I always like the phrase-- Life is mean to be tough. For me, i think that my life is getting tougher and tougher as i grown up. There's more problems and troubles popping out anywhere whenever and whatever i do. If it wasn't because of GOD, i won't be able to face all these challenge. It was GOD that always holding my hands and facing all these challenge with me. I've been facing so much troubles and problems to face this few months. All these things keep me occupied. All these things keep my emotion at the most intense state. I feel like never had enough sleep although i sleep almost 10 hours a days! It was all those troubles that i have to face that keeps my body and soul busy and tired. I'm tired of everything. Sometimes i would even think of quitting everything. Just stay where i am and do what i wanted to. But i'll never be alive if i did that. The earth won't stop rotating because of me. The whole universe won't stop just like that because of me. So, I MUST BE TOUGH!
Although my body feel tired, my soul are exhausted, i always remind myself that there's always that special SOMEONE by my side. I knew that HE is just standing besides me, always ready by my side and giving me a hand. I knew for all that HE has done to me. There might have some unsolved problem that i'm facing right now, i knew that HE will definitely make way. All i have to do is continue to trust in HIM. Thankyou GOD!
星期二, 12月 12, 2006
冬天...秋天
又看了一部韩剧--<你来自哪颗星>. 韩剧通常都是在秋天或是冬天拍摄的. 而每当男女主角在那寒冷的天气里依偎在一起甚至是抱在一起的时候, 那种感觉好温暖哦!!! 我每次看到这种剧情时心里都会有股暖流踊上来 ... 仿佛我就是那位女主角一样.顿时, 我就开始想...还好我不是在那种有四季的国家出生, 不然我的秋冬天肯定很难过. 在那种冷冷的气候里, 不管你穿上多厚的衣服都不比人的体温来得暖和. 那种暖和和衣服带来的暖和是不同的. 衣服的暖和只会是在表面的, 而人的体温所带来的暖和是暖到心里去的. 这种暖和在我上次去江南的时候就已体会到了. 王师傅那庞大的手臂所带来的温暖是我言语上无法形容的也是我无法忘怀的. 那时的我突然觉得心里好空虚. 我甚至还渴望能够有一个胳臂就像王师傅的一样温暖, 那样搂着我一辈子. 当然, 至今的我还在等候那个属于我的胳臂出现....或许十年....或许二十年....更或许永远都不会出现...但是...有一个胳臂是我看不见的...而且它时时刻刻都在搂着我抱着我...那就是耶稣基督的胳臂.
人就是这样. 你没有的东西, 你就越渴望去拥有它. 有时还会不顾一切后果将它得到. 而我们往往忽略了已经有一位伟大的圣人为我们所做的一切过犯承受了所有的罪刑. 他就是那伟大的耶稣基督. 我们应该为我们的现状而感恩, 荣耀主的圣名!!!哈利路亚...
星期五, 10月 27, 2006
幕后花絮
每一次看了一部剧都会特地上望去找他们拍摄的幕后花絮
因为每次看那些NG片段都会让人笑到不行
当然，好笑是其次
最重要的是我发现每一位演员在拍那部剧的时候都是很用心的
当让整个剧组也有很大的功劳啦
看了那些幕后的制作花絮，有一点是无可否认的
那就是-演员们不为人知的一面。
在片场，他们（演员们）就像一个大家庭一样
大家都有同样的目标-那就是快快拍好，回家睡觉!
他们甚至是在片场过年过节
就连我们一般人最重视的生日也得在工作力度过
当然，现实一点说-他们牺牲了生日但他们的口袋可没牺牲到呀
看了那些幕后花絮
总觉得演员们好团结，感情好好噢!
或许他们在明争暗斗
但至少在那一杀那我觉得他们是很好的。
这个宣传效果还真不赖嘛！
其实我想说的就是
我好像都从来没有那种团接及合作的对象
或许不可以这样说
但我觉得，我们在一起的默契还没达到很理想的程度
我很希望有一天我也可以有一帮猪朋狗友
大家一起打打闹闹。
从小到大我说所认识的人一个一个的都会离我而去
或许大家都在因为自己的梦想而奋斗吧
我也应该好好的奋斗了。。。
那我还在这里干嘛！！！
联考还没准备好啦！！！
因为每次看那些NG片段都会让人笑到不行
当然，好笑是其次
最重要的是我发现每一位演员在拍那部剧的时候都是很用心的
当让整个剧组也有很大的功劳啦
看了那些幕后的制作花絮，有一点是无可否认的
那就是-演员们不为人知的一面。
在片场，他们（演员们）就像一个大家庭一样
大家都有同样的目标-那就是快快拍好，回家睡觉!
他们甚至是在片场过年过节
就连我们一般人最重视的生日也得在工作力度过
当然，现实一点说-他们牺牲了生日但他们的口袋可没牺牲到呀
看了那些幕后花絮
总觉得演员们好团结，感情好好噢!
或许他们在明争暗斗
但至少在那一杀那我觉得他们是很好的。
这个宣传效果还真不赖嘛！
其实我想说的就是
我好像都从来没有那种团接及合作的对象
或许不可以这样说
但我觉得，我们在一起的默契还没达到很理想的程度
我很希望有一天我也可以有一帮猪朋狗友
大家一起打打闹闹。
从小到大我说所认识的人一个一个的都会离我而去
或许大家都在因为自己的梦想而奋斗吧
我也应该好好的奋斗了。。。
那我还在这里干嘛！！！
联考还没准备好啦！！！
星期五, 10月 20, 2006
Super Handsome instructor!!!!
Haha....d guy stand beside me is d fitness first instructor la....hohoho....he is super handsome man....have a super fit body.....n kindda shy shy like that....hahah....he is cute.....n yesterday my roomate was walkin around sunway pyramid....then, she saw someone who looks familiar to her....guess who she see....that's right...it's the guy that stand beside me....somemore with his girlfriend....wahahah.....then she call me up (i was at home)....then i fly to sunway pyramid....by cab....wahaha....then we follow this couple throughout the whole shopping mall...hehehe....that guy is a super super super gentleman ler.....he holds her gf hands tightly.....and in his eyes there's only her gf inside....he might have notice that there's two girls who keep on following them....but i think.....he didn't see us directly.....sooooo jealous when i see this pair of couple....and the most important thing is that....his gf is super super super pretty.....this couple was like the prince and princess in the story we used to listen to when we are young.....sooooo......there'll definitely a happy ending for this couple....wish them all the best!!!
