今天是我第一天考试，而且今天的这张是我重考的，所以没有那么紧张因为都已知道格式了。等了两个星期，终于等到这一天的来临了。还真是有点期待它快快的过，但这一段时间也是最苦的。没关系啦，忍一忍然后就可以去玩啦！而且这一次我特地多留一个星期在这里，多亏我民智的决定让我能够见到两年没见的绮敏，还真是蛮期待的。
其实在这一段所谓的study week其间，我好像也没有很用力的在温书。去运动那个不算啦，我就还会往外跑啊。新开张的Pyramid 2就来被我走烂了！加上多了一位‘姐妹’陪伴一起逛街，当然感觉就不一样啦！也不知道从什么时候开始和那位‘姐妹’的关系突然‘突飞猛进’，连我自己也有点觉得不可思议。我们真的好到一种很令人误会的程度，就连睡我隔壁房的都会常常问我一些他的事啊之类的，而且严重到一种程度就是就连一个跟我不是很熟的（也有一起去运动过的）朋友都会把我们俩送做堆。起初在身边的人还没有这些反应的时候，我还真的没有想这么多。就真的觉得多了一个很要好的‘姐妹’。
至于为什么我会一直称他为‘姐妹’呢，其实是有原因的。因为，他真的比姐妹还姐妹。你可以想象吗，一个大男人竟然可以在大庭广众和老伴在那里讨价还价（之类的）！！！怎么可能！就连我也做不出这种事。而且啊，有哪个男生带的包包是那种购物袋啊？就是那种披在肩上的！怎么可能！连我的也最起码事业个背包呢！和他走在一起就会觉得我和他的身份是调换的，我是男生而他是女生。我们有时候在打打闹闹的时候啊，我们也会互相提醒他每天在对着一个男生而我是每天在对着一个女生。哇哈哈！好笑吧！
或许就因为这样，我觉得和他一起出去玩很轻松。就觉得，我可以是我自己而不需要在乎别人会怎样看我。想笑大大声就笑大大声、想喷口水就喷口水、想讲一些我平时不讲的话就毫无考虑的讲出来（而且他也是这样）。好轻松！不知道从什么时候开始，这种感觉就已经离我而去。而我也渐渐忘记这种感觉了。所以只要是他叫到，我几乎都不会说不的，就当时出去疏解压力咯。
最近的我，思绪里又多了一个影子出现。这个影子应该是遥不可及的，就像我喜欢王力宏的那种感觉一样。而这几次和他有多一点的接触后发现，原来我还真是个花痴啊！还真是有点笨！从昨天开始，那种感觉就少了很多！因为就发现原来他并不是我想象中的那样。有期待就有失望吧！感谢主！主真是最了解我，他知道哪些是对我是无畏的，所以都会慢慢的帮我清除。感谢主！
星期二, 10月 30, 2007
溏心风暴2
这几天总算把所有的功课都交上的，所以就把溏心风暴再看一次。不知为什么，以前看到常在心和程亮两人的问题就觉得很不想看下去。就觉得他们两个人的关系搞到我这个看的人很累。现在，再一次看一遍突然觉得感触良多。
常在心这么用心的为她和程亮的感情付出，而程亮他因为一时的贪念而和常在心最好的朋友染上。整部剧里，就觉得常在心很可怜、很痛苦、很累。
我不会为常在心觉得不值，也不会因为程亮的过失而讨厌他。我只是觉得，一段感情就是这样，一定会有过渡期。只要你熬过这一段痛苦又漫长的过渡期，往后的日子就没有什么好忧虑的了。但是，在现在这个世界，如果每个人都这么努力的在为自己的感情付出及珍惜，那离婚率就不会这么高、为清闹自杀的人就不会越来越多。现在对自己所可以得到的东西往往都觉得不足够，以至有这么多的问题出现。这部剧里有些台词真的很有道理，让我在看的同时也可以学习到一些人生的哲学。
感情这种东西，还真是又期待又怕受伤害呀！不知道从什么时候开始，所有的男生对我来说都好肤浅。专家说的果然没错，男生是用眼睛来思考而女生是用心来思考的。神的创造好奇妙哦！这样不同的两种人怎样能够结合呢？好多人都会对我说，我等待的那一位还未出现。而我会觉得，为什么一定有一位是我等待的呢？难道，我不可以一个人过吗？为什么一定要我等呢？难道我不可以自己去找寻和我心意的那一位吗？这一切的一切，我已经问过千百遍。如今，我已不想再问了。我深深的相信，神已经有我的答案只不过他觉得我还没预备好。这个答案或许会很令人痛心，又或许会很令人开心，但这一切都不是我们-人可以掌权的。唯一的掌权者是那位尊贵的天父。
在我的字典里，爱情是一个遥不可及的东西。说我不想要有一段感情是骗人的，但我不会麻木的让我自己随随便便进入一个感情的圈套，为的是要保护我自己。如果自己都不保护自己，那谁还会来保护自己呢？就像我现在这样，生病了也没什么大不了的嘛。只不过是半夜会咳嗽咳到醒来甚至会咳到流泪。这就是身体在抗议了！抗议我为什么没有好好照顾我自己，搞到现在这么痛苦。当然，多一个人在我身边关心我照顾我这种日子真的好幸福好令人期待，但是谁有那么多美国时间无时无刻在你身边提醒你要做这个不做那个的？就算真的有，我应该会觉得他很烦吧！
