Tired again!!!!

This week is the most tiring week for me. The reason that causes me to get this tired is not because that i started to have lab reports and stuff to do and to pass up, but is because of the emmcf things. Tomorrow is the day where we promote our choir. I'm the class rep for the choir so i have to be the one who handling all these things. I was super exhausted. There's a lot of things that i do not know how to do but i can see that GOD is beside me. HE is always there helping me for everything. HE bring others to me and help me so that i won't be suffering all alone. Although i feel tired and exhausted, i still feel energetic and excited for everything i've been doing now. It's different from the exhaustion that i used to had last time.

Nothing is Complicated

One of my housemate wanted to move out from the house since her sister was moving back to their hometown. Then, she was suggesting another guy to move into her room and ask me whether i wanted to move or not. Well, i was lazy to move out as you know moving out require so so much of energy and time. It's so troublesome. Somemore i only have one more year left here. So i do not feel to move. However, another housemate of mine think another way. He said he do not want someone he don't know to move into the house. Does he means that he wanted to cover up the rental for the empty room all by himself??? I definitely wont share the rental with him.

Everything is just so simply. Just one go and one in and that's it. Why must he make it so complicated??? I just don't understand.

Stupid Line

I pay soooo much to this school and get a super damn slow connection. Somemore my timetable is like hell. Who have their break for 4 hours in between? Stupid. What i am so mad about is the internet connection now. It is super super slow!!! AARGH!!! I'm so so so so mad about this....

Back in my room (KL)

Time has been working so hard that it didn't even rest for a while. My 3 months holidays had become a history just like that. Now i have to accept a brand new year 2007 with my study here in Monash.

This holiday i have been through a lot of things. There are good and bad of course. Sometimes when i cool down myself and think back what i've done, i realize that i was such a bad tempered and rude girl. Besides that, i'm very good at covering up myself so that others won't know the inside of me. Sometimes i was impressed with myself bout that. When someone tells me that how rude i am, i was like poured with cold water all over. Only then i realize that i am rude. So, this time for me to get back here in KL is for me to change my attitude, change my temper, change my manner. I've got to train myself to be more patient expecially communicating.

It's been a long time since my last flight to KL by using MAS airline. Well, it seems ordinary. But this is my first time sitting on MAS airbus. This airbus was so so different from airasia airbus. This airbus is very long and wide inside where it have 8 seats per row. WOW!!! This is my first time for sitting in such a huge plan. Although i do feel a little air sick, but i do manage it well that i did not vomit out. It probably because that i'm stuck in the middle of people and make me feel dizzy.

HUH....2molo 12pm is my first class...better get ready for everything....

High tech hp

This is ridiculous! I'm using my hp 2 post my blog here! Cant believe tat this new N73 of mine was so 'powerful'. At first i was just try n c whether i got load d blogger page, n now i'm here posting my blog! Wow!

Well,i'm in kch now. Enjoyin my last few days of my holiday. It's kindda sad tat i cant meet up Sophia, but i still can meet up Jen n others. Last nite, my dear Yee Man had fly back 2 aus. I so hope 2 meet her up end of this year.

Haha, wat a good phone my dad buy me. Although it's kindda huge 2 hold in hand, d function is awsome! Muakzz my dear N73...lov ya!

Last day at home

I cant believe that the times flies sooo fast....It's like yesterday i've been telling my parents that i'm going back home and now i'm telling them that my flight is tomorrow....

It's been a tough and tiring and joyous holiday. Although there are too many things that happen which seems to be unsolved, at least i feel that everything had been going on smoothly. I was mentally tired but not physically. I feel that i'm having such a joyous time spending times with my beloved Jocelyn. She was such a cute girl (although she was kindda naughty). I'll definitely miss her when i get back there.

Today i just allocate my timetable. It seems ok whereby i do not have any crashes. But....i have too much break in between....3-4 hours per day....Oh No!!!So i think i must join the swimming club then i'll go swimming during my break times. Or maybe i can used that time to do my report and stuff....but i afraid that i'll get lazy and get online to download all the stupid stuff and watch....OH....watever...i must must must work hard...I wont let myself to fail anymore....i must fight.....