星期四, 9月 14, 2006
原来他走了。。。
每一次看到一张臭脸就知道是他的脸。他那张脸就是好像每次都有人欠他钱一样的。但如果他心情好的时候，全世界好像都是美好的一样。这些就是他的‘招牌’啦！时间还过得真是快，一转眼几年就这样过去了。他也毕业了！而且走了。。。
我本以为他走了我应该、也不会有多余的感觉。但原来我一直在骗我自己！这几天常会有他的影子在我脑海里出现，唯一不同的是-他已经走了。虽然我知道要去哪里找他，但心里就是有一种莫名的空虚。就像那天星期天去教堂，明明就很多人。但我的视线就会很不经意的一直在找着他的影子。看不到他的背影，心里有莫名的空虚。这种现象是我解释不了的。
那天星期五明知道是最后一天看见他了，自己却宁愿在后面忙东忙西的。其实我根本就没有好忙的，自己心里只觉得好像好多东西做一样。就连他要我一起拍个照六年我都不愿！其实，我只是在逃避他。我只是不敢正视他。我怕如果我真的太在乎他的话，回家后的我心里只会更空虚寂寞。结果，回家后的我心里一点都不好过。我发现到-原来我对他来说一点都不重要。他们过后还有去farewell而在后面忙的我完全不知道有这种东西。苦了我带着一颗伤心失望的心情走回家。本以为他会问我为何没去，但那一夜我的电话没响过。我所有的泪水只有往肚里吞。
三天就这样过去了。。。一则sms也没有。。。或许他回到家后忙吧！这是我一直安慰我自己的话。原来，我永远都是透明的。。。永远都是被人忘记的那个。。。难道，我就不是人吗？难道，你们没发现到我的存在吗？难道，我是玻璃做的吗？难道，我就不会伤心吗？
我本以为他走了我应该、也不会有多余的感觉。但原来我一直在骗我自己！这几天常会有他的影子在我脑海里出现，唯一不同的是-他已经走了。虽然我知道要去哪里找他，但心里就是有一种莫名的空虚。就像那天星期天去教堂，明明就很多人。但我的视线就会很不经意的一直在找着他的影子。看不到他的背影，心里有莫名的空虚。这种现象是我解释不了的。
那天星期五明知道是最后一天看见他了，自己却宁愿在后面忙东忙西的。其实我根本就没有好忙的，自己心里只觉得好像好多东西做一样。就连他要我一起拍个照六年我都不愿！其实，我只是在逃避他。我只是不敢正视他。我怕如果我真的太在乎他的话，回家后的我心里只会更空虚寂寞。结果，回家后的我心里一点都不好过。我发现到-原来我对他来说一点都不重要。他们过后还有去farewell而在后面忙的我完全不知道有这种东西。苦了我带着一颗伤心失望的心情走回家。本以为他会问我为何没去，但那一夜我的电话没响过。我所有的泪水只有往肚里吞。
三天就这样过去了。。。一则sms也没有。。。或许他回到家后忙吧！这是我一直安慰我自己的话。原来，我永远都是透明的。。。永远都是被人忘记的那个。。。难道，我就不是人吗？难道，你们没发现到我的存在吗？难道，我是玻璃做的吗？难道，我就不会伤心吗？
星期四, 9月 07, 2006
Fitness First
it's been a week now since the day i left fitness first....i sooo sooo sooo miss there....miss everything there....miss every class there....miss every instructor there....super miss the toilet there....super miss the sauna there....miss the steam room there....miss the locker there.....everything and everything....
everytime when i'm free my mind will be fooling around the fitness centre.....this might because i'm having sooo much fun there.....during daytime when i'm super busy and rush for my homework.....all my tired and stress are released when i was there in the centre.....i just do not know why this bring such a big effect.....
today....i'm kindda free.....so....i suddenly soooo soooo sooo miss there.....i even start to refresh that the schedule of the classes today.....d handsome and cool instructor that will having class today....i just.....
in the future, i'll definitely join as member....but not now.....i've got whole pile of works n study waiting for me....i cant....i cannot let myself go there at least during this period of time....i'm addicted to it....more serious than a drug addictor.....
everytime when i'm free my mind will be fooling around the fitness centre.....this might because i'm having sooo much fun there.....during daytime when i'm super busy and rush for my homework.....all my tired and stress are released when i was there in the centre.....i just do not know why this bring such a big effect.....
today....i'm kindda free.....so....i suddenly soooo soooo sooo miss there.....i even start to refresh that the schedule of the classes today.....d handsome and cool instructor that will having class today....i just.....
in the future, i'll definitely join as member....but not now.....i've got whole pile of works n study waiting for me....i cant....i cannot let myself go there at least during this period of time....i'm addicted to it....more serious than a drug addictor.....
星期三, 8月 16, 2006
BUSY life.....
