It's been a long time since the last time i fell sick....i was the one who din take care of myself...i din drink enough water then cause dehydration inside my body....tat day when i stay awake the whole nite just to finish tat stupid genomics report, i already feel not good....tat day i din really go to toilet....i mean for the big one....i'll go for the big one...daily ler....but tat particular day i din...so i know there's something wrong inside...
then on friday, when i was lying on the bed trying to recover all my sleep from the previous nite...i just feel like i'm having difficulties to sleep....i can feel the heat coming out from my bed....it's hot....then only i realized the heat comes from myself....the whole nite i din sleep well and there's mosquitoes keep on biting me becoz of my high body temperature that attract them....
again on the next day, saturday, the volcano had finally erupted....every heat goes up to the head and it pains like hell....i seriously feel like i wanted to bang my head on the wall to make myself feel better....somemore tat nite is another busy nite for me working at church....i feel so so uncomfortable tat nite and just feel like lyin on my bed instead of standing there cleaning all the mess....it wasn't mean that i'm unwilling to clean up the church but....jus....tired....
now...my throat always feels ichy....especially in the morning.....there's no one take care of me here so i have to take care of myself....no one will pass me medicine or bring me food....i'll have to do everything all by myself....there's always GOD besides me...instead of man....
星期四, 10月 04, 2007
I feel like 1 2 kill myself
Wat is this kind of life i'm having now....all of the report due on the same days....somemore d lecture had rejected my extension....Wat kind of world this is. Y is there no kindness??? I do have the faith in myself that i can finish it these two days by skipping my sleeping time. But, i don't know where to start and wat to do. That's the things that i fear most. It's not the matter of time. God created 24 hours per day means that it's enough for us to do what we wanted to do in one whole day. Somemore i have more than 48 hours to do this two big assignments and report. Time is not the factor but it's me. I'm the one that is stupid and cant understand whatever we're doing in the lab. I'm stupid....stupid...stupid....
I seriously have the thought of killing myself now.....then i wont face all the suffer i have in this world. But....to be honest....i don't think GOD will let me go into the heaven with such a irresponsible me....He wont let me go to heaven this easily by just jumpin from a high rise building or watever....This must the challenge that GOD sets for me....HE believe that i can do all these things with the time HE gaved. Y should i disappoint HIM? There are sooo many people out there have faith in me.....I'M NOT GOIN TO SHOW MY WHITE FLAG TO ANYONE AND ANYTHING!!!!
NIKE~~JUST DO IT!!!!
ADDIDAS~~~IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING!!!!
I seriously have the thought of killing myself now.....then i wont face all the suffer i have in this world. But....to be honest....i don't think GOD will let me go into the heaven with such a irresponsible me....He wont let me go to heaven this easily by just jumpin from a high rise building or watever....This must the challenge that GOD sets for me....HE believe that i can do all these things with the time HE gaved. Y should i disappoint HIM? There are sooo many people out there have faith in me.....I'M NOT GOIN TO SHOW MY WHITE FLAG TO ANYONE AND ANYTHING!!!!
NIKE~~JUST DO IT!!!!
ADDIDAS~~~IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING!!!!
星期二, 10月 02, 2007
Low Energy
I've get back here in Monash Library typing my blog again....I've come back from my one week break. It wasn't a break for me, i've got tons of work to do. Those lecturer are evil....they set the due date for all of the subjects on one same day and same time....what the hack?!?!They thought we are supernatural is it?Well, that's no big deal actually. It's my last year in Monash and i've kindda get use to this kind of life but i always feel "low battery" these days....i just cant gather up my energy and do my work. Whenever i start up my comp, i'll just stare at my desktop (stare at my wallpaper-me n Stephanie) and do nothing. I just feel blur and down everyday. Whenever i c my lab manual i'll feel bad, my eyes will even fills with tears. I don't know anything for my reports and i cant find anyone who can help me. I just feel useless. I feel like i'm stupid and i cant do anything. I'm just tired and down. I'm trying so so hard to gather my energy now. Well, the combat yesterday to help me a lot. I work so hard that i can feel my thigh now. I so so love combat. I work so hard till i can see the effect on my arms and thigh. I like that!!!
On the day when i've get down from the plane and reach subang, there's a bunch of my frens ask me out for dinner before i step my foot in to my house. Thank GOD for them. At first i seriously feel very down and low power when the plane had landed. They all cheer me up!!!Thank GOD for them. That's the reasons why i like to be with them recently. I think there might have some 'whisper' out there asking bout me n the guy that i always used to be together with. HAHAHA!!!! So funny. I know sometimes we both is like....more than normal friends. Erm, i admit that we are more than friends. At least i feel that. We are 'sister'!!! WAHAHA!!! Don't worry, i wont get into relationship this early. The door for relationship in my heart had closed for long. For me, i've three stages of friends. First stage or the lower stage is the nomal friends where i only say HI to, second stage are most of the friends that i had, third and the highest stage are those can knew the inside of me like you (who r reading my blog now!!!) or someone that i like to play with. Haha!!! You should be proud with that!!!
Whatever....i don't care whether there's someone outside hate me a lot o wat...i don't care!!! Nobody is perfect. I just need to be myself, there's no point for me to change because of the environment or wat. Me is Me. I'd only change myself for the earth. SAVE THE WORLD!!! I do believe that the scene we see in 'The Day After Tomorrow' will happen one day like the flood in GENESIS. I do believe that!Get Prepared!!!
On the day when i've get down from the plane and reach subang, there's a bunch of my frens ask me out for dinner before i step my foot in to my house. Thank GOD for them. At first i seriously feel very down and low power when the plane had landed. They all cheer me up!!!Thank GOD for them. That's the reasons why i like to be with them recently. I think there might have some 'whisper' out there asking bout me n the guy that i always used to be together with. HAHAHA!!!! So funny. I know sometimes we both is like....more than normal friends. Erm, i admit that we are more than friends. At least i feel that. We are 'sister'!!! WAHAHA!!! Don't worry, i wont get into relationship this early. The door for relationship in my heart had closed for long. For me, i've three stages of friends. First stage or the lower stage is the nomal friends where i only say HI to, second stage are most of the friends that i had, third and the highest stage are those can knew the inside of me like you (who r reading my blog now!!!) or someone that i like to play with. Haha!!! You should be proud with that!!!