Happy Valentine's Day

It's Valentine's Day again....for me, this is just another ordinary day. I do not deny that i was very warm to have someone holding my hand or even just have the hand over my shoulders (where i use to feel super warm in a cold weather when the driver in China put his hand around my shoulders). I always thinks that this is the day where i'll get myself into more trouble. In my recent life, whoever i meet are those very popular ones (for guys i mean) so there's one time that i used to be answering others questions about one of my best friend in this peak time. So this time, i'd just keep everything to myself. I didn't attending church fellowship and didn't even go to sunday worship service. I know i cannot be stopping from all the meeting at church but i just cant help myself. I just don't want to go out and social with others. Moreover, i think that the fellowship is getting 'bigger' and 'bigger'. I just feel like it's hard for me even to squeeze into the crowd. I don't want anyone to recognize me or even notice my appearance, but i just started to questioning whether the purpose for the new crowd to get into the fellowship is for GOD sake or any other things else.

Whatever it is. What i wanted to say now is that....I'M IN LOVE AGAIN!!!!! HAHAHA :D This is kindda ridiculous right. Well, i don't have a real guy for me to love to so i'd have to love on someone that everybody love and shared together. There are a lot of guy i like in my life. Well, let me listed all out.

1) My dear Jesus Christ -- He is GOD one and only son....He came to the earth because of our sin...He sacrifice himself on the cross for all of us....He LOVE everyone including sinners....He is the son of GOD....He listen to every word that we pray....He guide us through a light and correct pathway....I Love Him....

2) Wang Lee Hom -- He is no only good looking but also talented in music as well....He get very serious in doing everything....He is such a nice person....I've been in love with him since i was 12 (wow!!!)

3) Bosco Wong -- He is a new TVB artist which i'm recently mad with. He is such a happy guy. The reason that i like him is because of his laughter (weird ha!!). Whenever he laugh, i'll laugh together with him (in front of the tv) as well. I just couldn't understand why but his laughter is so powerful that it affect the person sitting in front of the tv. Besides that, i get to know that he is good at cooking as well. This was the point that i make me get mad at him this much. Maybe no one knew who he was. There's a pic shown beside, that's him. But one thing i'm concern...i think he is a little bit skinny. He can gain somemore weight i think....then he'll be perfect!!!!!

That's what i mean by the guy where everyone loved and share. I'd rather spend my time with these guys than any other one else. All the guys out there are so realistic (for me), even more realistic than girl. Guys think with their eyes but girls thinks with their heart. I always keep all these words in my mind.

A Beautiful Girl Just Die Like That

There's was a shocking news i heard yesterday night at around 9pm after i come back from outside still chit-chatting with my frens. What i heard was that a female taiwanese star whom got an accident on saturday was rushed to hospital in a very very bad and serious condition whereby she was already in coma condition when she was sent to the hospital. I think a lot of people must have heard of this shocking news happened in taiwan. She was such a beautiful and nice girl. Although i do not know her very well, or haven even watch any of her series...but this was a very shocking news to me.

Life is just like that. It can be a continuous...It can be meaningful...It can be life without a purpose...It can be ended without any reason....LIFE IS JUST LIKE THAT...We cannot predict what will happen in the next second. But all we can do is that we must live a PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE...We must live for GOD's sake!!!

Life is precious
Life is gold
Life is most valueable things on earth

Tired....

These days my life have been full of challenge. I started to feel exhausted and tired. I'm tired of facing all the stupid thing. Some of the things which seems ridiculous had happen in my family. I'm tired of everything. I feel like running away. But, where can i go? Everywhere will be a problem for me if i run away just like that! There are some words deep down in my heart that i cannot tell people. It doesn't mean that i don't want to, but just don't know how to put them in words.

I'm tired not only because of life. I'm tired of relationship between man as well. I'm tired of love. It's hard to be alone, but at least you won't hurt yourself when you are alone. Well.... i'm just tired....may GOD give me enough strength to face all these thing.

