Today, a public holiday, i'm home alone. I spend whole afternoon out there shopping until i got something from head to toe. All this spend a quarter of my salary. I wonder how can i survive until end of the month. The Chinese New Year is around the corner, this is the excuse i'm giving myself. From now onwards, i swear...no shopping for myself anymore. No more accessories or luxurious food for me anymore. I'm gonna live a simple life from now on.
Whole afternoon outside wondering all by myself, get lost in the town and finally get on the correct track, makes me feel so lonely. Though i look busy, but inside of me is hollow. I feel like i need someone to talk to but only then i realized i don't have one, which is kindda pathetic. I couldn't remember when is the last time i laugh out loud, makes me feel like stepping into the cinema to watch YES MAN.
Well, my life nowadays is so simple. During normal working days, my days past real fast. However, during the weekend, my days feel like ages. I feel wanted to give up on everything and just step on to Doulos. But, i cant. The reality is holding me back. No matter how i feel right now, what i'm going to face in the future for my job, i'll be hanging there. For money sack i'll be holding what my job needs me to do now, i'm sure will get on to Doulos. So....Doulos....wait for me!!!
星期一, 12月 29, 2008
星期四, 12月 25, 2008
Only i realize how i miss it so much
Merry Christmas to those who are reading my blog, wish you had a great time to sit down and relax, cleared up your mind from all your busy living days etc. As for me, i just came back from church. This morning, GOD wakes me up. Because i tell HIM that tomorrow i'll hav to be in the church to celebrate JESUS birthday. And, YES!!! HE wakes me up!!! I didn't wake up with any alarm clock for me to snooze which i usually did, when i finally get a seat in the church, the service get started. Praise GOD for that, I'M PUNCTUAL!!!
I had no idea why the blood inside me was burning, i almost sing the Christmas Song out loud while the world was still sleeping. In the church, everything was too good to be describe. I was so glad i'm back to GOD's home again. This was superb!!! I feel like weeping while I heard the soprano solo on What Child This Is. I knew very well what child that was but i had been away from HIM for ... only HIM knew how long. When i heard that song, i can feel HIS warm and comfort arm was holding me tight to HIM. The comfort and touch is beyong everything. Even if the world fades, HE will still be standing by my side. No matter how things getting worst, HE is still there, weeping together with me, HE is my only comforter. Only HE can give me the comfort where living mans in this world can't.
In this beautiful day of Christmas, where the weather was superbly good with the sun shinning bright outside from the rainy days past few weeks, i'm sitting right here with my Nescafe beside me posting my blog, praising our GOD. Before this day ever came, i felt so much excited that i started to plan a lot of places to go for this day. But, i end up sitting at home now with my handphone locked in my drawer in the office. This was all HIS will. HE wants me to stay with HIM in this beautiful days, so that nothing can distract me from being with HIM. How beautiful everything was.
Thank GOD.
Only YOU know what i really want
Only YOU can heard the shout of desire deep down my heart
Only YOU could understand me well than every living creature did
I feel so useless
There was so many lost soul out there
GOD please provide me strength and wisdom and everything that YOU can provide me
Let me be your tools to save them
I Love YOU GOD!!!
I had no idea why the blood inside me was burning, i almost sing the Christmas Song out loud while the world was still sleeping. In the church, everything was too good to be describe. I was so glad i'm back to GOD's home again. This was superb!!! I feel like weeping while I heard the soprano solo on What Child This Is. I knew very well what child that was but i had been away from HIM for ... only HIM knew how long. When i heard that song, i can feel HIS warm and comfort arm was holding me tight to HIM. The comfort and touch is beyong everything. Even if the world fades, HE will still be standing by my side. No matter how things getting worst, HE is still there, weeping together with me, HE is my only comforter. Only HE can give me the comfort where living mans in this world can't.
In this beautiful day of Christmas, where the weather was superbly good with the sun shinning bright outside from the rainy days past few weeks, i'm sitting right here with my Nescafe beside me posting my blog, praising our GOD. Before this day ever came, i felt so much excited that i started to plan a lot of places to go for this day. But, i end up sitting at home now with my handphone locked in my drawer in the office. This was all HIS will. HE wants me to stay with HIM in this beautiful days, so that nothing can distract me from being with HIM. How beautiful everything was.
Thank GOD.
Only YOU know what i really want
Only YOU can heard the shout of desire deep down my heart
Only YOU could understand me well than every living creature did
I feel so useless
There was so many lost soul out there
GOD please provide me strength and wisdom and everything that YOU can provide me
Let me be your tools to save them
I Love YOU GOD!!!
星期六, 12月 20, 2008
Twilight
This was such a romantic novel which i had been reading in my life time. I mustn't deny that i do feel an urged to get a boyfriend myself, hoping that my relationship with my guy will be like them as well. But, reality always too cruel to be known.
This was a real beautiful story. I had finish the first book of it and i'm gonna starting up with the second one now. Thanks to my best friend sending me the softcopy of this and let my day pass with the romance in the air. I think i might had been get too deep down into the story, until last night, i worp up at 3am, a sleepless night, dreaming about one guy whom it will never be real for me to see him. Erm, i don't mind telling who was that, the guy in my dream is DUNCAN JAMES. Weird huh!!! I myself cant believe it as well. But, no matter what, this is all not my point. Whatever i dreamt was a totally contrast from the Twilight.