Whatever....i don't care whether there's someone outside hate me a lot o wat...i don't care!!! Nobody is perfect. I just need to be myself, there's no point for me to change because of the environment or wat. Me is Me. I'd only change myself for the earth. SAVE THE WORLD!!! I do believe that the scene we see in 'The Day After Tomorrow' will happen one day like the flood in GENESIS. I do believe that!Get Prepared!!!
星期二, 9月 18, 2007
Black Friday -- 5/10/2007
In 3 days time i'll be on the plane flying back to my beloved hometown again. How time flies....for this week i feel like i have difficulity to breath....there's been too many things pop up right in front of me for me to do it....my assignment of coz...choir stuff....family....workout....u might probably think that there's something that i can put aside and do the important ones first...especially d workout part....i'd guarrantee u if i stop goin to workout, i'll definitely had commit suicide in my room without anyone notice. That's d only way i can release all of my stress....especially going into the combat n balance class....of course, the instructor do affect as well....i like Yvette as the balance instructor.....her posture is so so so accurate and motivates me whenever i'm in her class.
It seems happy then i'm going back home again. But it's totally different situation. After the one whole week, i'll have all my homework due....ALL u know....everything for every subject....i'll have 3 reports and 1 project for one subject that have to be passed up on d first week of Oct and another one big assigment....This is crazy!!!Somemore there are 3 same things due on the same day!!!Crazy!!!Wat the life i have here in Monash.....I cant wait to get rid of the life here in Monash and the life here in Sunway....I cannot face all those stress all by myself....I'm just not that strong.....I'll definitely collapse all by myself....
May GOD provide me wisdom on time management and a strong body.....Keeps me motivated....i cannot give up....my family needs me....i must not disappoint them....I CANT!!! I must stand up tall myself then only i can help them....i have to be strong....
It seems happy then i'm going back home again. But it's totally different situation. After the one whole week, i'll have all my homework due....ALL u know....everything for every subject....i'll have 3 reports and 1 project for one subject that have to be passed up on d first week of Oct and another one big assigment....This is crazy!!!Somemore there are 3 same things due on the same day!!!Crazy!!!Wat the life i have here in Monash.....I cant wait to get rid of the life here in Monash and the life here in Sunway....I cannot face all those stress all by myself....I'm just not that strong.....I'll definitely collapse all by myself....
May GOD provide me wisdom on time management and a strong body.....Keeps me motivated....i cannot give up....my family needs me....i must not disappoint them....I CANT!!! I must stand up tall myself then only i can help them....i have to be strong....
星期日, 9月 16, 2007
RUSH HOUR 3 13/9/2007
我终于看了这部戏！！！人家就来下映了我才来看，慢很多拍吧！谁叫我人缘不好，又专喜欢看一些别人不喜欢看的戏，昨天有人愿意跟我一起去看已经很不错了。但原来等到那部戏就快下映时去看是很轻松的，有没有试过买戏票不用排队？而且位子任你选呢！哈哈！！！
说真的，看了这部戏真的很开心。可能是因为上个礼拜看见成龙本人所以只要有他的出现都是好戏吧。真的感觉不一样呢，看见他本人甚至于他的互动真的是很好的宣传呢！但还是说老实的一句吧，这部戏真的没有前两集来得好。当然还是有典型Chris Tucker搞笑的部分，但还是觉得前两集比较好。这种戏，说真的，看了只会觉得把自己不开心的情绪发泄出来，没有什么特别的意义呢。成龙他自己接受访问时也说过啊，他说想拍一些比较有意义的电影。好期待哦！！！
突然发现，我好喜欢他哦！应该是说我好佩服他哦！他真的不是说说而已，只要他说过的他都会做。这样才叫男人嘛！！！这种男人在这个世界已经绝种了啦！现在的男人能顾好自己就已经算很不错了。
说真的，看了这部戏真的很开心。可能是因为上个礼拜看见成龙本人所以只要有他的出现都是好戏吧。真的感觉不一样呢，看见他本人甚至于他的互动真的是很好的宣传呢！但还是说老实的一句吧，这部戏真的没有前两集来得好。当然还是有典型Chris Tucker搞笑的部分，但还是觉得前两集比较好。这种戏，说真的，看了只会觉得把自己不开心的情绪发泄出来，没有什么特别的意义呢。成龙他自己接受访问时也说过啊，他说想拍一些比较有意义的电影。好期待哦！！！
突然发现，我好喜欢他哦！应该是说我好佩服他哦！他真的不是说说而已，只要他说过的他都会做。这样才叫男人嘛！！！这种男人在这个世界已经绝种了啦！现在的男人能顾好自己就已经算很不错了。
星期三, 9月 12, 2007
Stephanie Au - my role model
I cant imagine how the time flies....it's wednesday now and which means next week i'll be headin back to my hometown again!!!WUHUHU!!!And i cant believe that it's last week that i've meet the Hollywood Superstar and my role model....I feel like it's only yesterday day tat all this things happen....
I've been recently google-ing Stephanie Au in order to get more of her information. Unfortunately she is not a star so it's kindda limited info for me to gather. But however, i found out that she is a Norwegian Born Chinese....WOW!!! No wonder her English sounds so so so different from me....i can still remember the way she speaks....i admire her so so much since the first day i see CF in midvalley where there's a huge poster on her n Jackie....she is so so so fit and beautiful!!!!
