全身酸痛--muscle fatigue

哇，只要我动一动我的手就觉得好痛。前两天参加团契的营会，一到家就不省人事了四小时。这次的营会，或许只有两天一夜的关系，所以没有依依不舍。反而觉得于人的关系变淡了，应该和我玩在一块的反而不理我，而我也觉得好像没话和她说。难道我们的友谊就只是这么肤浅吗？或许她觉得不舒服吧，有或许她太忙了吧。这些我都不想多想。现在的我只知道我原来是没有朋友的！！！原来好像可以和每个人玩成一块的我只是我的表面，而其实大家是不喜欢我的。虽然大家都没有表现出来，但我有一颗敏感的心。你们没有表现出来的，我都看得见只是我不说而已。没关系啦，又不是第一次这样了。难道我是第一天认识他们吗？既然知道他们是这种人了，那我也不需要这么在意了。但，难道说不在意就会不在意吗？一个伤口愈合了总会留下伤疤的。

还好有一位温柔体贴的梅琴在一旁帮助我，鼓励我。不然我真的很难想象现在的我还会不会继续把欢乐带给大家。我一个人伤心流泪就好，不要连累别人。世界因爱发光！！！神爱世人，所以我也要学着把神的爱带给其他人。加油！！！虽然这种日子会很难熬，但有神与我同在我并不孤单也不害怕。我知道有一双手永远都在牵着我，带领着我。人不喜欢我没关系，神一定不会离弃我。

Tough reports

I've been facing a real big problem this sem. My lab partner (for one of my subject) are all sucks....this is the first time i've been using this harsh word to describe someone. But i can't help it, i just cannot control myself from calling them this. I thought i was the blurress person in the lab, who knows that there was someone blurrer than me!!!How can it be!!! The girl even ask me 'what have we done last week?'. WOW!!!!This was super 'cool'. She had been attend to the lab for two weeks and she do not know what had she been doing there in the lab for 3 hours time??? This is ridiculous. HUH...*cooling down*....whatever, just don't care for them. Fortunately we don't have to share our reports as well.

Yesterday i've been sitting in the computer lab for almost 6 hours just to figure out how to analyse and present the results into my lab report. Thank GOD that i had Patricia (a good helper) sitting beside me and helping me to analyse all the statements. It was GOD who arrange her to be at my side whenever i've been facing problem in my reports and stuff. I feel so thankful whenever i see her.

Last weeks i've been busy for the church stuff. That's the first time i feel that i was super busy and i was almost getting mad about everything. Even Jennifer was frightened by me. And for this week, there's a world's toughest report to be done and handed in on Monday. Sometimes i feel like i almost collapse, but whenever i see Jocelyn's pic in my handphone or even her voice calling me fron the other side of the phone, there will be a voice telling me that i had to set a good example for her refer when she grown up. She's my motivation for everything. And of course my mum is the one who motivates me as well. I swear to myself that i must graduate and get a nice job and let her had a better life to live. I just feel useless whenever i saw her suffering there all by herself.

Soo....have to get back and do my reports....or else....i don't even dare to think about it....Gambateh!!!

Tired again!!!!

This week is the most tiring week for me. The reason that causes me to get this tired is not because that i started to have lab reports and stuff to do and to pass up, but is because of the emmcf things. Tomorrow is the day where we promote our choir. I'm the class rep for the choir so i have to be the one who handling all these things. I was super exhausted. There's a lot of things that i do not know how to do but i can see that GOD is beside me. HE is always there helping me for everything. HE bring others to me and help me so that i won't be suffering all alone. Although i feel tired and exhausted, i still feel energetic and excited for everything i've been doing now. It's different from the exhaustion that i used to had last time.

Nothing is Complicated

One of my housemate wanted to move out from the house since her sister was moving back to their hometown. Then, she was suggesting another guy to move into her room and ask me whether i wanted to move or not. Well, i was lazy to move out as you know moving out require so so much of energy and time. It's so troublesome. Somemore i only have one more year left here. So i do not feel to move. However, another housemate of mine think another way. He said he do not want someone he don't know to move into the house. Does he means that he wanted to cover up the rental for the empty room all by himself??? I definitely wont share the rental with him.

Everything is just so simply. Just one go and one in and that's it. Why must he make it so complicated??? I just don't understand.