Tough

I always like the phrase-- Life is mean to be tough. For me, i think that my life is getting tougher and tougher as i grown up. There's more problems and troubles popping out anywhere whenever and whatever i do. If it wasn't because of GOD, i won't be able to face all these challenge. It was GOD that always holding my hands and facing all these challenge with me. I've been facing so much troubles and problems to face this few months. All these things keep me occupied. All these things keep my emotion at the most intense state. I feel like never had enough sleep although i sleep almost 10 hours a days! It was all those troubles that i have to face that keeps my body and soul busy and tired. I'm tired of everything. Sometimes i would even think of quitting everything. Just stay where i am and do what i wanted to. But i'll never be alive if i did that. The earth won't stop rotating because of me. The whole universe won't stop just like that because of me. So, I MUST BE TOUGH!

Although my body feel tired, my soul are exhausted, i always remind myself that there's always that special SOMEONE by my side. I knew that HE is just standing besides me, always ready by my side and giving me a hand. I knew for all that HE has done to me. There might have some unsolved problem that i'm facing right now, i knew that HE will definitely make way. All i have to do is continue to trust in HIM. Thankyou GOD!

冬天...秋天

又看了一部韩剧--<你来自哪颗星>. 韩剧通常都是在秋天或是冬天拍摄的. 而每当男女主角在那寒冷的天气里依偎在一起甚至是抱在一起的时候, 那种感觉好温暖哦!!! 我每次看到这种剧情时心里都会有股暖流踊上来 ... 仿佛我就是那位女主角一样.

顿时, 我就开始想...还好我不是在那种有四季的国家出生, 不然我的秋冬天肯定很难过. 在那种冷冷的气候里, 不管你穿上多厚的衣服都不比人的体温来得暖和. 那种暖和和衣服带来的暖和是不同的. 衣服的暖和只会是在表面的, 而人的体温所带来的暖和是暖到心里去的. 这种暖和在我上次去江南的时候就已体会到了. 王师傅那庞大的手臂所带来的温暖是我言语上无法形容的也是我无法忘怀的. 那时的我突然觉得心里好空虚. 我甚至还渴望能够有一个胳臂就像王师傅的一样温暖, 那样搂着我一辈子. 当然, 至今的我还在等候那个属于我的胳臂出现....或许十年....或许二十年....更或许永远都不会出现...但是...有一个胳臂是我看不见的...而且它时时刻刻都在搂着我抱着我...那就是耶稣基督的胳臂.

人就是这样. 你没有的东西, 你就越渴望去拥有它. 有时还会不顾一切后果将它得到. 而我们往往忽略了已经有一位伟大的圣人为我们所做的一切过犯承受了所有的罪刑. 他就是那伟大的耶稣基督. 我们应该为我们的现状而感恩, 荣耀主的圣名!!!哈利路亚...

幕后花絮

每一次看了一部剧都会特地上望去找他们拍摄的幕后花絮
因为每次看那些NG片段都会让人笑到不行
当然，好笑是其次
最重要的是我发现每一位演员在拍那部剧的时候都是很用心的
当让整个剧组也有很大的功劳啦

看了那些幕后的制作花絮，有一点是无可否认的
那就是-演员们不为人知的一面。
在片场，他们（演员们）就像一个大家庭一样
大家都有同样的目标-那就是快快拍好，回家睡觉!
他们甚至是在片场过年过节
就连我们一般人最重视的生日也得在工作力度过
当然，现实一点说-他们牺牲了生日但他们的口袋可没牺牲到呀

看了那些幕后花絮
总觉得演员们好团结，感情好好噢!
或许他们在明争暗斗
但至少在那一杀那我觉得他们是很好的。
这个宣传效果还真不赖嘛！

其实我想说的就是
我好像都从来没有那种团接及合作的对象
或许不可以这样说
但我觉得，我们在一起的默契还没达到很理想的程度
我很希望有一天我也可以有一帮猪朋狗友
大家一起打打闹闹。

从小到大我说所认识的人一个一个的都会离我而去
或许大家都在因为自己的梦想而奋斗吧
我也应该好好的奋斗了。。。
那我还在这里干嘛！！！
联考还没准备好啦！！！

Super Handsome instructor!!!!