I'd like to her like her one day....i know that there's some part of my body where i cannot slim it down, so all i can do now is to make it look fit....now, whenever i stand, i'll tuck in my abs and straighten my whole posture....it's kindda tired at the back at first but when i look in the mirror, it's different.....u can try that yourself....feel more confident in yourself when u did that....i like that feeling....all the while i've been hunching and feel that i look fat and do not have the confidence in the way i look....exercise really helps a lot....i not only help to make u get more healthy but also increase ur self confident....also it's the best way to release stress!!!!Hahaha.....
I hope to see Stephanie again during the time whereby i was still studying here....i cant wait to see her again.....
I've been recently google-ing Stephanie Au in order to get more of her information. Unfortunately she is not a star so it's kindda limited info for me to gather. But however, i found out that she is a Norwegian Born Chinese....WOW!!! No wonder her English sounds so so so different from me....i can still remember the way she speaks....i admire her so so much since the first day i see CF in midvalley where there's a huge poster on her n Jackie....she is so so so fit and beautiful!!!!
I'd like to her like her one day....i know that there's some part of my body where i cannot slim it down, so all i can do now is to make it look fit....now, whenever i stand, i'll tuck in my abs and straighten my whole posture....it's kindda tired at the back at first but when i look in the mirror, it's different.....u can try that yourself....feel more confident in yourself when u did that....i like that feeling....all the while i've been hunching and feel that i look fat and do not have the confidence in the way i look....exercise really helps a lot....i not only help to make u get more healthy but also increase ur self confident....also it's the best way to release stress!!!!Hahaha.....
I hope to see Stephanie again during the time whereby i was still studying here....i cant wait to see her again.....
星期一, 9月 10, 2007
I see Jackie Chan!!!!
Last Saturday (8/9/2007) is the most exciting weekend i've ever had in my life....wahaha....i cant wait to speak it out loud here!!!! Okok...let me go straight into the point....(now smiling to myself coz too happy!!!)....
It's the Hollywood star--Jackie Chan in Sunway Pyramid!!!! WAHAHA!!!! I've finally see him in person ler!!!! Wahahaa!!!! Wait....it might not convince u by just listen to me here....let me show u my evidence....
Pic 1: Jackie Chan walking down from the stairs case with a bunch of guards inside California Fitness Pyramid
Okok....i know it's kindda blur....hei...i'm not using a professional digital camera ok, i'm just using my N73 to take that pic....hahaha, promote my hp pula....then after tat, he go to the skating area to attend the Grand Opening Session of course with some performance there (not by him of coz)....then after that, he went back to the main entrance of the gym.....
Pic 2: Jackie showin his hand model
Pic 3: Jackie with California Fitness CEO and another Datuk....(dunno who he is)
After this, he get back to one room for the press conference...of coz we are not allowed to go in...so we just stay outside n watch!!!
Pic 4: Jackie inside the room sayin HI to us outside....
Then, he will conduct a class together with Stephanie Au, the main JC Boxercise instructor from HK. Stephanie Au is the gal that u can see on d wall in front of California Fitness, she is a super super super beautiful gal and super super super nice gal....and professional instructor!!!She is so so so fit u know!!!When i see her, she motivates me a lot....for doing exercise.....and ho....the next day ho, when i was walkin around in midvalley, i accidentally meet here there in the NIKE shop!!!!WOW.....then i walk up and call her....i dun care whether she remember me o not....just wanna talk to her....hahahah
Pic 5: Me and the beloved Stephanie Au
Pic 6: Jackie Chan lecturing about JC Boxercise
Here comes the most most most important pic of all!!!!Cindy Wong with Jackie Chan!!!!WUHUHUHU!!!!Just Believe that!!!!This is true!!!!
Pic 7: Me and Jackie Chan!!!!!
WAhahaha...exciting ler!!!I also shake hand with him....he is such a nice person....wherever we stand, watever we do, he'll keep on reminding us to becareful!!!and....whenever he saw small children there, he'll touch d kid's face and smile to him/her automatically....he is so so so so nice!!!!he is a good lecturer as well....he encourage girls to do more boxing exercise....so...from now onwards, i'll go to every boxing class....
It's the Hollywood star--Jackie Chan in Sunway Pyramid!!!! WAHAHA!!!! I've finally see him in person ler!!!! Wahahaa!!!! Wait....it might not convince u by just listen to me here....let me show u my evidence....
Pic 1: Jackie Chan walking down from the stairs case with a bunch of guards inside California Fitness Pyramid
Okok....i know it's kindda blur....hei...i'm not using a professional digital camera ok, i'm just using my N73 to take that pic....hahaha, promote my hp pula....then after tat, he go to the skating area to attend the Grand Opening Session of course with some performance there (not by him of coz)....then after that, he went back to the main entrance of the gym.....
Pic 2: Jackie showin his hand model
Pic 3: Jackie with California Fitness CEO and another Datuk....(dunno who he is)
After this, he get back to one room for the press conference...of coz we are not allowed to go in...so we just stay outside n watch!!!
Pic 4: Jackie inside the room sayin HI to us outside....
Then, he will conduct a class together with Stephanie Au, the main JC Boxercise instructor from HK. Stephanie Au is the gal that u can see on d wall in front of California Fitness, she is a super super super beautiful gal and super super super nice gal....and professional instructor!!!She is so so so fit u know!!!When i see her, she motivates me a lot....for doing exercise.....and ho....the next day ho, when i was walkin around in midvalley, i accidentally meet here there in the NIKE shop!!!!WOW.....then i walk up and call her....i dun care whether she remember me o not....just wanna talk to her....hahahah
Pic 5: Me and the beloved Stephanie Au
Pic 6: Jackie Chan lecturing about JC Boxercise
Here comes the most most most important pic of all!!!!Cindy Wong with Jackie Chan!!!!WUHUHUHU!!!!Just Believe that!!!!This is true!!!!
Pic 7: Me and Jackie Chan!!!!!
WAhahaha...exciting ler!!!I also shake hand with him....he is such a nice person....wherever we stand, watever we do, he'll keep on reminding us to becareful!!!and....whenever he saw small children there, he'll touch d kid's face and smile to him/her automatically....he is so so so so nice!!!!he is a good lecturer as well....he encourage girls to do more boxing exercise....so...from now onwards, i'll go to every boxing class....
