每当公司有人来，而且只要是和我的职位有一点点关系的我就要做‘陪客’。哈哈！上班给人感觉就是死死的、没有生命的，很感谢主我的，虽然也不会活到哪里去，但至少有在学新的东西。我越来越喜欢细菌了也，发现它们真的好厉害哦！它们能够做到我们人类做不到的事也，它们也可以拯救地球也！当然，它们也不人类还要麻烦。我们人啊，可能有些人对吃不是那么讲究，只要肚子饱就好。如果这句话你跟细菌讲，它们一定集体抗议--罢工=死掉！它们如果死掉，我也要跟着它们一起死了！哈哈！！！可爱吧！真的好想快点‘繁殖’我的这些‘下一代’也（虽然教授从几个月前就开始跟我讲说‘下个礼拜就开始’）。
已经有好多人跟我讲说我有多幸运能够找到这份工（虽然当中有同事会一直拼命泼冷水），刚开始的我真的是向钱看齐。我心里老早就垫了个底说：不管老板怎样骂你、同是怎样排挤你害你，为了钱，我死都要撑下去！现在，三个月就这样过去了。这三个月，我真的学到了一些书本上不可能出现的知识，简单的说--我学会了‘骗人’！以前的我常常讲说我很难相信人，出来上班了才发现我是多么的笨呀！我们家老板我真的超级佩服她，她可以把生的讲成死的，把死的讲成活的，而且重点是：她讲得跟真的一样！起初我还真得很相信，后来被我发现到‘里面有鬼’！从那天开始我就很痛苦，因为我开始犹豫，我不晓哪句我应该信，哪句我不应该信。而且啊，到了大学里面啊，就想说好不容易找到一个基督徒的朋友，结果回去公司被同事泼冷水，讲说有些话不能因为太熟所以讲太多，而且啊，那个教授啊，也是一只‘鬼’。
天啊！这个是什么世界啊！我应该怎样做？真的没有我可以相信的人吗？到底哪句我应该信，哪句我不应该听？好烦哦！不想了，看日剧！
星期六, 3月 21, 2009
メイちゃんの執事（我的帅管家）
刚刚又追完一部日剧了！我真的真的好久没有追日剧了，而且好久好久都没有一部剧能够给我那么深刻的印象了！以前的我呀，很容易入戏的，而且同样一部剧我可以重复看个一二十遍（可以问问以前和我同居的人）。这部剧我一定一定会重复看个一二十遍我才甘愿，单单结局我就看了三遍（目前为止）。
猜猜这是海报里的哪一个人？（看见这张照片我的心就溶了一半）
不晓得为什么我可以这么喜欢这一部日剧，当然里面的男生个个都长得超帅,女生个个超美的。其实我也不晓得为什么我这么喜欢这部剧也，看完了就觉得：我也好需要一个管家哦！其实这句话我已经不知道在我心里呐喊了几千遍了，因为我真的有很严重的选择性失忆症。常常不是这个忘记带，就是那个忘记带；常常很无理头的讲了一大堆没营养的话，在不知觉中伤害或得罪了人；常常自觉很聪明，但最笨的那个其实就是我。哈哈！没关系啦！我也看破咯！向我这种人啊，应该会和剧里的诗织小姐一样吧 -- 就是看起来很风光，但其实没人真正了解她。
哈哈！！！不写了，要继续看了！
猜猜这是海报里的哪一个人？（看见这张照片我的心就溶了一半）
不晓得为什么我可以这么喜欢这一部日剧，当然里面的男生个个都长得超帅,女生个个超美的。其实我也不晓得为什么我这么喜欢这部剧也，看完了就觉得：我也好需要一个管家哦！其实这句话我已经不知道在我心里呐喊了几千遍了，因为我真的有很严重的选择性失忆症。常常不是这个忘记带，就是那个忘记带；常常很无理头的讲了一大堆没营养的话，在不知觉中伤害或得罪了人；常常自觉很聪明，但最笨的那个其实就是我。哈哈！没关系啦！我也看破咯！向我这种人啊，应该会和剧里的诗织小姐一样吧 -- 就是看起来很风光，但其实没人真正了解她。
哈哈！！！不写了，要继续看了！
星期日, 3月 15, 2009
Home Alone!!!