HUHUHU....feel like crying....my life had been getting busier and busier.....i soooo cant tahan already!!!!I feel like running away from everything here....i super super tired already....everyday i've to do reports....everyday i'll have to sit in front of my pity laptop and type on it.....this week i have 3 reports (less one report because one lab session was cancelled last week)....and 2 assignment which due on d same day.......and....this after, d lec announced that he postpone the due date of d assignment to monday....so it'll drop down 2 3 reports n 1 assignment....now i only left one assignment (which i have started a word on it) and 1 report (which i almost finish) to do....i cant believe this....
but then this month, i go to FITNESS FIRST to work out.....hahah....at the first week, me and my roomate don't feel like joining the classes....n there's one day we decided to join for the classes....and now.....we are addicted!!!we go to the class 3 days per week....but then only for this month....coz we buy a RM25 voucher trial for the centre, so after this month, my life will get back to normal again.....i've go to Body Balance, Yoga, Body Jam, Body Combat, and Power Yoga.....n i super like Body Balance, Body Jam and Body Combat....i don't like YOGA....it's toooo stretching....and today my triceps feel awful....painful ler....my back and my waist as well....i can feel d over stretching of the muscle.....huhuhu.....but ho i super like Body Balance and Combat....coz i like that instructor soooo much!!!!She's super!!!!When she's in Body Balance....she's soooo smooth and soft.....every movement of hers is soooo soft and gentle....but then in Body Combat....she CHANGE!!!180 degress somemore.....from a soft and gentle person to a super active person whereby she's super active and super full of energy while teaching us all the combat movement!!!i soooooosoooooo like her ler.....this week there wont have her classes because of the instructor training thingy....haiyaya....i'm going to miss her sooo sooo much ler....after next week, i'll never see her again....unless i throw my money to the centre....it's a big budget for me....maybe wait till i work.....it's a big experience for me....at least there's some movement that i remember and i can practice and work out at home.....
hehe.....ok....away from fitness first.....there's one day ho, when i walked down from the bus ho....i bump my head onto the entrance of the bus....there's a big sound 'PONG' like that u know....walao er....me painful till almost pengsan...then ho super embarrased then i quickly jump down from the bus and leave the bus....walao....nasib there's no one i know in the bus....i think d bus driver must be laughing at me...n how....there's other day....when me and my roomate come back from fitness first....we've waited soooo long for the bus to come....then ho....finally it comes....at first the bus was still ok....then.....suddenly....the engine "SWOSH"....gone off.....walao....half way there ler....apu.....then we call our fren come n pick us up....we spend sooo much time on telling our exact location....hahaha.....then got one more day....very early in the morning.....again i got off from d bus....then i suddenly loss my balance....n then....."WHUP"....fell on d floor.....but i have touch d ground yet la....i manage to push myself back to standing position....wahahhaahha.....even myself laughing ler.....apu.....so stupid....heheheh
haha.....finish all my stupid things la!!!
but then this month, i go to FITNESS FIRST to work out.....hahah....at the first week, me and my roomate don't feel like joining the classes....n there's one day we decided to join for the classes....and now.....we are addicted!!!we go to the class 3 days per week....but then only for this month....coz we buy a RM25 voucher trial for the centre, so after this month, my life will get back to normal again.....i've go to Body Balance, Yoga, Body Jam, Body Combat, and Power Yoga.....n i super like Body Balance, Body Jam and Body Combat....i don't like YOGA....it's toooo stretching....and today my triceps feel awful....painful ler....my back and my waist as well....i can feel d over stretching of the muscle.....huhuhu.....but ho i super like Body Balance and Combat....coz i like that instructor soooo much!!!!She's super!!!!When she's in Body Balance....she's soooo smooth and soft.....every movement of hers is soooo soft and gentle....but then in Body Combat....she CHANGE!!!180 degress somemore.....from a soft and gentle person to a super active person whereby she's super active and super full of energy while teaching us all the combat movement!!!i soooooosoooooo like her ler.....this week there wont have her classes because of the instructor training thingy....haiyaya....i'm going to miss her sooo sooo much ler....after next week, i'll never see her again....unless i throw my money to the centre....it's a big budget for me....maybe wait till i work.....it's a big experience for me....at least there's some movement that i remember and i can practice and work out at home.....
hehe.....ok....away from fitness first.....there's one day ho, when i walked down from the bus ho....i bump my head onto the entrance of the bus....there's a big sound 'PONG' like that u know....walao er....me painful till almost pengsan...then ho super embarrased then i quickly jump down from the bus and leave the bus....walao....nasib there's no one i know in the bus....i think d bus driver must be laughing at me...n how....there's other day....when me and my roomate come back from fitness first....we've waited soooo long for the bus to come....then ho....finally it comes....at first the bus was still ok....then.....suddenly....the engine "SWOSH"....gone off.....walao....half way there ler....apu.....then we call our fren come n pick us up....we spend sooo much time on telling our exact location....hahaha.....then got one more day....very early in the morning.....again i got off from d bus....then i suddenly loss my balance....n then....."WHUP"....fell on d floor.....but i have touch d ground yet la....i manage to push myself back to standing position....wahahhaahha.....even myself laughing ler.....apu.....so stupid....heheheh
haha.....finish all my stupid things la!!!
星期三, 8月 02, 2006
Unresistable Cheesecake!!!!Yummy!!!!
HOHOHO!!!!very beautiful ho.....i can't tahan it ler.....super beautiful and delicious ler.....it's super unresistable!!!!after busy for the whole day, then suddenly i open my mailbox and found that one of my friend send me this super cuttie and delicious picture.....this makes my days brighter!!!!
i'm the kind of person where i'll eat a lot when i'm stress up or having any difficulties....so....all these pictures help a lot!!!!at least i do not have to eat them and i can have the same effect as eating them.....hahaha!!!!!wont get fat somemore.....wont feel full somemore.....but....definitely feel a lot brighter from the inside!!!!hahaha.....so.....hope it do helps....