星期六, 9月 08, 2007
Jackie Chan is here in Sunway Pyramid
Wahaha....i cant wait for that....i'll b there n attend his class....cant wait to see this international superstar face to face....i can imagine that i club must be overloaded, but i dun care...as long as i can see him in person that will be enough....and i want to take his pic.
I was too excited last night until i woke up in the middle of the night starting to imagine d situation later in d club and the shopping mall....imagine i'm in d class with him as the instructor....wow!!!I cant wait for that....although now my muscle still pain, but who cares....as long as i can see him in person everything will be worth it!!!
Hohoho!!!Count down in 4 hours time.....huh...huh....huh....*heart beats increasing*
I was too excited last night until i woke up in the middle of the night starting to imagine d situation later in d club and the shopping mall....imagine i'm in d class with him as the instructor....wow!!!I cant wait for that....although now my muscle still pain, but who cares....as long as i can see him in person everything will be worth it!!!
Hohoho!!!Count down in 4 hours time.....huh...huh....huh....*heart beats increasing*
星期四, 8月 30, 2007
Some interesting pic
pic 5 ~~~ HOLY....
pic 4 ~~~ OS: 为何人生道路越走越寂寞?
Pic 3~~~(continuous pic) ***ABUGEK*** OS from street fighter!!!
Pic 2~~'Yao Yeng'...hahaha
Pic 1~~Kes Rompak di hadapan Maybank ATM machine.....berhati-hati semasa tekan-ing duit....
回家咯！！！
现在的我坐在机场的椅子对着丢电脑发呆！因为我的班机延迟了！气死我！干吗不早跟我说啊，还我一大早就起来了，这还不重要反正我每天都这么早醒，重点是：我千里迢迢来到这里，而且好不容易等到柜台开了你才跟我说班机延迟了，要等四小时才飞！你说气不气？一大早受的苦，淋的雨，流的汗。。。一切都白费了！！！还好在机场这个地方还允许我上网，不然我肯定疯了！！！
这次回到这么突然其实是要回去看我妈啦。你可以想象一个老人家双手不能动，吃喝一切都要人帮吗？我想象不到。虽然心里已经有所准备啦，但还是觉得心疼。原本我想就这样消失的，但不知为什么一大早起来诸事不顺。虽然我有祷告说让我就这样静悄悄的回去，但我觉得神应该是要让我知道有人是关心我的。我不是说不让人关心，而我只是不喜欢一直重复的被人问及回答同样的问题。所以最终我还是说啦！管它啦，让他们八卦一下咯，反正他们的日子也有点太风平浪静了。
肚子还真是有点饿呢，那我就在这优先‘公司’的机场找东西吃去咯！哈哈！！！
这次回到这么突然其实是要回去看我妈啦。你可以想象一个老人家双手不能动，吃喝一切都要人帮吗？我想象不到。虽然心里已经有所准备啦，但还是觉得心疼。原本我想就这样消失的，但不知为什么一大早起来诸事不顺。虽然我有祷告说让我就这样静悄悄的回去，但我觉得神应该是要让我知道有人是关心我的。我不是说不让人关心，而我只是不喜欢一直重复的被人问及回答同样的问题。所以最终我还是说啦！管它啦，让他们八卦一下咯，反正他们的日子也有点太风平浪静了。
肚子还真是有点饿呢，那我就在这优先‘公司’的机场找东西吃去咯！哈哈！！！
星期五, 8月 24, 2007
STRESS STRESS!!!!!!
AAAAARRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHH..............That's wat i feel now....i feel like i'm having difficulty in breathing.....i have 2 real big report due on monday n tuesday.....AAAAARRRRGGGGHHHH......That's not the point.....d point is....i dunno how to do....actually i'm not the only one who don't know how to do.....there's whole lot of ppl struggling out there.....Thank GOD that the demo gav us a final and one and only discussion about it....at least there's some guidelines there.....but....i'm still stress up!!!! I still don't know how to do....with my limited mind i cant!!!! I'm not clever....i'm a little bit stupid i should say....die die die die die....i'm sooooo stress up now....i don't know what to do now....just stare at the word document and......stare at it....die die die.....
last nite it's like.....huh!!!Terrible....whenever i sleep, i can see all the words flying around....i even dreamt that there's someone teaching me how to do it....actually, i have the confident to finish it within this two days....but it's just.....i don't know how to do!!! It's even worst than i cant finish it!!!!!
May GOD help me....giv me enough strength to fight for this two reports....provide me wisdom so that i can do all the questions and also able to divide my time efficiently....AMEN!!!!
last nite it's like.....huh!!!Terrible....whenever i sleep, i can see all the words flying around....i even dreamt that there's someone teaching me how to do it....actually, i have the confident to finish it within this two days....but it's just.....i don't know how to do!!! It's even worst than i cant finish it!!!!!
May GOD help me....giv me enough strength to fight for this two reports....provide me wisdom so that i can do all the questions and also able to divide my time efficiently....AMEN!!!!