It was school holiday again!!! I've been left home alone!!! With all parts of the house empty, my days had been more relax and enjoyable. Finally i could get rid of all those noises from the kids, struggling and wondering what i could help outside, force myself to be as busy as i can out there...
Just now, after a heavy downpour, i was sitting outside enjoying the dumpling which had been left over for me. Suddenly i realize that how i love the place, how fortunate for me to being here. The weather was superb, everything looks perfect in the dark. I was imagining the neighbours beside this house must had gone for work because i haven seen their car inside the house since this morning before i went out. And also, i started to stare at the house opposite, wondering what channel was they watching, because as for me, at this particular time i'm sure gonna watch ch317 for my favourite tv show!!!
My day had been so relax and enjoyable!!! Which is why i keep eating....HAHAHA!!! I had spent my whole afternoon watching the Oscar winning movie: The Curious Case of Benjamin Button!!! This was the first time i agreed with those Oscar judges for voting this movie. Though it was quite long (about 3 hours), there's still some point in there which now i was too deep into it and still feel a little bit sad about it. So now i need to find some tw show that can make me laugh. HAHAHA!!!
Just now, after a heavy downpour, i was sitting outside enjoying the dumpling which had been left over for me. Suddenly i realize that how i love the place, how fortunate for me to being here. The weather was superb, everything looks perfect in the dark. I was imagining the neighbours beside this house must had gone for work because i haven seen their car inside the house since this morning before i went out. And also, i started to stare at the house opposite, wondering what channel was they watching, because as for me, at this particular time i'm sure gonna watch ch317 for my favourite tv show!!!
My day had been so relax and enjoyable!!! Which is why i keep eating....HAHAHA!!! I had spent my whole afternoon watching the Oscar winning movie: The Curious Case of Benjamin Button!!! This was the first time i agreed with those Oscar judges for voting this movie. Though it was quite long (about 3 hours), there's still some point in there which now i was too deep into it and still feel a little bit sad about it. So now i need to find some tw show that can make me laugh. HAHAHA!!!
星期三, 3月 04, 2009
How to survive???
This was the question which i had been asking again and again. Until now i still cant find any answer that can be fitted into this question. Days had been getting tougher and tougher, life had been getting more complicated. I wonder how many times this had already been for me to blame myself to be stupid, naive and everything bad that i could think of. It's not that i want to, but...that's me!!! I had no idea how to change it!!! I have to admit that i'm not smart, i'm not clever, i'm not hardworking, i'm not good at anything, i'm not caring, i'm not good at talking, i'm not girl enough....i'm just good at nothing!!! I had been trying so hard to get at least smarter, trying to learn as much as i can but the results was still the same, i'm trying to act like it wasn't me but i just cant fake it!!!
23 years of my life, i had found nothing useful in me. Since the day i'm conscious, i had been questioning myself - why should i do this? Why should i do that? Since i'm not good at them, then why am i still doing it? It's just...there's just always something stuck inside my throat that i cant swallow or digest or take it out! If i do take it out, i'll have to face the consequences all by myself; if i digest and swallow it, i'll be blamed and keep hurting myself and suffer from the pain that only i could feel it.
It's very pathetic in the sense that, human beings like to listen to nice words while they isn't true; human beings like to see your reaction which is what they hope to see. Why cant we just hide all the true feelings? Or why is it so difficult to just shout out the true feelings? Though, i admit, true words are always hard to digest and sometimes will make me feel bad, but...that's the truth! Just give me some times to digest it, or maybe you just tell me directly what you expect me to do but not pretend that you're ok with everything then criticise me from the behind.
