How i wish i'm in Taylors College....

It's been my last day of my orientation week which i'm not supposed to be at sch.....but then....i'm in computer lab now.....it's all because of my stupidness.....the system here in this school are all online....which mean i've to choose all the subjects and electives that i wanna take....all of these things are done online....and....it sounds sooooo high tech and very convenient for us rite....well....by the time u click into the webpage....there's thousands of different things in there....and....my point is.....i don't understand a word in the page that we are supposed to be....and i cant find the place where we should chooose all our units and stuff like that.....stupid la.....i mean....me...i'm the one who stupid...yesterday the dunno who standing up there briefing about how to do all the things...and i was seriously concentrating to what he says ler (which i normally will be sleeping down there)....but then....when he ask for the hands who haven done all the things...there's only my hand in the air!!!!(actually still got a few more person la)SEE....how stupid i am....this probably because i'm in a new school....everything is new here....their system....the environment...the people....everything new....I HATE THAT!!!!That's what i hate about being into a new environment....all the things have start from the beginning again....and....social life in the school campus....this is the most horrible things....hai.....somemore i got a whole lot more things to settle down here....fussy everyday....i dont feel like i'm making the right choice to get into this schoool.....but....due to my current financial problem...what can i do????everything i have to swallow into my stomach....let my multi-purpose stomach to digest it.....

Life in Bintulu (my hometown) is much more simpler.....everything is simple...all i have to worry is that did Jocelyn feel well today????Did she drink her milk???Did she sleep well???and....fill my empty stomach when there's drumming sound inside....that's all.....and...and.....go to church....i feel like sitting in the empty church right now....to calm every part of me in front of the cross....to confess all my sin.....to pray.....just probably stare at the cross for a minute will make me feel joyful....i'm lost everyday and everywhere.....i don't dare to tell my mum all about these....i scared that she'll start to worry for me since she got a lot of things to worry at home....and i don't feel like talking to anyone else these days....but.....cant.....everything have to be swallowed down....if not.....ppl will think that i don't like to be here or other bad things that they are going to say about me which i dont wished to mention it here.....

My Dear Father God, i'm soooo thankful that You leaded my path....no matter where am i, i know that You are always there by my side....whenever i cry, You'll be the only one who can comfort me.....Thankyou GOD for always being my spiritual advisor.....Thankyou God for everything that You have done to me....Please....again....help me!!!Tell me what i should do now....In Jesus Name I Pray....AMEN

A post created in Monash University

yoyo....i'm in Monash lerr....hahaha....cant believe that i'm in here....finally....after all the prayers, worries, frustration and a lot of things....i've finally in Monash University....well....it's a new environment for me....so....i've to search for the place i wanna go everytime...and i'm always lost....hahaha...well this year don't have Yee Man with me...so i've to find everything out myself...like last time she'll tell ma whatever happen the next day and whatever things that i have to do and wherever the class is....now....there's no one i know who take the same course same semester with me....all i see are new faces....hey guys....Monash got a lot of leng lui ler....serious o!!!!at least i think they are kindda pretty la....

this week is my orientation week....so....everyday will be start with a briefing....introduction of the campus and stuff like that....today is the second day of orientation.....and i'm now in computer lab......ie i din go for the orientation today.....but i was WARN by my frens housemate to attend the english test tomorrow and also the briefing on the day after tomorrow.....hai.....what a boring uni life without people i know....but then i feel sooo much pleasure and joyful to get into this uni...coz this is the uni that i've wanted to get in.....and finally i'm holding my ID with me!!!wahahaha...thank God for that....

my days here in sunway are still normal....nothing much change.....except that i've change a new environment....a new place to stay....i rent a room from my church fren here...so...at least i got housemate that i've known....the only thing is that i have to buy the mattress and the furniture....so i'll going to buy that later.....there's of coz something i kindda worry.....i heard a lot of ppl (from my church frens) say that a lot of frens whom we see very close together.....are separated....once they live together....i know a lot of this things....but.....what can i do????just mine my own business....my mum soooo worry about the place where i'm staying now....she keep on asking me whether i sleep well the night before o not....and keep on reminding me to lock my door since there's guys in the house (my housemate's bf,we knew each other as well)....the rest....nothing much different....o ya....i miss Success aunty's rice....i'm going back there eat later i think.....wanna give a surprise to her...wahahah....coz i found that i haven figure our where's the cafeteria here....and i don't like cafeteria food.....but i heard them say that the food in cafeteria here is kindda nice....so...maybe i'll have to try that out one day....

whenever i'm alone here, my mind will have a lot of people flash back in my mind.....of coz....guys....and girls.....some frens that i'll never meet again when i'm here.....some frens that i leave in my hometown, Bintulu....but then....i should thank God that i still have all those churchmate i know here in Subang church....so.....jia you la.....

Back to School......