星期二, 8月 21, 2007
惹人厌的我 20/8/2007
刚去完合唱营回来，真的很感恩我有这种恩赐，让我能在诗班侍奉。至从被人选为班长至今，每天都觉得自己什么都不会。每次诗班又紧急状况时我都帮不上忙，甚至会觉得不管我的事。‘班长’这个名称真的很重。去完合唱营回来后，我开始有不一样的想法。或许在行政方面我真的不行，但在唱歌方面我真的很感恩主赐给我这个恩赐。每次诗班练唱时我都有一股莫名的力量，不管我那天的精神如何，我在诗班里面就是会尽心尽力的去唱。很感恩我能够参加这次的合唱营。营会里的每一位老师都很用心的教导我们，我不知道别人会不会这样认为，但我很清楚知道我在这次营会里学到很多东西也看见不一样的东西。感谢主！
在这两天的集训里面，一班人一起进进出出，感觉更亲密了。我也看见了一些很令人痛心的事实，就是-原来我是那么的惹人厌的。这两天里面，除了和另一位姐妹一起搞气氛以外，根本就没有人想和我多说一句话。我甚至觉得他们根本就是勉强自己和我坐在同一桌吃饭。每个人跟我说话都是战战兢兢的，都是一些客套话，都不是因为想跟我讲话而跟我讲话。我承认，如果我遇到我不认同的topic时我会极力反对，因我觉得每个人都有不同的看法，我只是把我的看法提出来而已，你不一定要接受我的看法啊！我就是这样被人讨厌吧！管它的，我为什么要因为别人而改变自己？我就是我！主把我创造成这样我没有必要去改变我自己。
眼不见为净-这句话应该是他们的心里话！从今以后只有星期天我会出现，其他的时间我会尽量避免。自己一个人也可以很开心啊！
在这两天的集训里面，一班人一起进进出出，感觉更亲密了。我也看见了一些很令人痛心的事实，就是-原来我是那么的惹人厌的。这两天里面，除了和另一位姐妹一起搞气氛以外，根本就没有人想和我多说一句话。我甚至觉得他们根本就是勉强自己和我坐在同一桌吃饭。每个人跟我说话都是战战兢兢的，都是一些客套话，都不是因为想跟我讲话而跟我讲话。我承认，如果我遇到我不认同的topic时我会极力反对，因我觉得每个人都有不同的看法，我只是把我的看法提出来而已，你不一定要接受我的看法啊！我就是这样被人讨厌吧！管它的，我为什么要因为别人而改变自己？我就是我！主把我创造成这样我没有必要去改变我自己。
眼不见为净-这句话应该是他们的心里话！从今以后只有星期天我会出现，其他的时间我会尽量避免。自己一个人也可以很开心啊！
星期四, 8月 16, 2007
I"M SO SO SO SORRY!!!!
I feel i've always a trouble maker. No matter where am I or who i'm with, tat person will always have trouble. I just don't know why i'm such an unlucky person. I cant control it. I just don't know why.....PLEASE GOD....TEACH ME WAT AM I GOIN TO DO....
it's my fault that she lost that much of money....if it's wasn't my stubbornness she wont purposely went out n buy me dinner....n she wont meet all those weird ppl....n she wont....she wont....she wont cry for whole nite and lost herself....i feel sooo sooo sooo guilty...i just don't know why that i'm sooo sooo sooo unlucky.....i always bring all these kind of unluckiness to other ppl.....i...i didn't mean it....if i know this kind of things will happen, i swear i wont eat dinner....
Now that everything is too late...i cant....i cant...i cant....i cant do anything but only feelin guilty whenever i c her face....i don't have any face to c her anymore....i feel that whenever she c me she'll remember d thing.....I swear to myself....it's tough to lose one fren....but it will be tougher for her to remember her nightmare everyday.....i'd rather quit....it hard to me to tell her what i feel here....i'd write up to her n apologize...i just hope that everything is seriously going to be fine....though the probability is low....please....i just want her to be happy....i'll swear....i will try to avoid her...avoid from everyone startin from today onwards...i'll act as if i'm ok....but.....i'm closing n shutting down my heart from anyone and everyone....
GOD PLEASE TEACH ME HOW TO DO....I DONT WANT TO C HER SUFFERIN....
it's my fault that she lost that much of money....if it's wasn't my stubbornness she wont purposely went out n buy me dinner....n she wont meet all those weird ppl....n she wont....she wont....she wont cry for whole nite and lost herself....i feel sooo sooo sooo guilty...i just don't know why that i'm sooo sooo sooo unlucky.....i always bring all these kind of unluckiness to other ppl.....i...i didn't mean it....if i know this kind of things will happen, i swear i wont eat dinner....
Now that everything is too late...i cant....i cant...i cant....i cant do anything but only feelin guilty whenever i c her face....i don't have any face to c her anymore....i feel that whenever she c me she'll remember d thing.....I swear to myself....it's tough to lose one fren....but it will be tougher for her to remember her nightmare everyday.....i'd rather quit....it hard to me to tell her what i feel here....i'd write up to her n apologize...i just hope that everything is seriously going to be fine....though the probability is low....please....i just want her to be happy....i'll swear....i will try to avoid her...avoid from everyone startin from today onwards...i'll act as if i'm ok....but.....i'm closing n shutting down my heart from anyone and everyone....
GOD PLEASE TEACH ME HOW TO DO....I DONT WANT TO C HER SUFFERIN....
星期二, 8月 14, 2007
I'm scared
This is the first time ever i saw him like this....this was a pic taken while they are all discussing for his upcoming MV....according to the reporter, his face is always like this whenever he's at work....so please do not try to interupt him for any other things or talk something unrelated to what they are discussing....he'll not happy.....wow!!! Wat a perfect guy!!! That's the reason why i like him sooo soo much....
And the most important is that...i've finally got his new album!!! which i had repeated played for 4 hours non stop....and i still feel not enough!!! A lot of people tell me that they do not really like this album...but for me....i like everything that he had made....i did not say it purposely....but it's true!!! I can feel all the effort he's been putting into every sone....i can feel d message that he's trying to tell....no matter wat.....i love this album like any other one....