Haha....d guy stand beside me is d fitness first instructor la....hohoho....he is super handsome man....have a super fit body.....n kindda shy shy like that....hahah....he is cute.....

n yesterday my roomate was walkin around sunway pyramid....then, she saw someone who looks familiar to her....guess who she see....that's right...it's the guy that stand beside me....somemore with his girlfriend....wahahah.....then she call me up (i was at home)....then i fly to sunway pyramid....by cab....wahaha....then we follow this couple throughout the whole shopping mall...hehehe....that guy is a super super super gentleman ler.....he holds her gf hands tightly.....and in his eyes there's only her gf inside....he might have notice that there's two girls who keep on following them....but i think.....he didn't see us directly.....sooooo jealous when i see this pair of couple....and the most important thing is that....his gf is super super super pretty.....this couple was like the prince and princess in the story we used to listen to when we are young.....sooooo......there'll definitely a happy ending for this couple....wish them all the best!!!

原来他走了。。。

每一次看到一张臭脸就知道是他的脸。他那张脸就是好像每次都有人欠他钱一样的。但如果他心情好的时候，全世界好像都是美好的一样。这些就是他的‘招牌’啦！时间还过得真是快，一转眼几年就这样过去了。他也毕业了！而且走了。。。

我本以为他走了我应该、也不会有多余的感觉。但原来我一直在骗我自己！这几天常会有他的影子在我脑海里出现，唯一不同的是-他已经走了。虽然我知道要去哪里找他，但心里就是有一种莫名的空虚。就像那天星期天去教堂，明明就很多人。但我的视线就会很不经意的一直在找着他的影子。看不到他的背影，心里有莫名的空虚。这种现象是我解释不了的。

那天星期五明知道是最后一天看见他了，自己却宁愿在后面忙东忙西的。其实我根本就没有好忙的，自己心里只觉得好像好多东西做一样。就连他要我一起拍个照六年我都不愿！其实，我只是在逃避他。我只是不敢正视他。我怕如果我真的太在乎他的话，回家后的我心里只会更空虚寂寞。结果，回家后的我心里一点都不好过。我发现到-原来我对他来说一点都不重要。他们过后还有去farewell而在后面忙的我完全不知道有这种东西。苦了我带着一颗伤心失望的心情走回家。本以为他会问我为何没去，但那一夜我的电话没响过。我所有的泪水只有往肚里吞。

三天就这样过去了。。。一则sms也没有。。。或许他回到家后忙吧！这是我一直安慰我自己的话。原来，我永远都是透明的。。。永远都是被人忘记的那个。。。难道，我就不是人吗？难道，你们没发现到我的存在吗？难道，我是玻璃做的吗？难道，我就不会伤心吗？

Fitness First

it's been a week now since the day i left fitness first....i sooo sooo sooo miss there....miss everything there....miss every class there....miss every instructor there....super miss the toilet there....super miss the sauna there....miss the steam room there....miss the locker there.....everything and everything....

everytime when i'm free my mind will be fooling around the fitness centre.....this might because i'm having sooo much fun there.....during daytime when i'm super busy and rush for my homework.....all my tired and stress are released when i was there in the centre.....i just do not know why this bring such a big effect.....

today....i'm kindda free.....so....i suddenly soooo soooo sooo miss there.....i even start to refresh that the schedule of the classes today.....d handsome and cool instructor that will having class today....i just.....

in the future, i'll definitely join as member....but not now.....i've got whole pile of works n study waiting for me....i cant....i cannot let myself go there at least during this period of time....i'm addicted to it....more serious than a drug addictor.....

BUSY life.....