星期三, 7月 26, 2006
Back to School
haha...back to school liao lo...this is my second week lo....i'm still in holiday mood...i still don't feel like doing anything yet....but....the reports and assignments keep on coming in....also test as well....it doesn't wait for me....it come only when i'm ready to do my work....like the earth still rotate although there's meteorites striking it....hai....that's life....and one things is that in this sem i found that it's harder than last sem....i heard from a lot of seniors says that it's getting tougher and tougher.....this scares me sooo much....and....i'm havin problem of getting the textbook....that textbook provided by library had been borrowed out since the first day of the school....and also....this is the first time i found that it's necessary for me to have the textbook....hai....i'm so scare to get back to the life back here....which mean i'll be busy.....especially i'm a cell group leader this time....this....challenge me a lot....i don't want to be a cell group leader...coz i know i'm not strong enough to be one....but....i'm forced to....every cell group leader is forced to be a leader....
sometimes i just feel very very disappointed with the fellowship which i'm going now....disappointed with the people there....i cant deny that they do lead the fellowship well....but why don't they think of the problem where they had been facing recently???why does all the new comers don't come to the fellowship frequently???of coz one of the problem is that they are busy with they school works (i also busy with that!!!)...another problem is that they cannt feel warm when they step into the fellowship....they feel that people in the fellowship care for their own....i cant deny that i do not know how to care for those newcomers....but....at least i was there!!!not like our president whereby he only been there once a month, that's when they have the committee meeting....this is ridiculous....i just feel very disappointed with the committee.....i've tell myself and pray to GOD that i definitely wont be the committee of this fellowship....hai....everywhere and anyone disappoints me....man is not made perfect for everything.....if one day i meet one who i feel is perfect, then he'll be my man....
sometimes i just feel very very disappointed with the fellowship which i'm going now....disappointed with the people there....i cant deny that they do lead the fellowship well....but why don't they think of the problem where they had been facing recently???why does all the new comers don't come to the fellowship frequently???of coz one of the problem is that they are busy with they school works (i also busy with that!!!)...another problem is that they cannt feel warm when they step into the fellowship....they feel that people in the fellowship care for their own....i cant deny that i do not know how to care for those newcomers....but....at least i was there!!!not like our president whereby he only been there once a month, that's when they have the committee meeting....this is ridiculous....i just feel very disappointed with the committee.....i've tell myself and pray to GOD that i definitely wont be the committee of this fellowship....hai....everywhere and anyone disappoints me....man is not made perfect for everything.....if one day i meet one who i feel is perfect, then he'll be my man....
星期六, 7月 08, 2006
Lazy is a very SERIOUS problem
Lazy is a very serious sickness that i'm not going to be fully recover...well....this illness not only found on me...but a lot of people out there as well (i think!)
Just now i heard from another friend of mine whereby he is like a postman between me and my best friend....he spread her words to me....then it makes me think a lot....why cant she just sms me directly and tell me all d things that she wanna say???why must spread the words to him???u know what answer i get???LAZY!!!!See how's the consequences of the laziness.....they symptoms is that you don't feel like doing anything....and there's nothing in the medical field that can cure this diseases....erm...back to my topic....what i want to say is....why she just cant take out her hp and just send an sms to me instead of i'm who d one who start up everything???it's not the first time....i'm tired of everything....so....to be fair, i didn't send any sms to any other friends there as well....but just now....i still send my sms to her....
i feel that i'm always the one who give out everything....but i didn't receive any....i feel not fair....i feel disappointed....whoever who talk to me will be all about her...well.....i feel like i'm being used....i just soooo sad when i heard that she say she's lazy to send sms....and somemore she's expecting to hear from me?!?!?unbelieveable.....i just cant believe this.....you wont get anything if you don't give it out....i just.....very sad....
Just now i heard from another friend of mine whereby he is like a postman between me and my best friend....he spread her words to me....then it makes me think a lot....why cant she just sms me directly and tell me all d things that she wanna say???why must spread the words to him???u know what answer i get???LAZY!!!!See how's the consequences of the laziness.....they symptoms is that you don't feel like doing anything....and there's nothing in the medical field that can cure this diseases....erm...back to my topic....what i want to say is....why she just cant take out her hp and just send an sms to me instead of i'm who d one who start up everything???it's not the first time....i'm tired of everything....so....to be fair, i didn't send any sms to any other friends there as well....but just now....i still send my sms to her....
i feel that i'm always the one who give out everything....but i didn't receive any....i feel not fair....i feel disappointed....whoever who talk to me will be all about her...well.....i feel like i'm being used....i just soooo sad when i heard that she say she's lazy to send sms....and somemore she's expecting to hear from me?!?!?unbelieveable.....i just cant believe this.....you wont get anything if you don't give it out....i just.....very sad....
星期一, 7月 03, 2006
Beckham's Tears :'(
The whole world has been shaking after the World Cup quarter final last two days whereby this match had sent both England and Brazil back home. It's was quite unbelievable that both of this team was sent back home this early. Brazil was the potential World Cup winner, but in the end....From the live broadcast of the match, everyone in the England team was sooo sooo sooo depressed and sad...whereby they sit on the ground and cry....Even David Beckham cry as well....they do not expect for all these to happen....Well, all i can say is-Good Luck in your future England and Brazil...
Well, actually i din sleep well yesterday night. I just do not know why i cannot get into sleep. Maybe i was distrupted by one sms which sent from my roomate there in Sunway. She tell me that how the guy (whom i have the special feeling BEFORE) care for the girl (my best friend). This sounds nothing but....i just do not know why....when i saw this sms, there's an angry feeling inside my heart....whereby i start to think that why he always treat others better???Only when he needs me he'll treat me well...i feel like i've been used since we've first know each other. I feel like i've been used to give him every information about her....i remember soooo well that he says to me that "it's because of you, then only i can get along well with her!"....this words had become a deep cut in my heart whereby it haven recovered till now. Sometimes i'm so sure that the special feeling that i have upon him had gone....but sometimes when i see him treat others well i'll feel angry and maybe jealous i should say....i just do not know why i have all these stupid feeling....maybe i'm just too shelfish....i just wish that i do not have to go back and study....i just wish that i can go to other place and study....go to a place where no one knows me....but it was GOD who lead me into Monash University. I've pray that i do not want to stay here and i want to leave all these stupid feeling and go to a new place where i start everything all over again....of coz....watever path that HE had choosen for me, i'll follow. That's why i'm here in Monash University. There must have somethings that GOD wants me to do or want me to complete....although life is difficult, i must follow GOD's path....