星期一, 8月 13, 2007
我有话说！！！12/8/2007
不知为什么，突然觉得心里有好多话想讲出来但这些话是不可以对任何一个人说的。不然会引起暴动！！！哈哈！！！
昨天我和一班我很少与他们一起出去玩的人出去玩（句子有点奇怪！）。虽然钱花了不少而且还看了一部我从来都没想过会去戏院看的戏（导火线），但我觉得我好像好久都没有玩到这么开心了。忽然觉得，每次我和那几个（我们平时一起出去玩的人马）一起出去玩，是玩到很疯没错，但回来后我没有那种开心的感觉而是应酬的感觉。如果和他们一起去看我不想看的戏，我回家后一定会很生气！！！但昨晚的我没有哦！！！好奇怪。难道那位弟兄魅力比较大？哈哈！！！但我不可否认的是-他在听到我说我的‘愿望’（和大队看我喜欢看的戏）是不会是现实，他就说-那让我们来‘实现’它吧！！！， 我听到这句话时真的有小小的感动。或许他擅长甜言蜜语吧！回来后，脑子里难免都会开始有一些‘想法’出现，或许心里会开始对他打分，但我很大声的对我自己说：不可能！！！像我跟他说的，他的身上有很多八爪鱼粘着，就算我真的要排队也不会轮到我的。哈哈！！！
然后还有一点就是，我们家隔壁房的那位。老实说，当初认识他的时候真的对他有一些幻想。但我很庆幸的是我没有陷得很深，因为我的室友那时已经对他有感觉了。所以我不需要花很多精力把自己抽离那种情况。到现在你问我，是否对他还有一点点的幻想？我回答大声的回答你说：我只是很欣赏他！！！因为当你看见他弹吉他的时候，真的很迷人！！！配上他那成熟男人的歌声时，我可以保证只要是女生看了都会被他迷倒。这点我不夸张哦！！！我不得不承认，他是一位很好的男人。但是，在我的字典里，好男人 = 别人的。而且，像我之前形容的一样，粘着他的女生简直就是 - 多！！！轮了一辈子也轮不到我的。
这种男生的问题，我已经不想再和我认识的人讨论了。因为出来的结论只会有两个：1）你被推去那个男生那里（就是被鼓励提起勇气行动啦）结果越陷越深，2）越讨论就越看见那个男生的缺点。但多数都是第一个情况比较多！！！所以，何苦呢？？？跟自己讲讲，自己欣赏就好了。不用这么三八到处去讲。哈哈！！！
昨天我和一班我很少与他们一起出去玩的人出去玩（句子有点奇怪！）。虽然钱花了不少而且还看了一部我从来都没想过会去戏院看的戏（导火线），但我觉得我好像好久都没有玩到这么开心了。忽然觉得，每次我和那几个（我们平时一起出去玩的人马）一起出去玩，是玩到很疯没错，但回来后我没有那种开心的感觉而是应酬的感觉。如果和他们一起去看我不想看的戏，我回家后一定会很生气！！！但昨晚的我没有哦！！！好奇怪。难道那位弟兄魅力比较大？哈哈！！！但我不可否认的是-他在听到我说我的‘愿望’（和大队看我喜欢看的戏）是不会是现实，他就说-那让我们来‘实现’它吧！！！， 我听到这句话时真的有小小的感动。或许他擅长甜言蜜语吧！回来后，脑子里难免都会开始有一些‘想法’出现，或许心里会开始对他打分，但我很大声的对我自己说：不可能！！！像我跟他说的，他的身上有很多八爪鱼粘着，就算我真的要排队也不会轮到我的。哈哈！！！
然后还有一点就是，我们家隔壁房的那位。老实说，当初认识他的时候真的对他有一些幻想。但我很庆幸的是我没有陷得很深，因为我的室友那时已经对他有感觉了。所以我不需要花很多精力把自己抽离那种情况。到现在你问我，是否对他还有一点点的幻想？我回答大声的回答你说：我只是很欣赏他！！！因为当你看见他弹吉他的时候，真的很迷人！！！配上他那成熟男人的歌声时，我可以保证只要是女生看了都会被他迷倒。这点我不夸张哦！！！我不得不承认，他是一位很好的男人。但是，在我的字典里，好男人 = 别人的。而且，像我之前形容的一样，粘着他的女生简直就是 - 多！！！轮了一辈子也轮不到我的。
这种男生的问题，我已经不想再和我认识的人讨论了。因为出来的结论只会有两个：1）你被推去那个男生那里（就是被鼓励提起勇气行动啦）结果越陷越深，2）越讨论就越看见那个男生的缺点。但多数都是第一个情况比较多！！！所以，何苦呢？？？跟自己讲讲，自己欣赏就好了。不用这么三八到处去讲。哈哈！！！
星期四, 8月 09, 2007
Heart Broken.....
My heart suddenly sinking deep down like a submarine was sinking back into the deep ocean when i found this pic....tat day when he was attending this he was having a high fever of 39 degree celcius....can u imagine that???And he's still smiling in front of the camera and in front of the fans and everyone there....if for me, i had already lie on the bed and cannot even move myself up to the toilet....but he is forcing himself to work!!! From this pic, we can see that his face is pale...it's not healthy look....i don't like this....i know i cant do anything here to help him, i can only pray that may GOD give him more strength to do wat he like.....and send someone to help him with all his work....i 1 him to be healthy.....so that i'll had his music forever.....
星期四, 8月 02, 2007
Hot Yoga
Yesterday i went to TRUE FITNESS in USJ to the trails....and i try out the hot yoga....it was ridiculous!!!The instructors were all from India and as you can imagine how the Indian speak with their slang....it's not easy for me to understand....Well, that's not the point. My point is, the moves are all so hyper!!! It might probably because i didn't stretch out myself for so long so i have some difficulties to do wat we are told to do. Besides that, i also don't really like that fitness centre. I don't know why. If compare to Fitness First, i still feel that it's better there than in True Fitness although the place is more larger than.
Erm, maybe it's hard to understand for the word HOT YOGA. It simply means that we're doing yoga inside a HOT room, that's abour 38 degree celcius. It's not that HOT, but once you stay inside and do all the yoga things, the sweats just flow out from every parts of your body without your knowledge. It's awsome!!! But this is only applicable for those who doesn't sweat in their normal lifetime. As for me, who sweats a lot, 24 hours non stop on the palm, i just don't understand why there's people go and purposely make themselve sweat. Well, i cant deny that it's kindda healthy for you to sweat but this situation is like forcing yourself too much!!! I cant take it. Haha!!!
And now, i can feel the pain around my waist and my thigh....haha....