人就是这样咯！想又不是，要有不敢。做自己吧！不要想这么多，我还有一大堆书要读呢！
常在心这么用心的为她和程亮的感情付出，而程亮他因为一时的贪念而和常在心最好的朋友染上。整部剧里，就觉得常在心很可怜、很痛苦、很累。
我不会为常在心觉得不值，也不会因为程亮的过失而讨厌他。我只是觉得，一段感情就是这样，一定会有过渡期。只要你熬过这一段痛苦又漫长的过渡期，往后的日子就没有什么好忧虑的了。但是，在现在这个世界，如果每个人都这么努力的在为自己的感情付出及珍惜，那离婚率就不会这么高、为清闹自杀的人就不会越来越多。现在对自己所可以得到的东西往往都觉得不足够，以至有这么多的问题出现。这部剧里有些台词真的很有道理，让我在看的同时也可以学习到一些人生的哲学。
感情这种东西，还真是又期待又怕受伤害呀！不知道从什么时候开始，所有的男生对我来说都好肤浅。专家说的果然没错，男生是用眼睛来思考而女生是用心来思考的。神的创造好奇妙哦！这样不同的两种人怎样能够结合呢？好多人都会对我说，我等待的那一位还未出现。而我会觉得，为什么一定有一位是我等待的呢？难道，我不可以一个人过吗？为什么一定要我等呢？难道我不可以自己去找寻和我心意的那一位吗？这一切的一切，我已经问过千百遍。如今，我已不想再问了。我深深的相信，神已经有我的答案只不过他觉得我还没预备好。这个答案或许会很令人痛心，又或许会很令人开心，但这一切都不是我们-人可以掌权的。唯一的掌权者是那位尊贵的天父。
在我的字典里，爱情是一个遥不可及的东西。说我不想要有一段感情是骗人的，但我不会麻木的让我自己随随便便进入一个感情的圈套，为的是要保护我自己。如果自己都不保护自己，那谁还会来保护自己呢？就像我现在这样，生病了也没什么大不了的嘛。只不过是半夜会咳嗽咳到醒来甚至会咳到流泪。这就是身体在抗议了！抗议我为什么没有好好照顾我自己，搞到现在这么痛苦。当然，多一个人在我身边关心我照顾我这种日子真的好幸福好令人期待，但是谁有那么多美国时间无时无刻在你身边提醒你要做这个不做那个的？就算真的有，我应该会觉得他很烦吧！
人就是这样咯！想又不是，要有不敢。做自己吧！不要想这么多，我还有一大堆书要读呢！
星期六, 10月 27, 2007
Energetic
Today is 27/10....n my first paper is on 30/10...which means i have 3 more days to go to reach my d-day!!! To be honest, i cant wait for that particular day to come and even hope for it to end....i cant wait for 8/11 where i'll b totally free!!!Everyday whenever i'm lockin myself at home, i'll always feel sleepy and in low batt mode. The situation will get worst when i sit in front of the table with my notes and books open. Why am i always so low batt??? This time i definitely can feel d FAIL words comin again....
Yesterday, as usual when i went to spinning class...and after all the workout and shower...Bryan tell me that i'm very energetic. Coz the class seems to be very easy for me....Whua....i cant believe that!!!! It's the first time ever there's someone use that word one me....i just too shock....Thanks for his words also, i do feel energetic that whole day.