HUHUHU....feel like crying....my life had been getting busier and busier.....i soooo cant tahan already!!!!I feel like running away from everything here....i super super tired already....everyday i've to do reports....everyday i'll have to sit in front of my pity laptop and type on it.....this week i have 3 reports (less one report because one lab session was cancelled last week)....and 2 assignment which due on d same day.......and....this after, d lec announced that he postpone the due date of d assignment to monday....so it'll drop down 2 3 reports n 1 assignment....now i only left one assignment (which i have started a word on it) and 1 report (which i almost finish) to do....i cant believe this....

but then this month, i go to FITNESS FIRST to work out.....hahah....at the first week, me and my roomate don't feel like joining the classes....n there's one day we decided to join for the classes....and now.....we are addicted!!!we go to the class 3 days per week....but then only for this month....coz we buy a RM25 voucher trial for the centre, so after this month, my life will get back to normal again.....i've go to Body Balance, Yoga, Body Jam, Body Combat, and Power Yoga.....n i super like Body Balance, Body Jam and Body Combat....i don't like YOGA....it's toooo stretching....and today my triceps feel awful....painful ler....my back and my waist as well....i can feel d over stretching of the muscle.....huhuhu.....but ho i super like Body Balance and Combat....coz i like that instructor soooo much!!!!She's super!!!!When she's in Body Balance....she's soooo smooth and soft.....every movement of hers is soooo soft and gentle....but then in Body Combat....she CHANGE!!!180 degress somemore.....from a soft and gentle person to a super active person whereby she's super active and super full of energy while teaching us all the combat movement!!!i soooooosoooooo like her ler.....this week there wont have her classes because of the instructor training thingy....haiyaya....i'm going to miss her sooo sooo much ler....after next week, i'll never see her again....unless i throw my money to the centre....it's a big budget for me....maybe wait till i work.....it's a big experience for me....at least there's some movement that i remember and i can practice and work out at home.....

hehe.....ok....away from fitness first.....there's one day ho, when i walked down from the bus ho....i bump my head onto the entrance of the bus....there's a big sound 'PONG' like that u know....walao er....me painful till almost pengsan...then ho super embarrased then i quickly jump down from the bus and leave the bus....walao....nasib there's no one i know in the bus....i think d bus driver must be laughing at me...n how....there's other day....when me and my roomate come back from fitness first....we've waited soooo long for the bus to come....then ho....finally it comes....at first the bus was still ok....then.....suddenly....the engine "SWOSH"....gone off.....walao....half way there ler....apu.....then we call our fren come n pick us up....we spend sooo much time on telling our exact location....hahaha.....then got one more day....very early in the morning.....again i got off from d bus....then i suddenly loss my balance....n then....."WHUP"....fell on d floor.....but i have touch d ground yet la....i manage to push myself back to standing position....wahahhaahha.....even myself laughing ler.....apu.....so stupid....heheheh

haha.....finish all my stupid things la!!!

Unresistable Cheesecake!!!!Yummy!!!!

HOHOHO!!!!very beautiful ho.....i can't tahan it ler.....super beautiful and delicious ler.....it's super unresistable!!!!after busy for the whole day, then suddenly i open my mailbox and found that one of my friend send me this super cuttie and delicious picture.....this makes my days brighter!!!!

i'm the kind of person where i'll eat a lot when i'm stress up or having any difficulties....so....all these pictures help a lot!!!!at least i do not have to eat them and i can have the same effect as eating them.....hahaha!!!!!wont get fat somemore.....wont feel full somemore.....but....definitely feel a lot brighter from the inside!!!!hahaha.....so.....hope it do helps....

Back to School

haha...back to school liao lo...this is my second week lo....i'm still in holiday mood...i still don't feel like doing anything yet....but....the reports and assignments keep on coming in....also test as well....it doesn't wait for me....it come only when i'm ready to do my work....like the earth still rotate although there's meteorites striking it....hai....that's life....and one things is that in this sem i found that it's harder than last sem....i heard from a lot of seniors says that it's getting tougher and tougher.....this scares me sooo much....and....i'm havin problem of getting the textbook....that textbook provided by library had been borrowed out since the first day of the school....and also....this is the first time i found that it's necessary for me to have the textbook....hai....i'm so scare to get back to the life back here....which mean i'll be busy.....especially i'm a cell group leader this time....this....challenge me a lot....i don't want to be a cell group leader...coz i know i'm not strong enough to be one....but....i'm forced to....every cell group leader is forced to be a leader....