Well, actually i din sleep well yesterday night. I just do not know why i cannot get into sleep. Maybe i was distrupted by one sms which sent from my roomate there in Sunway. She tell me that how the guy (whom i have the special feeling BEFORE) care for the girl (my best friend). This sounds nothing but....i just do not know why....when i saw this sms, there's an angry feeling inside my heart....whereby i start to think that why he always treat others better???Only when he needs me he'll treat me well...i feel like i've been used since we've first know each other. I feel like i've been used to give him every information about her....i remember soooo well that he says to me that "it's because of you, then only i can get along well with her!"....this words had become a deep cut in my heart whereby it haven recovered till now. Sometimes i'm so sure that the special feeling that i have upon him had gone....but sometimes when i see him treat others well i'll feel angry and maybe jealous i should say....i just do not know why i have all these stupid feeling....maybe i'm just too shelfish....i just wish that i do not have to go back and study....i just wish that i can go to other place and study....go to a place where no one knows me....but it was GOD who lead me into Monash University. I've pray that i do not want to stay here and i want to leave all these stupid feeling and go to a new place where i start everything all over again....of coz....watever path that HE had choosen for me, i'll follow. That's why i'm here in Monash University. There must have somethings that GOD wants me to do or want me to complete....although life is difficult, i must follow GOD's path....
星期三, 6月 28, 2006
~*My 20th Birthday*~Part 2
Haha....as i promise in my previous blog that i want to share about the things that made me sad which had happen on my 20th birthday.
1) Although i receive a whole pile of SMSes from all of my frens, whom include my new cell group member, churchmate, frens and others.....there's one sms that made me feel....disappointed.....that's one of the sms from my best friend....i remember for her birthday.... sing a birthday song for her and send it to her by using voice sms....i plan sooo much for her birthday....i spend sooo much time on her present where i walk almost all of the shopping mall around KL....However, things was soooo different for me....i do not receive any birthday song from her....but i do receive one FORWARDED sms from her....somemore that sms had to be shared with other ppl....this means that...in one sms, there are 2 persons name in it....i'm sooooo depressed....
2) I've never receive a present whereby made me feel sooooo disappointed....i receive an iron chain with a cross on it.....this present doesn't sounds bad rite....(since i'm a christian)....but my point is....it's IRON!!!!the colour is like....it just make me feel sooo disappointed....i just cant believe that someone whom i expect to know me well give me such a things....if someone who know me well will know that he/she shouldn't give me jewellery as a present....i've had more than enough since i was young....i do not need someone to give me an IRON as a gift!!!!i think that....it's rude....it's just....ridiculous!!!!super disappointed.....
3)On my birthday...i do not have chance to spend that day with my best friend....this is because every year...one the 23/6, it was her best friends' bf birthday as well....so she have to celebrate for her best friend....somemore she have to tell me that she's in lagoon wearing beautiful swimsuit playing with her fren happily!!!!well....i know we've only know each other for like....not long....only1-2 years....but....at least, every year on her birthday...i was there!!!why it's my turn n she's not there???i....i know i'm kindda shelfish to think like this...but....i just cant understand....
4) I do not want branded coffee (from starbucks or coffee beans)...i do not want very expensive cake(from breadtalk or starbucks)....i just.....can u just let me feel your sincerity in those present???I know....i do like coffee and cheese cake....but...i just cant feel your heart...your sincerity inside it....it's different....i just feel like it's not a birthday present for me....i just feel like i buy the coffee and the cake myself....it would taste better if i buy it myself!!!
well....it seems like that's all for the things that made me disappointed....i just...maybe it's because i care too much....i...sometimes just give out my heart too much whereby other just giv out the outermost layer of their heart to me....maybe it's because i expect too much from her....so that's why it makes me feel sad....that's not the first time that disappoint me....but....N times....huh....tired....
1) Although i receive a whole pile of SMSes from all of my frens, whom include my new cell group member, churchmate, frens and others.....there's one sms that made me feel....disappointed.....that's one of the sms from my best friend....i remember for her birthday.... sing a birthday song for her and send it to her by using voice sms....i plan sooo much for her birthday....i spend sooo much time on her present where i walk almost all of the shopping mall around KL....However, things was soooo different for me....i do not receive any birthday song from her....but i do receive one FORWARDED sms from her....somemore that sms had to be shared with other ppl....this means that...in one sms, there are 2 persons name in it....i'm sooooo depressed....
2) I've never receive a present whereby made me feel sooooo disappointed....i receive an iron chain with a cross on it.....this present doesn't sounds bad rite....(since i'm a christian)....but my point is....it's IRON!!!!the colour is like....it just make me feel sooo disappointed....i just cant believe that someone whom i expect to know me well give me such a things....if someone who know me well will know that he/she shouldn't give me jewellery as a present....i've had more than enough since i was young....i do not need someone to give me an IRON as a gift!!!!i think that....it's rude....it's just....ridiculous!!!!super disappointed.....
3)On my birthday...i do not have chance to spend that day with my best friend....this is because every year...one the 23/6, it was her best friends' bf birthday as well....so she have to celebrate for her best friend....somemore she have to tell me that she's in lagoon wearing beautiful swimsuit playing with her fren happily!!!!well....i know we've only know each other for like....not long....only1-2 years....but....at least, every year on her birthday...i was there!!!why it's my turn n she's not there???i....i know i'm kindda shelfish to think like this...but....i just cant understand....
4) I do not want branded coffee (from starbucks or coffee beans)...i do not want very expensive cake(from breadtalk or starbucks)....i just.....can u just let me feel your sincerity in those present???I know....i do like coffee and cheese cake....but...i just cant feel your heart...your sincerity inside it....it's different....i just feel like it's not a birthday present for me....i just feel like i buy the coffee and the cake myself....it would taste better if i buy it myself!!!
well....it seems like that's all for the things that made me disappointed....i just...maybe it's because i care too much....i...sometimes just give out my heart too much whereby other just giv out the outermost layer of their heart to me....maybe it's because i expect too much from her....so that's why it makes me feel sad....that's not the first time that disappoint me....but....N times....huh....tired....