Then when this mornin, when i was readin my daily bread, i read a article on a lazy man who was sooo lazy to do whatever things which he thinks is difficult...his father was so worried bout him so he ask around of his friends in order to get him one easy job....then one day, one friend come and tell his father that he have a nice and easy job order for his son....that's been a guard at the graveyard! All he have to do is just sit there and guard. Then after 10 days, the guy quit his job. He tell his father that it's not fair for him to sit there but all the people around him lyin there.
WHUA!!!! After i've read this article ho....there's like a big slap on my face....i almost become tat young man!!! I've finally wake up!!! All the while i've been sleeping....i'm just like that young man...whenever i started to read, i'll feel sleepy...what's the different between me n d young man????
From now onwards,i'll swear to get fully charged whenever i study....use the words that Bryan had used on my wisely....
Yesterday, as usual when i went to spinning class...and after all the workout and shower...Bryan tell me that i'm very energetic. Coz the class seems to be very easy for me....Whua....i cant believe that!!!! It's the first time ever there's someone use that word one me....i just too shock....Thanks for his words also, i do feel energetic that whole day.
Then when this mornin, when i was readin my daily bread, i read a article on a lazy man who was sooo lazy to do whatever things which he thinks is difficult...his father was so worried bout him so he ask around of his friends in order to get him one easy job....then one day, one friend come and tell his father that he have a nice and easy job order for his son....that's been a guard at the graveyard! All he have to do is just sit there and guard. Then after 10 days, the guy quit his job. He tell his father that it's not fair for him to sit there but all the people around him lyin there.
WHUA!!!! After i've read this article ho....there's like a big slap on my face....i almost become tat young man!!! I've finally wake up!!! All the while i've been sleeping....i'm just like that young man...whenever i started to read, i'll feel sleepy...what's the different between me n d young man????
From now onwards,i'll swear to get fully charged whenever i study....use the words that Bryan had used on my wisely....
星期一, 10月 22, 2007
Love is in d air....
Yes Yes Yes!!!! I swear i'll go to the mornin combat cls....Yes Yes!!!At first i was just trying my luck to sit outside of the class tryin to cool myself down, just wanted to see whether he'll come and talk to me o not....and he does!!!WAHAHA!!!!He ask me-'mou dok shu meh?' wahahaha....then he ask me to come again for d combat class later in the evening....seriously, before he ask me that i've never thought of coming to another combat class again....then my heart is kindda like...shaken when he ask me that....WAHAHAHA!!!!
Honestly, the combat class just now wasn't really tiring like the normal one. And we also didn't work on our core muscle as well. So, it's kindda like...not enough for me....later went back home i'll do it myself....hahaha....back to the combat class just now...there's only 5 people in the class....and 3 out of 5 are first timer....so he teach so detail just now....first time ever i've attended a combat class with the instructor standing in front of u tellin u how to do ur posture right....first time ever....and with him!!!!Wahahaa....
Wahahaha....Wahahaha....Wahahaa....just let me laugh to myself now....i just cant stop it!!!! Wahahaha!!!!
Honestly, the combat class just now wasn't really tiring like the normal one. And we also didn't work on our core muscle as well. So, it's kindda like...not enough for me....later went back home i'll do it myself....hahaha....back to the combat class just now...there's only 5 people in the class....and 3 out of 5 are first timer....so he teach so detail just now....first time ever i've attended a combat class with the instructor standing in front of u tellin u how to do ur posture right....first time ever....and with him!!!!Wahahaa....
Wahahaha....Wahahaha....Wahahaa....just let me laugh to myself now....i just cant stop it!!!! Wahahaha!!!!
星期四, 10月 18, 2007
The Dream I Had
There's something i must shout it out loud here.... o else i'll seriously get mad!!!
This morning when i was suppose to force myself out of the bed, i get back to sleep again and this is the time where i had the weirdest dream i've ever had....this dream interrupts my emotion for the whole day where i cant concentrate on my study...the dream keep on popping out in front of me....it's weird...and it looks sooo real....
Well, actually, it's not the first time i've been dreaming bout instructor....but this time....it's d most...how should i say....i've never thought of that instructor will ever come into my mind....it's sooo soooo real....and when just now i get into his class, when we use to clap each other hand, there's some kind of 'electric shock'....i had no idea what that....weird...i don't want to have that feeling....although he is a supa nice instructor which motivates me a lot....but i've never thought of he become the main character in my dream as well....i just....cant believe that!!!