Erm, maybe it's hard to understand for the word HOT YOGA. It simply means that we're doing yoga inside a HOT room, that's abour 38 degree celcius. It's not that HOT, but once you stay inside and do all the yoga things, the sweats just flow out from every parts of your body without your knowledge. It's awsome!!! But this is only applicable for those who doesn't sweat in their normal lifetime. As for me, who sweats a lot, 24 hours non stop on the palm, i just don't understand why there's people go and purposely make themselve sweat. Well, i cant deny that it's kindda healthy for you to sweat but this situation is like forcing yourself too much!!! I cant take it. Haha!!!
And now, i can feel the pain around my waist and my thigh....haha....
星期五, 7月 27, 2007
My Dearly
After seeing all this pic of my dearly, i feel soo soo guilty of myself....no matter where he is and what he do, he always gives it a 100% performance. He wont even waste his time while waiting for the train to come...he keep himself updated and renewed his knowledge everytime by going to the bookstore to buy books or reading books....when he practice for the performance although he is quite good at it.....
How bout me???Whenever i'm waiting a bus, i just stand there stupidly by staring at the end of the road for the arrival of the bus....the most i'll do is listen to my mp3....Whenever i go to the bookstore, i will walk straight to the fashion magazines section instead of book section.....besides that i don't read in a bookstore where i admit that i do not like to read books....Whenever i play piano, i only play for those songs that i'm good with....i'll never try out and practice for a new pieces although i had been graduated from the musical school after grade 8.....
It's a huge contrast from my dear's life....it's just...totally different!!!! How can i be that.... He must had been disappointed to have this kind of fans.... I'd like to upgrade myself more often..... From now onwards, i'll commit myself onto all these things to upgrade myself....before changing the world, i must change myself first....GAMBATEH!!!!
星期二, 7月 24, 2007
What do you Feel?
38o超高溫 未來一周沒啦 2007/07/24 07:20 記者:記者陳俍任／台北報導
連續幾天超高溫，今天將有機會舒緩！中央氣象局指出，今天局部山區將出現午後雷陣雨，不過市區會下雨的地點不多，且全台除南投外，降雨機率只有百分之十到卅。
檳氣象局：陣雨持續至28日 民眾須防災情惡化updated:2007-07-24
（威南、大山腳訊）因豪雨而引發的威省及吉南大水災情況持續，其中威南災情最嚴重，因豪雨引發山洪，新邦安拔潤絨河水氾濫，導致新邦安拔和峇都交灣一帶週一（23日）早上水災情況惡化，238戶家庭超過1000名災黎疏散。
此外，檳州氣象局預測，馬六甲海峽及南中國海上空出現的大雲朵，使檳州近日連續數天下起陣雨，當局預料陣雨會持續至28日，因此民眾必須防備水災情況可能惡化。
威省已有3條河水的水位處於警戒水平，檳州水利灌溉局已啟動水泵機，以排出過多的水量。
新加坡•30年來上升兩度越來越熱updated:2007-07-23
（新加坡訊）全球暖化造成全球各地氣象出現變化，處於溫帶的四季國家最能明顯感受氣象變化所帶來的影響。身處四季如夏的新加坡，人們不容易感受全球暖化的影響，但變化卻已經悄然出現。
國大地理系副教授大衛•希傑特（DavidHiggit）說︰“70年代的平均溫度一直處於攝氏26度左右，但現在卻已經上升到28度，相差兩度左右。或許數字上看起來那並不算甚麼，但當它是年平均氣溫變化時，就算只是一度也是相當顯著的變化。”
====> After reading all these news, what do you feel? My heart always drop an inch whenever i heard all these news. All of these happens because of us....because of human!!!All of these are created by ouself. Now that the earth is sick, what did we do? Do we just leave it like that? Do we like the earth now more than before? No one ever think of that including me, not until the newspapers and multimedia started to inform us about the condition of the earth. Everything had change now. We MUST do our part to keep it alive!!! Mother Earth is now sick!!! LET US STAND UP AND HELP HER!!!It doesn't mean that you alone cannot do your part, everything have to start from YOU ALONE first!!!And get more people involved in this. I'm tryin my very best now, i wont switch on the aircond just to keep me feel cool, i wont throw the used paper away but to send it to recycle, i tried ask not to give plastic bags when i buy things, i tried my very best to reuse all the plastic material which are still good in condition. Although this wont help much, but at least i'm doing my part. We have to stand up and SAVE THE WORLD. There might be big possibility that the schene in the movie- THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW will arrive. Let's get started!!!
連續幾天超高溫，今天將有機會舒緩！中央氣象局指出，今天局部山區將出現午後雷陣雨，不過市區會下雨的地點不多，且全台除南投外，降雨機率只有百分之十到卅。
檳氣象局：陣雨持續至28日 民眾須防災情惡化updated:2007-07-24
（威南、大山腳訊）因豪雨而引發的威省及吉南大水災情況持續，其中威南災情最嚴重，因豪雨引發山洪，新邦安拔潤絨河水氾濫，導致新邦安拔和峇都交灣一帶週一（23日）早上水災情況惡化，238戶家庭超過1000名災黎疏散。
此外，檳州氣象局預測，馬六甲海峽及南中國海上空出現的大雲朵，使檳州近日連續數天下起陣雨，當局預料陣雨會持續至28日，因此民眾必須防備水災情況可能惡化。
威省已有3條河水的水位處於警戒水平，檳州水利灌溉局已啟動水泵機，以排出過多的水量。
新加坡•30年來上升兩度越來越熱updated:2007-07-23
（新加坡訊）全球暖化造成全球各地氣象出現變化，處於溫帶的四季國家最能明顯感受氣象變化所帶來的影響。身處四季如夏的新加坡，人們不容易感受全球暖化的影響，但變化卻已經悄然出現。
國大地理系副教授大衛•希傑特（DavidHiggit）說︰“70年代的平均溫度一直處於攝氏26度左右，但現在卻已經上升到28度，相差兩度左右。或許數字上看起來那並不算甚麼，但當它是年平均氣溫變化時，就算只是一度也是相當顯著的變化。”
====> After reading all these news, what do you feel? My heart always drop an inch whenever i heard all these news. All of these happens because of us....because of human!!!All of these are created by ouself. Now that the earth is sick, what did we do? Do we just leave it like that? Do we like the earth now more than before? No one ever think of that including me, not until the newspapers and multimedia started to inform us about the condition of the earth. Everything had change now. We MUST do our part to keep it alive!!! Mother Earth is now sick!!! LET US STAND UP AND HELP HER!!!It doesn't mean that you alone cannot do your part, everything have to start from YOU ALONE first!!!And get more people involved in this. I'm tryin my very best now, i wont switch on the aircond just to keep me feel cool, i wont throw the used paper away but to send it to recycle, i tried ask not to give plastic bags when i buy things, i tried my very best to reuse all the plastic material which are still good in condition. Although this wont help much, but at least i'm doing my part. We have to stand up and SAVE THE WORLD. There might be big possibility that the schene in the movie- THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW will arrive. Let's get started!!!
