young....i do not need someone to give me an IRON as a gift!!!!i think that....it's rude....it's just....ridiculous!!!!super disappointed.....

3)On my birthday...i do not have chance to spend that day with my best friend....this is because every year...one the 23/6, it was her best friends' bf birthday as well....so she have to celebrate for her best friend....somemore she have to tell me that she's in lagoon wearing beautiful swimsuit playing with her fren happily!!!!well....i know we've only know each other for like....not long....only1-2 years....but....at least, every year on her birthday...i was there!!!why it's my turn n she's not there???i....i know i'm kindda shelfish to think like this...but....i just cant understand....

4) I do not want branded coffee (from starbucks or coffee beans)...i do not want very expensive cake(from breadtalk or starbucks)....i just.....can u just let me feel your sincerity in those present???I know....i do like coffee and cheese cake....but...i just cant feel your heart...your sincerity inside it....it's different....i just feel like it's not a birthday present for me....i just feel like i buy the coffee and the cake myself....it would taste better if i buy it myself!!!

well....it seems like that's all for the things that made me disappointed....i just...maybe it's because i care too much....i...sometimes just give out my heart too much whereby other just giv out the outermost layer of their heart to me....maybe it's because i expect too much from her....so that's why it makes me feel sad....that's not the first time that disappoint me....but....N times....huh....tired....

~*My 20th Birthday*~

huh....see how times fly....thank God that i've been on this earth for 20 years....it's....unbelieveable....i mean....i cant believe that i'm 20 now....i'm telling everyone around that i'm 20 years old this year!!!huh....i still cant believe this....hahhaah.....that's we....human.....we need to grow up....

well...this birthday is the most special birthday that i have.....there are a lot of special things that happen on this day. Let me list it out one by one:

1) 23/6/2006....i'll never forget this date in my whole life....coz....i din sleep since 22/6/2006....it's all because of the stupid ecology final paper that would be held on 830am(althought i've get used to having exam during my birthday time)....this means that on the day when i turn 20, i still have to sit there all ALONE, study the whole lot of notes about my ecology.....and that's the worst subject...i don't think i can pass that paper....coz i've fail my internal....then i've to get real high for that final paper in order for me to pass the whole subject....23/6/2006 from 12am to 10am is the most stressed birthday moment for me.....

2)My best friend, Shin Yee who stay in Negeri Sembilan come down to KL purposely for me...i was soooo touch....all the way down....taking ktm down to KL central to meet me....all by herself....alone.....when i saw her in KL central, i was sooo touched....i just don't know how to express my feeling to her....we've been knowing each other since form 2, which is 8 years ago....i learn a lot of things from her....last time i used to be a bad temper person....but from her i learn to calm myself down...and.....a lot of things.....we went to sungei wang together.....gossiping like i've never done that before....n she buy present for me....a cute purple blouse where i like it very much.....THANK U FREN...I LOVE U!!!MUAKZ....

3)An sms from Australia in the middle of the nite.....that's rite....it's from u-YEE MAN!!!!although i receive a whole pile of sms....with different birthday wishes...but i don't know why, when i saw ur sms i'm soooo touched.....sooo happy....maybe it's because i miss u sooo much....i just miss the way u talk to me....so gentle....u calm me down when i'm angry, listen to me when i'm depressed(but mostly u c me laughing rite???hahahah)....I MISS U!!!!MUAKZ.....

4) As i mentioned on 1 that i din sleep....so that whole day....i mean on 23/6/2006...i'm kindda like blur blur....stupid stupid like that....i seriously just pull myself into the church for the fellowship....coz i'm the cell group leader n that nite is the cell group gatherin nite....so i must be there....it's a tough job for me especially when i'm not in good condition...then ho...after the fellowship ho....i went back home with my housemate....then i cant wait to jump onto my bed to sleep...but ho....i haven took my shower yet...so i took my shower first....the moment that i step out from the toilet....there's suddenly about 20 peoples standing at my house.....which...kindda surprised me....they are all waiting for me!!!!they were there to sing s birthday song for me....hehehe....kindda....shock....but then ho....maybe because i'm too tired....then i din really feel like....happy....i just don't know why....but not to deny that....this is the most....'noisy' birthday for me....(a lot of people)....

5) it's the only birthday that i spend with a guy whose birthday is same as mine....one of our church member as well....one of my senior as well!!!hahahah....n d cutest thing is that he sing another version of birthday song softly(when i was on the phone, whereby he thought that i wasn't listen to him)....that birthday song is.....originally cantonese version (if u watch tvb drama they all sing that version of birthday song)...but then he sing in chinese....hahahah....cute ler!!!!that nite he hide at my house...coz he scare kena kacau by others church member (it's our tradition to have water and flour for anyone's birthday!!!!but not for me this years)haha....

6) the first time that d guy that i mention at 5 invite me out to go shopping together on d day after our birthday.....at first i thought he'll want to go one-U coz he like to go there ma....but ho...he suddenly say go Midvalley...which...shocks me....but then ho....this doesn't matter...the point is....i wanted to ask him to go Midvalley as well!!!weird ho.....is it having same day for the birthday will have same thought as well????heheheh....then ho....force me to choose a present....stupid...i hate people force me to buy things one....at last u know wat i choose???2 sticker n one cute purple bottle....wahahahah.....

7) A love dinner from my housemate....she cook a lot of things to celebrate birthday with me,the guy who had the same birthday as mine, and two other girls whose birthday had just pass and around the corner....although it's just a simple dinner....but...i'm so touched!!!all these means a lot to me than all the present.....

8) A chicken soup mee sua cooked by that guy whom have the same birthday as mine...hehehe....very touched.....as touched as my housemate dinner.....very warm!!!

well...i think that's all....(too long liao!!!)....i'll write for sad things that happen during my birthday in my next blog....

~*SAMSUNI*~

=> this are my new beloved guy la....hehehe....very 'flower' ler me!!!

wow...it's been a long time since my last post....well....it's because of my laziness la...somemore ho my english 'need help'....that's what one of my lecture write on my reports....although i have self-conscious la...but it still hurt...hai....nevermind la....

next week is my final exam n now...what am i doing here?!?!sitting in front of the computer posting my blog, chatting with frens and surfing the net for some pictures???OH NO.....if my family knows this they will definitely kill me....well...that's me....i know the seriousness of the final exam....whereby i've put sooo much effort to get into Monash....so i have to try my best.....that's what my sister tell me....and i know that for sure...but then....i'm not those top student whereby they are getting super stress up during the exam period....it doesn't mean that i don't have stress....it's just....i don't like to get myself into sooo much stress....when you are stress, u tend to think more u know....somemore one the negative side ler......i hate that....i don't want my life to cover with negative thinking....

last week i watch a korean drama...called...我叫金三顺...i super like that drama....i watch it again n again.....the point is....the guy inside is superb man!!!u'll have to watch that if u haven....this drama doesn't inspire me much....all i get is that....a not so pretty women can get her true love as well....which mean....i can also la!!!hahaha....my true love???wont have that....at least for my current situation....it's easy to like someone but hard to love someone....haha...don't want to talk more about my love sight la....all i can say is that i'm stupid....although there's no right or wrong in love....

gambateh la....