Today, i just heard too much of the truth which had been buried down under for ... God's know how long had it been. Though it makes me weap for a while, i still had to accept it. This is the life that Adam and Eve have left us. We'll have to suffer before we can see HIM in the heaven. All i can do now is, change my rational in order to survive now...throw away my pride, live as a cinderella...shut the vision on dreams that are unreachable...Can i do that??? Oh GOD....just let me had one minute to .... express it!!!
23 years of my life, i had found nothing useful in me. Since the day i'm conscious, i had been questioning myself - why should i do this? Why should i do that? Since i'm not good at them, then why am i still doing it? It's just...there's just always something stuck inside my throat that i cant swallow or digest or take it out! If i do take it out, i'll have to face the consequences all by myself; if i digest and swallow it, i'll be blamed and keep hurting myself and suffer from the pain that only i could feel it.
It's very pathetic in the sense that, human beings like to listen to nice words while they isn't true; human beings like to see your reaction which is what they hope to see. Why cant we just hide all the true feelings? Or why is it so difficult to just shout out the true feelings? Though, i admit, true words are always hard to digest and sometimes will make me feel bad, but...that's the truth! Just give me some times to digest it, or maybe you just tell me directly what you expect me to do but not pretend that you're ok with everything then criticise me from the behind.
Today, i just heard too much of the truth which had been buried down under for ... God's know how long had it been. Though it makes me weap for a while, i still had to accept it. This is the life that Adam and Eve have left us. We'll have to suffer before we can see HIM in the heaven. All i can do now is, change my rational in order to survive now...throw away my pride, live as a cinderella...shut the vision on dreams that are unreachable...Can i do that??? Oh GOD....just let me had one minute to .... express it!!!
星期日, 3月 01, 2009
兴奋...开心...期待！！！
昨夜被一个刚认识的朋友在msn敲了一下，为的就是要跟我说看见力宏演唱会的报道了！今天的报章应该登了好大一个版面了吧（本人没有买报子的习惯所以不了），但网路新闻是看到了！所以，今早崇拜完毕后，到麦当劳叫了一份我最爱的早餐后，就迫不及待的打电话通知我妈！我第一句还问她‘你有没有看到今天的报子？’我妈好好笑哦，她还以为有什么世界大新闻。结果听到我说是王力宏演唱会时就‘切！’了一声，她还说‘原来这个事你的大新闻啊！’靠！当然啦！这对我来说是天大的新闻也！等礼拜五我回去再和我妈洽谈详情，哈哈哈！我妈好象我的经纪人哦！现在的我就是整个超兴奋超high的！但，我只能选一样，就是说：我去看演唱会了，就不能去签唱会了！没关系，我忍！反正上一次我们都讲说看到有点没感觉了。所以，要往更‘高难度’挑战。哈哈哈！！！
今天的我，真的心情爆好的！女人就是有个死穴，心情好就会想逛街，心情不好也会想逛街；不管心情好还是不好，只要买到了喜欢或大减价的东西，心情再怎样不好也会立刻变好！今天的我，不只是因为逛街买了减价的东西而开心，主要还是因为我很快又要在见到力宏了！！！他最新大专辑：心跳，我已经当被功课一样听了上百甚至上千遍了！（我是说真的哦！一点都没有夸张哦！）哈哈！！！
反正我现在心情就是爆好的！连对我那些表弟都特别温柔的，哇哈哈哈！
今天的我，真的心情爆好的！女人就是有个死穴，心情好就会想逛街，心情不好也会想逛街；不管心情好还是不好，只要买到了喜欢或大减价的东西，心情再怎样不好也会立刻变好！今天的我，不只是因为逛街买了减价的东西而开心，主要还是因为我很快又要在见到力宏了！！！他最新大专辑：心跳，我已经当被功课一样听了上百甚至上千遍了！（我是说真的哦！一点都没有夸张哦！）哈哈！！！
反正我现在心情就是爆好的！连对我那些表弟都特别温柔的，哇哈哈哈！
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