星期一, 7月 23, 2007
沉重的心情 17/7/2007
好久都没有一个人独处了，回家后都跟妈妈进进出出的，唯一一个人的时候就是看电视的时候。现在回到这个房间，感觉还真是出奇的寂寞。前两天的生活太充实了，把自己给搞垮了。所以今天先让自己休息一下，但没想到时间还真是难打发呀。
这次我有留级了，而这个学期我拿了一科务必要及格的科目-MBB。今天第一堂课老师就已强调了，我听了心里好难受！顿时就觉得为什么自己就是比别人笨，做什么都不会。书又不会读，试班班长又不会做，什么都不会，只会吃喝玩乐。这个不是笨是什么？
我很痛苦！总觉得这个年头事事都不顺，读书不顺、人际关系不顺、甚至连家里也不顺。从去年开始就被留级结果现在比别人慢、在人际关系上面也不顺，一大堆人不喜欢我（他们嘴上不说但其实我可以感受到他们对我的不耐烦），这个我也认了。反正一个人也没有什么不可以呀，而且我还有唯一的一个知己- Patricia。不知道是不是因为她人太好的关系所以我很喜欢和她在一起，不管和她讲什么她都会用心的听。家里-哼！更不用说了、老的是这样，小的也是这样。我妈辛苦，我好怕她有一天撑不下去了就会做那些我想也不敢想的事。我一定要快点毕业，我不可以在被留级了。我妈对我的期望很高！我不可以再让她失望。我已经三番两次的令她失望了，我一定要加把劲奋斗到底！我是妈妈的依靠了，我一定要很加油！不可以再被留级了！不管怎样我一定要很加油！从现在开始，我决定少于团契的人有互动。因为他们常常在周末会有活动，只要我远离他们我就不会面对这些诱惑。这个学期开始，每个周末我都要去找Patricia一起温书做功课。诗班班长的职位我也会辞掉，希望他们谅解我。我不可以再这样颓废下去了，我妈很需要我的！快快读完回去陪她，作她精神的支柱。明年的这个时候我一定要毕业！这是我对我自己的承诺！或许过程会很艰难，求主帮助我！我只要几个就好！我不要求多。
主啊！如果你看见我被撒旦攻击，求你一定要把握拉出来！
主啊！如果你看见我懒惰，求你一定要重重的惩罚我！
主啊！如果你看见我贪恋物质，求你一定要提醒我世界某个角落的需要！
主啊！我知道我是不配得到你的爱，我知道我是个罪人，我很清楚的知道唯有主你的宝血才能洗净我的一切罪恶。
主啊！求你看顾我，让撒旦远离我！
这次我有留级了，而这个学期我拿了一科务必要及格的科目-MBB。今天第一堂课老师就已强调了，我听了心里好难受！顿时就觉得为什么自己就是比别人笨，做什么都不会。书又不会读，试班班长又不会做，什么都不会，只会吃喝玩乐。这个不是笨是什么？
我很痛苦！总觉得这个年头事事都不顺，读书不顺、人际关系不顺、甚至连家里也不顺。从去年开始就被留级结果现在比别人慢、在人际关系上面也不顺，一大堆人不喜欢我（他们嘴上不说但其实我可以感受到他们对我的不耐烦），这个我也认了。反正一个人也没有什么不可以呀，而且我还有唯一的一个知己- Patricia。不知道是不是因为她人太好的关系所以我很喜欢和她在一起，不管和她讲什么她都会用心的听。家里-哼！更不用说了、老的是这样，小的也是这样。我妈辛苦，我好怕她有一天撑不下去了就会做那些我想也不敢想的事。我一定要快点毕业，我不可以在被留级了。我妈对我的期望很高！我不可以再让她失望。我已经三番两次的令她失望了，我一定要加把劲奋斗到底！我是妈妈的依靠了，我一定要很加油！不可以再被留级了！不管怎样我一定要很加油！从现在开始，我决定少于团契的人有互动。因为他们常常在周末会有活动，只要我远离他们我就不会面对这些诱惑。这个学期开始，每个周末我都要去找Patricia一起温书做功课。诗班班长的职位我也会辞掉，希望他们谅解我。我不可以再这样颓废下去了，我妈很需要我的！快快读完回去陪她，作她精神的支柱。明年的这个时候我一定要毕业！这是我对我自己的承诺！或许过程会很艰难，求主帮助我！我只要几个就好！我不要求多。
主啊！如果你看见我被撒旦攻击，求你一定要把握拉出来！
主啊！如果你看见我懒惰，求你一定要重重的惩罚我！
主啊！如果你看见我贪恋物质，求你一定要提醒我世界某个角落的需要！
主啊！我知道我是不配得到你的爱，我知道我是个罪人，我很清楚的知道唯有主你的宝血才能洗净我的一切罪恶。
主啊！求你看顾我，让撒旦远离我！
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