sometimes i just feel very very disappointed with the fellowship which i'm going now....disappointed with the people there....i cant deny that they do lead the fellowship well....but why don't they think of the problem where they had been facing recently???why does all the new comers don't come to the fellowship frequently???of coz one of the problem is that they are busy with they school works (i also busy with that!!!)...another problem is that they cannt feel warm when they step into the fellowship....they feel that people in the fellowship care for their own....i cant deny that i do not know how to care for those newcomers....but....at least i was there!!!not like our president whereby he only been there once a month, that's when they have the committee meeting....this is ridiculous....i just feel very disappointed with the committee.....i've tell myself and pray to GOD that i definitely wont be the committee of this fellowship....hai....everywhere and anyone disappoints me....man is not made perfect for everything.....if one day i meet one who i feel is perfect, then he'll be my man....

Lazy is a very SERIOUS problem

Lazy is a very serious sickness that i'm not going to be fully recover...well....this illness not only found on me...but a lot of people out there as well (i think!)

Just now i heard from another friend of mine whereby he is like a postman between me and my best friend....he spread her words to me....then it makes me think a lot....why cant she just sms me directly and tell me all d things that she wanna say???why must spread the words to him???u know what answer i get???LAZY!!!!See how's the consequences of the laziness.....they symptoms is that you don't feel like doing anything....and there's nothing in the medical field that can cure this diseases....erm...back to my topic....what i want to say is....why she just cant take out her hp and just send an sms to me instead of i'm who d one who start up everything???it's not the first time....i'm tired of everything....so....to be fair, i didn't send any sms to any other friends there as well....but just now....i still send my sms to her....

i feel that i'm always the one who give out everything....but i didn't receive any....i feel not fair....i feel disappointed....whoever who talk to me will be all about her...well.....i feel like i'm being used....i just soooo sad when i heard that she say she's lazy to send sms....and somemore she's expecting to hear from me?!?!?unbelieveable.....i just cant believe this.....you wont get anything if you don't give it out....i just.....very sad....

Beckham's Tears :'(

The whole world has been shaking after the World Cup quarter final last two days whereby this match had sent both England and Brazil back home. It's was quite unbelievable that both of this team was sent back home this early. Brazil was the potential World Cup winner, but in the end....From the live broadcast of the match, everyone in the England team was sooo sooo sooo depressed and sad...whereby they sit on the ground and cry....Even David Beckham cry as well....they do not expect for all these to happen....Well, all i can say is-Good Luck in your future England and Brazil...

Well, actually i din sleep well yesterday night. I just do not know why i cannot get into sleep. Maybe i was distrupted by one sms which sent from my roomate there in Sunway. She tell me that how the guy (whom i have the special feeling BEFORE) care for the girl (my best friend). This sounds nothing but....i just do not know why....when i saw this sms, there's an angry feeling inside my heart....whereby i start to think that why he always treat others better???Only when he needs me he'll treat me well...i feel like i've been used since we've first know each other. I feel like i've been used to give him every information about her....i remember soooo well that he says to me that "it's because of you, then only i can get along well with her!"....this words had become a deep cut in my heart whereby it haven recovered till now. Sometimes i'm so sure that the special feeling that i have upon him had gone....but sometimes when i see him treat others well i'll feel angry and maybe jealous i should say....i just do not know why i have all these stupid feeling....maybe i'm just too shelfish....i just wish that i do not have to go back and study....i just wish that i can go to other place and study....go to a place where no one knows me....but it was GOD who lead me into Monash University. I've pray that i do not want to stay here and i want to leave all these stupid feeling and go to a new place where i start everything all over again....of coz....watever path that HE had choosen for me, i'll follow. That's why i'm here in Monash University. There must have somethings that GOD wants me to do or want me to complete....although life is difficult, i must follow GOD's path....