Back to School

haha...back to school liao lo...this is my second week lo....i'm still in holiday mood...i still don't feel like doing anything yet....but....the reports and assignments keep on coming in....also test as well....it doesn't wait for me....it come only when i'm ready to do my work....like the earth still rotate although there's meteorites striking it....hai....that's life....and one things is that in this sem i found that it's harder than last sem....i heard from a lot of seniors says that it's getting tougher and tougher.....this scares me sooo much....and....i'm havin problem of getting the textbook....that textbook provided by library had been borrowed out since the first day of the school....and also....this is the first time i found that it's necessary for me to have the textbook....hai....i'm so scare to get back to the life back here....which mean i'll be busy.....especially i'm a cell group leader this time....this....challenge me a lot....i don't want to be a cell group leader...coz i know i'm not strong enough to be one....but....i'm forced to....every cell group leader is forced to be a leader....

sometimes i just feel very very disappointed with the fellowship which i'm going now....disappointed with the people there....i cant deny that they do lead the fellowship well....but why don't they think of the problem where they had been facing recently???why does all the new comers don't come to the fellowship frequently???of coz one of the problem is that they are busy with they school works (i also busy with that!!!)...another problem is that they cannt feel warm when they step into the fellowship....they feel that people in the fellowship care for their own....i cant deny that i do not know how to care for those newcomers....but....at least i was there!!!not like our president whereby he only been there once a month, that's when they have the committee meeting....this is ridiculous....i just feel very disappointed with the committee.....i've tell myself and pray to GOD that i definitely wont be the committee of this fellowship....hai....everywhere and anyone disappoints me....man is not made perfect for everything.....if one day i meet one who i feel is perfect, then he'll be my man....

Lazy is a very SERIOUS problem

Lazy is a very serious sickness that i'm not going to be fully recover...well....this illness not only found on me...but a lot of people out there as well (i think!)

Just now i heard from another friend of mine whereby he is like a postman between me and my best friend....he spread her words to me....then it makes me think a lot....why cant she just sms me directly and tell me all d things that she wanna say???why must spread the words to him???u know what answer i get???LAZY!!!!See how's the consequences of the laziness.....they symptoms is that you don't feel like doing anything....and there's nothing in the medical field that can cure this diseases....erm...back to my topic....what i want to say is....why she just cant take out her hp and just send an sms to me instead of i'm who d one who start up everything???it's not the first time....i'm tired of everything....so....to be fair, i didn't send any sms to any other friends there as well....but just now....i still send my sms to her....

i feel that i'm always the one who give out everything....but i didn't receive any....i feel not fair....i feel disappointed....whoever who talk to me will be all about her...well.....i feel like i'm being used....i just soooo sad when i heard that she say she's lazy to send sms....and somemore she's expecting to hear from me?!?!?unbelieveable.....i just cant believe this.....you wont get anything if you don't give it out....i just.....very sad....

Beckham's Tears :'(

The whole world has been shaking after the World Cup quarter final last two days whereby this match had sent both England and Brazil back home. It's was quite unbelievable that both of this team was sent back home this early. Brazil was the potential World Cup winner, but in the end....From the live broadcast of the match, everyone in the England team was sooo sooo sooo depressed and sad...whereby they sit on the ground and cry....Even David Beckham cry as well....they do not expect for all these to happen....Well, all i can say is-Good Luck in your future England and Brazil...

Well, actually i din sleep well yesterday night. I just do not know why i cannot get into sleep. Maybe i was distrupted by one sms which sent from my roomate there in Sunway. She tell me that how the guy (whom i have the special feeling BEFORE) care for the girl (my best friend). This sounds nothing but....i just do not know why....when i saw this sms, there's an angry feeling inside my heart....whereby i start to think that why he always treat others better???Only when he needs me he'll treat me well...i feel like i've been used since we've first know each other. I feel like i've been used to give him every information about her....i remember soooo well that he says to me that "it's because of you, then only i can get along well with her!"....this words had become a deep cut in my heart whereby it haven recovered till now. Sometimes i'm so sure that the special feeling that i have upon him had gone....but sometimes when i see him treat others well i'll feel angry and maybe jealous i should say....i just do not know why i have all these stupid feeling....maybe i'm just too shelfish....i just wish that i do not have to go back and study....i just wish that i can go to other place and study....go to a place where no one knows me....but it was GOD who lead me into Monash University. I've pray that i do not want to stay here and i want to leave all these stupid feeling and go to a new place where i start everything all over again....of coz....watever path that HE had choosen for me, i'll follow. That's why i'm here in Monash University. There must have somethings that GOD wants me to do or want me to complete....although life is difficult, i must follow GOD's path....