星期二, 6月 27, 2006
~*My 20th Birthday*~
huh....see how times fly....thank God that i've been on this earth for 20 years....it's....unbelieveable....i mean....i cant believe that i'm 20 now....i'm telling everyone around that i'm 20 years old this year!!!huh....i still cant believe this....hahhaah.....that's we....human.....we need to grow up....
well...this birthday is the most special birthday that i have.....there are a lot of special things that happen on this day. Let me list it out one by one:
1) 23/6/2006....i'll never forget this date in my whole life....coz....i din sleep since 22/6/2006....it's all because of the stupid ecology final paper that would be held on 830am(althought i've get used to having exam during my birthday time)....this means that on the day when i turn 20, i still have to sit there all ALONE, study the whole lot of notes about my ecology.....and that's the worst subject...i don't think i can pass that paper....coz i've fail my internal....then i've to get real high for that final paper in order for me to pass the whole subject....23/6/2006 from 12am to 10am is the most stressed birthday moment for me.....
2)My best friend, Shin Yee who stay in Negeri Sembilan come down to KL purposely for me...i was soooo touch....all the way down....taking ktm down to KL central to meet me....all by herself....alone.....when i saw her in KL central, i was sooo touched....i just don't know how to express my feeling to her....we've been knowing each other since form 2, which is 8 years ago....i learn a lot of things from her....last time i used to be a bad temper person....but from her i learn to calm myself down...and.....a lot of things.....we went to sungei wang together.....gossiping like i've never done that before....n she buy present for me....a cute purple blouse where i like it very much.....THANK U FREN...I LOVE U!!!MUAKZ....
3)An sms from Australia in the middle of the nite.....that's rite....it's from u-YEE MAN!!!!although i receive a whole pile of sms....with different birthday wishes...but i don't know why, when i saw ur sms i'm soooo touched.....sooo happy....maybe it's because i miss u sooo much....i just miss the way u talk to me....so gentle....u calm me down when i'm angry, listen to me when i'm depressed(but mostly u c me laughing rite???hahahah)....I MISS U!!!!MUAKZ.....
4) As i mentioned on 1 that i din sleep....so that whole day....i mean on 23/6/2006...i'm kindda like blur blur....stupid stupid like that....i seriously just pull myself into the church for the fellowship....coz i'm the cell group leader n that nite is the cell group gatherin nite....so i must be there....it's a tough job for me especially when i'm not in good condition...then ho...after the fellowship ho....i went back home with my housemate....then i cant wait to jump onto my bed to sleep...but ho....i haven took my shower yet...so i took my shower first....the moment that i step out from the toilet....there's suddenly about 20 peoples standing at my house.....which...kindda surprised me....they are all waiting for me!!!!they were there to sing s birthday song for me....hehehe....kindda....shock....but then ho....maybe because i'm too tired....then i din really feel like....happy....i just don't know why....but not to deny that....this is the most....'noisy' birthday for me....(a lot of people)....
5) it's the only birthday that i spend with a guy whose birthday is same as mine....one of our church member as well....one of my senior as well!!!hahahah....n d cutest thing is that he sing another version of birthday song softly(when i was on the phone, whereby he thought that i wasn't listen to him)....that birthday song is.....originally cantonese version (if u watch tvb drama they all sing that version of birthday song)...but then he sing in chinese....hahahah....cute ler!!!!that nite he hide at my house...coz he scare kena kacau by others church member (it's our tradition to have water and flour for anyone's birthday!!!!but not for me this years)haha....
6) the first time that d guy that i mention at 5 invite me out to go shopping together on d day after our birthday.....at first i thought he'll want to go one-U coz he like to go there ma....but ho...he suddenly say go Midvalley...which...shocks me....but then ho....this doesn't matter...the point is....i wanted to ask him to go Midvalley as well!!!weird ho.....is it having same day for the birthday will have same thought as well????heheheh....then ho....force me to choose a present....stupid...i hate people force me to buy things one....at last u know wat i choose???2 sticker n one cute purple bottle....wahahahah.....
7) A love dinner from my housemate....she cook a lot of things to celebrate birthday with me,the guy who had the same birthday as mine, and two other girls whose birthday had just pass and around the corner....although it's just a simple dinner....but...i'm so touched!!!all these means a lot to me than all the present.....
8) A chicken soup mee sua cooked by that guy whom have the same birthday as mine...hehehe....very touched.....as touched as my housemate dinner.....very warm!!!
well...i think that's all....(too long liao!!!)....i'll write for sad things that happen during my birthday in my next blog....
well...this birthday is the most special birthday that i have.....there are a lot of special things that happen on this day. Let me list it out one by one:
1) 23/6/2006....i'll never forget this date in my whole life....coz....i din sleep since 22/6/2006....it's all because of the stupid ecology final paper that would be held on 830am(althought i've get used to having exam during my birthday time)....this means that on the day when i turn 20, i still have to sit there all ALONE, study the whole lot of notes about my ecology.....and that's the worst subject...i don't think i can pass that paper....coz i've fail my internal....then i've to get real high for that final paper in order for me to pass the whole subject....23/6/2006 from 12am to 10am is the most stressed birthday moment for me.....
2)My best friend, Shin Yee who stay in Negeri Sembilan come down to KL purposely for me...i was soooo touch....all the way down....taking ktm down to KL central to meet me....all by herself....alone.....when i saw her in KL central, i was sooo touched....i just don't know how to express my feeling to her....we've been knowing each other since form 2, which is 8 years ago....i learn a lot of things from her....last time i used to be a bad temper person....but from her i learn to calm myself down...and.....a lot of things.....we went to sungei wang together.....gossiping like i've never done that before....n she buy present for me....a cute purple blouse where i like it very much.....THANK U FREN...I LOVE U!!!MUAKZ....
3)An sms from Australia in the middle of the nite.....that's rite....it's from u-YEE MAN!!!!although i receive a whole pile of sms....with different birthday wishes...but i don't know why, when i saw ur sms i'm soooo touched.....sooo happy....maybe it's because i miss u sooo much....i just miss the way u talk to me....so gentle....u calm me down when i'm angry, listen to me when i'm depressed(but mostly u c me laughing rite???hahahah)....I MISS U!!!!MUAKZ.....