In my dreamt, this Duncan had already married and already a father of one daughter. Towards the end of my dream, i can only conclude that there was a sound crying for regret on this guy. I think he's kindda like my ex and something like that and now he had married with another women and live in a happy life which i could never imagine. Weird again huh!!! I myself was shocked as well when i dream about things like this. All of this because of this romantic Twilight, makes me feel love is in the air (which is most impossible things to happen).
The author of the book Twilight -- Stephenie Meyer, i think is because she is a girl so she write more detail on how a girl feel deep inside. I was so impress with the way she describe the inner feeling of the character, though it's a little bit boring there. But, yeah, she was success. No wonder this book sells so much better than Harry Potter.
I'm gonna get myself into the cinema and see how's the director going to make this novel into movie without loosing any romance of the book. Well, i'm gonna continue with the second book now!!!
This was a real beautiful story. I had finish the first book of it and i'm gonna starting up with the second one now. Thanks to my best friend sending me the softcopy of this and let my day pass with the romance in the air. I think i might had been get too deep down into the story, until last night, i worp up at 3am, a sleepless night, dreaming about one guy whom it will never be real for me to see him. Erm, i don't mind telling who was that, the guy in my dream is DUNCAN JAMES. Weird huh!!! I myself cant believe it as well. But, no matter what, this is all not my point. Whatever i dreamt was a totally contrast from the Twilight.
In my dreamt, this Duncan had already married and already a father of one daughter. Towards the end of my dream, i can only conclude that there was a sound crying for regret on this guy. I think he's kindda like my ex and something like that and now he had married with another women and live in a happy life which i could never imagine. Weird again huh!!! I myself was shocked as well when i dream about things like this. All of this because of this romantic Twilight, makes me feel love is in the air (which is most impossible things to happen).
The author of the book Twilight -- Stephenie Meyer, i think is because she is a girl so she write more detail on how a girl feel deep inside. I was so impress with the way she describe the inner feeling of the character, though it's a little bit boring there. But, yeah, she was success. No wonder this book sells so much better than Harry Potter.
I'm gonna get myself into the cinema and see how's the director going to make this novel into movie without loosing any romance of the book. Well, i'm gonna continue with the second book now!!!
星期六, 12月 06, 2008
槟城。。。我爱你！！！
这一趟的行程，感觉上好像比以前短。但这一次，是真正让我对槟城改观的一趟。这一趟，除了买了很多东西、逛了两间商场，这趟也和上一趟一样呆在医院里面几乎一整天。唯一不同的是，这一趟我吃了超多东西的。我可以说是把所有槟城有名的东西都吃了，只要我的肚子允许的我都吃了。有到了槟城一定要吃的炒果条、能够做出五星级般的菜色的大炒、有名的路边摊吃着有名的糖水-cenddol、一家应有尽有而且风景又好的大牌档.....反正，只要你讲得出来，我应该都有吃到。果然，名不虚传，槟城真的真的是一个美食天堂。而且啊，我也开始明白为什么我们家两老从槟城回来后就对它念念不忘，现在的我就是这样。
这一趟能够过得这么难忘当然，有一个人我一定是要感谢的。如果没有他，我这趟行程就只会去商场和医院。而且啊，其实我这一次是身负重任的，是他把我捧在天上，让我觉得我像个公主一样。有些东西我不好意思开口的，他好像听见我内心的呐喊一样，一样一样的帮我实现。这个人可以说是看着我长大成人的，在我7-8岁开始就看见他，每个月带着一班男生到民都鲁。这种日子一直持续到现在，但现在只剩下他一个人来了。这个人对我们家影响也蛮大的，家里的风吹草动无法解决事，他就像是神派来的天使一样来为我们解决一切的难题。现在回想起来，我们家会认识他好像不是偶然的，而是上帝冥冥之中安排的。感谢主！！！而且啊，也是他让我看见，原来这个世界还有这么好的人存在着，还真得让我对男生有一点点的期望。哈哈！！！
反正，就是难忘啦！！！买了超多东西，因为下一次出门不知道是什么时候了，吃了超多东西.....从明天开始我不可能吃到这么多好吃的东西了。我要开始减肥了！！！可怜的我，拉肚子了！！！
这一趟能够过得这么难忘当然，有一个人我一定是要感谢的。如果没有他，我这趟行程就只会去商场和医院。而且啊，其实我这一次是身负重任的，是他把我捧在天上，让我觉得我像个公主一样。有些东西我不好意思开口的，他好像听见我内心的呐喊一样，一样一样的帮我实现。这个人可以说是看着我长大成人的，在我7-8岁开始就看见他，每个月带着一班男生到民都鲁。这种日子一直持续到现在，但现在只剩下他一个人来了。这个人对我们家影响也蛮大的，家里的风吹草动无法解决事，他就像是神派来的天使一样来为我们解决一切的难题。现在回想起来，我们家会认识他好像不是偶然的，而是上帝冥冥之中安排的。感谢主！！！而且啊，也是他让我看见，原来这个世界还有这么好的人存在着，还真得让我对男生有一点点的期望。哈哈！！！
反正，就是难忘啦！！！买了超多东西，因为下一次出门不知道是什么时候了，吃了超多东西.....从明天开始我不可能吃到这么多好吃的东西了。我要开始减肥了！！！可怜的我，拉肚子了！！！
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