HELP....HELP....HELP!!!!! Help me get rid of all these stupid things....i'd try to keep myself busy and not thinking bout watever i've seen in the dream this morning....it makes me feel bad...and interupt my emotion so badly.....PLEASE....GOD....Giv me wisdom...to stop myself from all these stupid things.....
This morning when i was suppose to force myself out of the bed, i get back to sleep again and this is the time where i had the weirdest dream i've ever had....this dream interrupts my emotion for the whole day where i cant concentrate on my study...the dream keep on popping out in front of me....it's weird...and it looks sooo real....
Well, actually, it's not the first time i've been dreaming bout instructor....but this time....it's d most...how should i say....i've never thought of that instructor will ever come into my mind....it's sooo soooo real....and when just now i get into his class, when we use to clap each other hand, there's some kind of 'electric shock'....i had no idea what that....weird...i don't want to have that feeling....although he is a supa nice instructor which motivates me a lot....but i've never thought of he become the main character in my dream as well....i just....cant believe that!!!
HELP....HELP....HELP!!!!! Help me get rid of all these stupid things....i'd try to keep myself busy and not thinking bout watever i've seen in the dream this morning....it makes me feel bad...and interupt my emotion so badly.....PLEASE....GOD....Giv me wisdom...to stop myself from all these stupid things.....
星期一, 10月 08, 2007
I'm sick
It's been a long time since the last time i fell sick....i was the one who din take care of myself...i din drink enough water then cause dehydration inside my body....tat day when i stay awake the whole nite just to finish tat stupid genomics report, i already feel not good....tat day i din really go to toilet....i mean for the big one....i'll go for the big one...daily ler....but tat particular day i din...so i know there's something wrong inside...
then on friday, when i was lying on the bed trying to recover all my sleep from the previous nite...i just feel like i'm having difficulties to sleep....i can feel the heat coming out from my bed....it's hot....then only i realized the heat comes from myself....the whole nite i din sleep well and there's mosquitoes keep on biting me becoz of my high body temperature that attract them....
again on the next day, saturday, the volcano had finally erupted....every heat goes up to the head and it pains like hell....i seriously feel like i wanted to bang my head on the wall to make myself feel better....somemore tat nite is another busy nite for me working at church....i feel so so uncomfortable tat nite and just feel like lyin on my bed instead of standing there cleaning all the mess....it wasn't mean that i'm unwilling to clean up the church but....jus....tired....
now...my throat always feels ichy....especially in the morning.....there's no one take care of me here so i have to take care of myself....no one will pass me medicine or bring me food....i'll have to do everything all by myself....there's always GOD besides me...instead of man....
then on friday, when i was lying on the bed trying to recover all my sleep from the previous nite...i just feel like i'm having difficulties to sleep....i can feel the heat coming out from my bed....it's hot....then only i realized the heat comes from myself....the whole nite i din sleep well and there's mosquitoes keep on biting me becoz of my high body temperature that attract them....
again on the next day, saturday, the volcano had finally erupted....every heat goes up to the head and it pains like hell....i seriously feel like i wanted to bang my head on the wall to make myself feel better....somemore tat nite is another busy nite for me working at church....i feel so so uncomfortable tat nite and just feel like lyin on my bed instead of standing there cleaning all the mess....it wasn't mean that i'm unwilling to clean up the church but....jus....tired....
now...my throat always feels ichy....especially in the morning.....there's no one take care of me here so i have to take care of myself....no one will pass me medicine or bring me food....i'll have to do everything all by myself....there's always GOD besides me...instead of man....
星期四, 10月 04, 2007
I feel like 1 2 kill myself
Wat is this kind of life i'm having now....all of the report due on the same days....somemore d lecture had rejected my extension....Wat kind of world this is. Y is there no kindness??? I do have the faith in myself that i can finish it these two days by skipping my sleeping time. But, i don't know where to start and wat to do. That's the things that i fear most. It's not the matter of time. God created 24 hours per day means that it's enough for us to do what we wanted to do in one whole day. Somemore i have more than 48 hours to do this two big assignments and report. Time is not the factor but it's me. I'm the one that is stupid and cant understand whatever we're doing in the lab. I'm stupid....stupid...stupid....
I seriously have the thought of killing myself now.....then i wont face all the suffer i have in this world. But....to be honest....i don't think GOD will let me go into the heaven with such a irresponsible me....He wont let me go to heaven this easily by just jumpin from a high rise building or watever....This must the challenge that GOD sets for me....HE believe that i can do all these things with the time HE gaved. Y should i disappoint HIM? There are sooo many people out there have faith in me.....I'M NOT GOIN TO SHOW MY WHITE FLAG TO ANYONE AND ANYTHING!!!!