4) As i mentioned on 1 that i din sleep....so that whole day....i mean on 23/6/2006...i'm kindda like blur blur....stupid stupid like that....i seriously just pull myself into the church for the fellowship....coz i'm the cell group leader n that nite is the cell group gatherin nite....so i must be there....it's a tough job for me especially when i'm not in good condition...then ho...after the fellowship ho....i went back home with my housemate....then i cant wait to jump onto my bed to sleep...but ho....i haven took my shower yet...so i took my shower first....the moment that i step out from the toilet....there's suddenly about 20 peoples standing at my house.....which...kindda surprised me....they are all waiting for me!!!!they were there to sing s birthday song for me....hehehe....kindda....shock....but then ho....maybe because i'm too tired....then i din really feel like....happy....i just don't know why....but not to deny that....this is the most....'noisy' birthday for me....(a lot of people)....
5) it's the only birthday that i spend with a guy whose birthday is same as mine....one of our church member as well....one of my senior as well!!!hahahah....n d cutest thing is that he sing another version of birthday song softly(when i was on the phone, whereby he thought that i wasn't listen to him)....that birthday song is.....originally cantonese version (if u watch tvb drama they all sing that version of birthday song)...but then he sing in chinese....hahahah....cute ler!!!!that nite he hide at my house...coz he scare kena kacau by others church member (it's our tradition to have water and flour for anyone's birthday!!!!but not for me this years)haha....
6) the first time that d guy that i mention at 5 invite me out to go shopping together on d day after our birthday.....at first i thought he'll want to go one-U coz he like to go there ma....but ho...he suddenly say go Midvalley...which...shocks me....but then ho....this doesn't matter...the point is....i wanted to ask him to go Midvalley as well!!!weird ho.....is it having same day for the birthday will have same thought as well????heheheh....then ho....force me to choose a present....stupid...i hate people force me to buy things one....at last u know wat i choose???2 sticker n one cute purple bottle....wahahahah.....
7) A love dinner from my housemate....she cook a lot of things to celebrate birthday with me,the guy who had the same birthday as mine, and two other girls whose birthday had just pass and around the corner....although it's just a simple dinner....but...i'm so touched!!!all these means a lot to me than all the present.....
8) A chicken soup mee sua cooked by that guy whom have the same birthday as mine...hehehe....very touched.....as touched as my housemate dinner.....very warm!!!
well...i think that's all....(too long liao!!!)....i'll write for sad things that happen during my birthday in my next blog....
星期四, 6月 08, 2006
~*SAMSUNI*~
=> this are my new beloved guy la....hehehe....very 'flower' ler me!!!
wow...it's been a long time since my last post....well....it's because of my laziness la...somemore ho my english 'need help'....that's what one of my lecture write on my reports....although i have self-conscious la...but it still hurt...hai....nevermind la....
next week is my final exam n now...what am i doing here?!?!sitting in front of the computer posting my blog, chatting with frens and surfing the net for some pictures???OH NO.....if my family knows this they will definitely kill me....well...that's me....i know the seriousness of the final exam....whereby i've put sooo much effort to get into Monash....so i have to try my best.....that's what my sister tell me....and i know that for sure...but then....i'm not those top student whereby they are getting super stress up during the exam period....it doesn't mean that i don't have stress....it's just....i don't like to get myself into sooo much stress....when you are stress, u tend to think more u know....somemore one the negative side ler......i hate that....i don't want my life to cover with negative thinking....
last week i watch a korean drama...called...我叫金三顺...i super like that drama....i watch it again n again.....the point is....the guy inside is superb man!!!u'll have to watch that if u haven....this drama doesn't inspire me much....all i get is that....a not so pretty women can get her true love as well....which mean....i can also la!!!hahaha....my true love???wont have that....at least for my current situation....it's easy to like someone but hard to love someone....haha...don't want to talk more about my love sight la....all i can say is that i'm stupid....although there's no right or wrong in love....
gambateh la....
星期四, 5月 25, 2006
very cute ho these article....although it din says a lot of words....but....it's sooo meaningful....and my point is.....that's me!!!!i feel like i'm the one who wrote this article...it's sooo.....i just don't know why....i'm soooo touch....i feel like i'm the author to this article....hai....that's life....someone can just find they beloved partner just like that....someone just miss their beloved partner in their whole life....someone caomplaint for their beloved partner....someone do not dare to tell their beloved partner their feeling....someone who had face sooo much trouble just to get together.....someone care too much for the others and bring disaster....someone do not care whether to get a partner for their life....someone.....there's too much hypothesis that can be make.....how i wish everything can be simple....and easy.....GOD create man with all these emotion because HE had all these as well....therefore, we should be happy that we have the image of GOD.....if everything is easy and simple, we won't appreciate whatever is given.....we won't appreciate our relationship.....if u already have ur beloved partner, it's GOD's gift.....thank GOD for that....if u haven find one (like me)....pray more to GOD so that HE will show u who is the one that he choose for u....
星期一, 5月 15, 2006
A cute article that fits me sooooo much!!!!
Well, it's kindda small for u to see the font....erm....that's the largest that i can post....if u really want to know it, save it to your devices n magnify it....Everytime i read this article, it touch my heart soooo much....i'm exactly the person that was mentioned in the article.....at first i thought that i'm recovering from this situation.....but....in real life, i cant.....whenever i see him, i feel that i must talk to him.....whenever i din talk to him, i'll have a sleepless night....then i'll start to imagine that i'm talking to him as usual n play with him.....sometimes i feel that, it's tough....to talk to him....coz i can feel that it was him who don't want to talk to me....sometimes he just show his 'black' face to me.....(actually not to me, but the whole nation) then.....it doesn't mean that i'm affraid of him whenever he show his face like that, but it's....his attitude....he wont answer your question if he feel uneccessary....However, there will be a totally diverse situation whereby he has a very good mood....he'll talk to everyone out there.....and play with everyone....i'm kindda tired of this....