Well....it's been a long time since my last day at school....(it's not that long though,3 months only!!!)and now....i'll be going back to school this monday.....believe it!!!!yeah....last few months my life was soooooo threatened by this school thingy.....coz after my 1st yr of food tech in Taylors College i do not know where i will be this yr....well...u might want to ask me why i dont want to continue my food tech study,rite???It's not that i didn't get good result than been 'sack' by school!!!!it's....i dont want to twin to Australia....so i keep on searching for the school that provide 3+0 Bio-medic programme or Bio-tech programme.....finally.....i've found Monash Msia and AIMST(Asian Institute of Medicine, Sience and Technology) in Kedah....Thank God for that....He always listen to my prayer....no matter where i am....what i do....Thank God....I Love you....Thank you for Loving me First!!!!Hallelujah....

Now get back to my topic....i've been suffering for the whole yr.....mentally suffering....coz i do not have the confident in myself....to get in to Monash....then i pray to GOD....told HIM to guide me....only HE knows where is the right place to put me in.....well...it sounds normal for those who just wanna apply and get into a uni....maybe it's just a piece of cake for u....but for me....i've been rejected twice by Monash....that's why i take the food tech course in Taylors College....after being rejected twice.....do u still have the confident that the school will consider your application again???i don't think so.....at least i dont have that confident again....but then....miracle sometimes do happen....but only with GOD's leading....now...i'm a student of Monash University Msia!!!!which mean that....my school life will start again!!!!everything will rotate again....

there's soooo much sadness in my heart now....coz....i'll have to leave my home for about 3 months like that(hopefully)....and of coz all my dear church mate....cell group member....and the most important is my dear JOCELYN....i don't know whether when i get back here will she ever knew me again....sad....i'll feel sad whenever i think that i'll have to suffer from some....something that i dont want to mention it here....just.....a lot of things to suffer....but....hey....i've to praise GOD for letting me to go into Monash....so i should be proud of that....well...after thinking of that...it make me feel more relieve...coz i know...GOD IS JUST BY MY SIDE!!!

It's Valentine.....

Yoyo....it's Valentine today...i think u guys out there must be very busy and very romantic rite???hahaha....as for me....i'm just normal....nothing special for me on this days ever since i was born.....but then i was questioned by a lot of people for asking me whether to buy or will be receiving anything from someone special on this kind of day....hahaha....do i look like i'm not available????strange ne.....well....what i'm going to share now do not have a word that are connected with Valentine.....

Well, i just came back from the summer camp organised by our church youth fellowhip....hohoho...it's great....perfect i should say....real fun...but tiring.....the muscle from my whole body was overstretch ie pain....it's been two days now since the camp and now only my muscle are recovering.....it's was full of excitement for the camp and of coz we learn GOD's words together....but then.....honestly...i think that....i don't feel enough for the sermon and message.....i think that most of our time we are playing....jungle trekking.....resting....and stuff like that.....but overall....it's the most craziest camp i've ever been to....we even got disco party on the last nite ler....hohoho.....let me show u guys some pic.....cant wait to upload it....

i) that the pic taken when we were jungle trekking...i dont know how i get into the pic....
ii) this pic is....so unreal...but....believe it!!!
iii) the "Big Family"
iv) i like this pic very much.....coz there's someone i like in it.....
v) he is in there as well!!!
vi) get prepare for jungle trekking!!!!we all go with our slippers.....

Answer for Love and Like

Very cute ho this cartoon and wording....but then i found that this thingy soooo suit me....it speaks out all the feeling from the bottom of my heart...
<= this one say: in the story of Cinderella, she had the support from the angel.....but when i'm sad, only i can support myself....

<= this one say : Like is a slightly LOVE, but Love is a deeply LIKE!!!

Ang Pao!!!!红包！！！

It's Chinese New Year yo!!!I think u guys out there must have got a lot a lot of ang pao ho....well getting ang pao is real great....but as for me...i think it in a different way....i feel like....during Chinese New Year time we all go to visit all our friends and relative houses....then those who haven get married....will receive an ang pao from those who had married....this year i had a kindda dark and dull emotion....then i started to think everything negatively....i feel like go visiting to someone house during this particular time is only just for Ang Pao.....it's like we go to visiting the friends house is not because we want to VISIT them...but to 'beg' i should say...for an ang pao......then when we had get what we want...then...we'll leave the house and search for our next 'victim'.....although i know that the word that i used is kindda rude....but then that's what i think......that's why this year my ang pao are only from relatives.....i haven gone to any one of my frens houses....or maybe it's because that i cant join them......i always got a lot of things popping out suddenly.....so i cant plan anything with my fren and stuff like that....when i plan something...then i'll be the one who cancel the plan...it's always because of me....i just don't know why.....less of freedom?????i don't think so....it's just i CARE too much for my family.....when only one people get angry in my house, i wont feel like going anywhere or talking to anyone....i just CARE too much.....i heard a lot of my frens here say that i've change a lot since i've come back from study (for holiday)....well....i cant explain anything about it....and i don't have to.....it's my business...and it's your business to comment...i cant stop that!!!!Anyway.....may i have a nice and smooth DOGGY year......