NIKE~~JUST DO IT!!!!
ADDIDAS~~~IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING!!!!
I seriously have the thought of killing myself now.....then i wont face all the suffer i have in this world. But....to be honest....i don't think GOD will let me go into the heaven with such a irresponsible me....He wont let me go to heaven this easily by just jumpin from a high rise building or watever....This must the challenge that GOD sets for me....HE believe that i can do all these things with the time HE gaved. Y should i disappoint HIM? There are sooo many people out there have faith in me.....I'M NOT GOIN TO SHOW MY WHITE FLAG TO ANYONE AND ANYTHING!!!!
NIKE~~JUST DO IT!!!!
ADDIDAS~~~IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING!!!!
星期二, 10月 02, 2007
Low Energy
I've get back here in Monash Library typing my blog again....I've come back from my one week break. It wasn't a break for me, i've got tons of work to do. Those lecturer are evil....they set the due date for all of the subjects on one same day and same time....what the hack?!?!They thought we are supernatural is it?Well, that's no big deal actually. It's my last year in Monash and i've kindda get use to this kind of life but i always feel "low battery" these days....i just cant gather up my energy and do my work. Whenever i start up my comp, i'll just stare at my desktop (stare at my wallpaper-me n Stephanie) and do nothing. I just feel blur and down everyday. Whenever i c my lab manual i'll feel bad, my eyes will even fills with tears. I don't know anything for my reports and i cant find anyone who can help me. I just feel useless. I feel like i'm stupid and i cant do anything. I'm just tired and down. I'm trying so so hard to gather my energy now. Well, the combat yesterday to help me a lot. I work so hard that i can feel my thigh now. I so so love combat. I work so hard till i can see the effect on my arms and thigh. I like that!!!
On the day when i've get down from the plane and reach subang, there's a bunch of my frens ask me out for dinner before i step my foot in to my house. Thank GOD for them. At first i seriously feel very down and low power when the plane had landed. They all cheer me up!!!Thank GOD for them. That's the reasons why i like to be with them recently. I think there might have some 'whisper' out there asking bout me n the guy that i always used to be together with. HAHAHA!!!! So funny. I know sometimes we both is like....more than normal friends. Erm, i admit that we are more than friends. At least i feel that. We are 'sister'!!! WAHAHA!!! Don't worry, i wont get into relationship this early. The door for relationship in my heart had closed for long. For me, i've three stages of friends. First stage or the lower stage is the nomal friends where i only say HI to, second stage are most of the friends that i had, third and the highest stage are those can knew the inside of me like you (who r reading my blog now!!!) or someone that i like to play with. Haha!!! You should be proud with that!!!
Whatever....i don't care whether there's someone outside hate me a lot o wat...i don't care!!! Nobody is perfect. I just need to be myself, there's no point for me to change because of the environment or wat. Me is Me. I'd only change myself for the earth. SAVE THE WORLD!!! I do believe that the scene we see in 'The Day After Tomorrow' will happen one day like the flood in GENESIS. I do believe that!Get Prepared!!!
On the day when i've get down from the plane and reach subang, there's a bunch of my frens ask me out for dinner before i step my foot in to my house. Thank GOD for them. At first i seriously feel very down and low power when the plane had landed. They all cheer me up!!!Thank GOD for them. That's the reasons why i like to be with them recently. I think there might have some 'whisper' out there asking bout me n the guy that i always used to be together with. HAHAHA!!!! So funny. I know sometimes we both is like....more than normal friends. Erm, i admit that we are more than friends. At least i feel that. We are 'sister'!!! WAHAHA!!! Don't worry, i wont get into relationship this early. The door for relationship in my heart had closed for long. For me, i've three stages of friends. First stage or the lower stage is the nomal friends where i only say HI to, second stage are most of the friends that i had, third and the highest stage are those can knew the inside of me like you (who r reading my blog now!!!) or someone that i like to play with. Haha!!! You should be proud with that!!!
Whatever....i don't care whether there's someone outside hate me a lot o wat...i don't care!!! Nobody is perfect. I just need to be myself, there's no point for me to change because of the environment or wat. Me is Me. I'd only change myself for the earth. SAVE THE WORLD!!! I do believe that the scene we see in 'The Day After Tomorrow' will happen one day like the flood in GENESIS. I do believe that!Get Prepared!!!
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