Me also feels that i'm being 'used' everytime....coz he have some 'extraordinary' feel to my best fren so during her birthday period, he'll be very fren with me....treat me soooo different....like....i don't dare to say the word.....i know we are impossible...but.....i just need more time to recover from all this foolishness.....
星期二, 5月 02, 2006
好贴切哦！！！
第一名：巨蟹男與巨蟹女
巨蟹男與巨蟹女兩個人的感覺，是一切盡在不言中！譬如：你燉一鍋湯，他就會掉眼淚；你打一件毛衣，他就會天天穿，就是兩個人是非常溫和！巨蟹座的男生其實有一點女人性，比較會碎碎唸，一般人會覺得這種男的很孬種，不夠 MAN，可是巨蟹座的女生會覺得其實蠻好的！而且他們溝通的方式一點都不理性，都是用感性溝通，就是巨蟹座的男生跟女生本來要討論買房子這件事，然後巨蟹女說想買在海邊，巨蟹座男就會說好我們就買在海邊。
以上是最速配的星座里得冠军宝座的。真的把我形容到很贴切。。。而在我认识的巨蟹男也正是这洋的。。。但我和他是不可能的。。。一只手掌是拍不响的，所以还是把那只手收藏起来。。。埋藏在看不见的地方。。。宁愿自己受上辛苦，也不愿牵扯到他人。。。
巨蟹男與巨蟹女兩個人的感覺，是一切盡在不言中！譬如：你燉一鍋湯，他就會掉眼淚；你打一件毛衣，他就會天天穿，就是兩個人是非常溫和！巨蟹座的男生其實有一點女人性，比較會碎碎唸，一般人會覺得這種男的很孬種，不夠 MAN，可是巨蟹座的女生會覺得其實蠻好的！而且他們溝通的方式一點都不理性，都是用感性溝通，就是巨蟹座的男生跟女生本來要討論買房子這件事，然後巨蟹女說想買在海邊，巨蟹座男就會說好我們就買在海邊。
以上是最速配的星座里得冠军宝座的。真的把我形容到很贴切。。。而在我认识的巨蟹男也正是这洋的。。。但我和他是不可能的。。。一只手掌是拍不响的，所以还是把那只手收藏起来。。。埋藏在看不见的地方。。。宁愿自己受上辛苦，也不愿牵扯到他人。。。
星期二, 4月 25, 2006
Pack everyday....
my life here is still pack everyday....everyday pack with a lot of things to do....a lot of assignment....a lot of reports....a lot of test....a lot of.....problems as well....but Thank GOD sooo much that whenever i'm having trouble, HE is always by my side....HE is always the one who was there to help me....HE was the only one who listen to my grumbling....HE is the only one who tolerate with my childishness....GOD.....THANK YOU.....All the glories be to you.....
let me update a little bout myself....well, i'm still alive!!!but was 'break down'....i got flu....it's been a long time that i din get into sick....and finally, i'm sick!!!....wahaha.....wat am i talking about....ppl will die of sick but i'm happy with sick....hehehe....sometimes i feel that, when someone get into sick, he/she will have more attention on them.....so....does that means that i have more attention on myself as well????wahahah.....no la....u thought me that fortunate meh!!!i'm what they call "ku ming ren"....only if i die then i'll get the attention....hehehe....but then what for o, have so many attention on yourself???then you'll b lack of private time rite????hai....dun understand....
although i'm pack with assignments and reports, but i'm still ok...i mean mentally!!!i feel like i'm getting myself back....maybe because there are some problem that i have solve...it release all my burden....so....heheheh
let me update a little bout myself....well, i'm still alive!!!but was 'break down'....i got flu....it's been a long time that i din get into sick....and finally, i'm sick!!!....wahaha.....wat am i talking about....ppl will die of sick but i'm happy with sick....hehehe....sometimes i feel that, when someone get into sick, he/she will have more attention on them.....so....does that means that i have more attention on myself as well????wahahah.....no la....u thought me that fortunate meh!!!i'm what they call "ku ming ren"....only if i die then i'll get the attention....hehehe....but then what for o, have so many attention on yourself???then you'll b lack of private time rite????hai....dun understand....
although i'm pack with assignments and reports, but i'm still ok...i mean mentally!!!i feel like i'm getting myself back....maybe because there are some problem that i have solve...it release all my burden....so....heheheh
星期五, 4月 14, 2006
I'm shelfish
well....sometimes i don't know how others think....i always act watever i feel to....i don't think before act.....n now cause others to suffer....i'm stupid and shelfish....
i don't want to get involve in all these things.....i wanna quit everything....back to myself....back to where i'm suppose to be...back to......
i'm tired.....
i don't want to get involve in all these things.....i wanna quit everything....back to myself....back to where i'm suppose to be...back to......
i'm tired.....
星期一, 4月 10, 2006
Safely back from the Jungle!!!
Thank GOD for listening to my prayer....Thank GOD for taking care and leading me when i was in the field trip....the trip was fortunately not as bad as i've expected earlier.....but....it's physically exhausting....we're all in the mangrove....every1 are muddy, their leg was trapped in the mud where need to pull it out....and there's millions of mosquito inside the jungle....those mosquitoes are all.....mutated one ler...they don't really afraid for the mosquito repellent....somemore.....they place that it "park" was still iching after three days.....damn scary....i soooooo scare of being bite by mosquito....but then....this is the first time for me to experience leeches....i've got one in my shoes when i was out from the jungle....and of coz it was sucking my blood....when i take it off from my leg, the place where the leech "rest" was bleeding like hell.....the blood will only stop after 2 hours....walao....it's.....supreme....no words can used to describe....
but then....when i was trap in the mud....i thought of a lot of things.....a lot of things that i suddenly realise.....whenever we're trap in a tough situation, the only people that can help us is only ourself....although others can give us a hand....but we still need to help ourself to reach the hand....and....i've think of a lot of things....
but then....when i was trap in the mud....i thought of a lot of things.....a lot of things that i suddenly realise.....whenever we're trap in a tough situation, the only people that can help us is only ourself....although others can give us a hand....but we still need to help ourself to reach the hand....and....i've think of a lot of things....
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