Breaking New!!!!

There's one shocking news (to me) that i've read from the newspaper today. The shocking news is that the leading actor for Prison Break - Wenthworth Miller (Michael Scolfiel) had a BOYFRIEND!!! I'm not kidding!!! This was such a shocking news to me! I've never thought that such guy like him is a G!!! OMG!!! I still cant accept tat....

韩风再度吹起

前不久刚回来时有追了一部很搞笑的爱情韩剧--幻想情侣.当然看完了这部韩剧,就会很自然的喜欢剧里的主角们,尤其是男女主角.看完这部剧心情起伏没有很大,因为这部剧是轻松的喜剧.当然,还是会有一点点想说的啦.那个女主角会这么恶劣其实是有原因的,她小的时候家人在车祸中丧命了,世上只剩下唯一的亲人-奶奶.奶奶也因为人老了而病逝,从此以后这个世界上就只剩下她自己和家里所遗留的财产.在这样的环境下成长,怎样都会把自己保护的紧紧的吧.在这样的环境下成长的她对自己也欠缺信心,觉得自己没有能力守住自己的感情.这一点的她跟我还蛮像的,总是会把自己的情感埋藏起来,让外人都猜不透我真正想要的是什么.就算对任何人有一点点好感也会觉得那只是我想太多.或许,流过血的那道疤一直都在提醒着我吧.说完女主角,来说说男主角吧.戏里的他一至对他的初恋有所留恋尽管她已是别人的未婚妻了,他还是隋传隋到对她温柔体贴.男人就是这样,我们女生永远不明白他们在打着什么如意算盘.

说完第一部了,就说第二部吧.这部是韩国最新的韩剧哦,7月才出的--刀手吴水晶.我们一家都不是很喜欢剧里的女主角(不是因为她的角色的关系哦!)所以我没放她的照片,一半也是我找不到男女主角一起的照片啦.我妈说那个女主角的脸很不讨人喜欢所一她不想看这部剧.剧里的女主角是典形的势力眼,她已经有一为很爱很爱她甚至步入红地毯的超大个男友.女主角就因为嫌弃他傻傻的什么事都不会又没钱所一在婚礼进行到一半中途逃走,和曾经追求过她的医生飞到美国去,丢下她那又肥有傻的男友.接下来,当然那个肥男减肥了,也成了和老虎五兹平起平坐的高尔夫球手.但脱胎换骨的他回来是有目的的,至于是什么样的目的自己去看吧.这不剧我看了感触比较多.看见男女主角的彼此的痛苦,想爱但又因为很现实的问题没能如愿.好累,好痛苦.人啊,往往总是在失去后才会懂得珍惜.而且最重要的是千万千万不可以对他有所怨恨,不然就会和剧里的男主角一样痛苦.这里是整部剧里我最喜欢的一段.

Serious Muscle Fatigue n Cramp

Just back from Singapore and now suffer from serious pain at the waist part. Whenever i move my torso, i'll feel the pain very seriously at the right part of the lower back from back to front. I've never had such a serious pain ever and it do makes me suffer. I'm a bit tough as well as i do not want to take any pain killer that will relieve all the pain and make me feel better. For a women, we'll need a much higher dose of pain killer in our life time for delivery. If you do take pain killer tablet very often, I'd seriously advise you to better stop it. Or else, you'll suffer more during delivery.

Erm, don't make myself so serious. Haha!!! My pain is seriously killing me that first time ever i've ever think of taking pain killer before i go to sleep. Coz it pain during the nite and keeps me awake. All i can do now is just sit in front of the comp without moving any part of my torso and not even my head but only my fingers. Feel like i'm handicapped people. Now only i realise how much handicapped people suffered. And also i can understand how much my beloved one had been suffering and still force himself to work. I cant even stand up straight!

Just hope the pain wont affect my daily routine so much as i feel guilty just to sit there and do nothin. There's super lot of things need my help there, especially the dusty floor. Let me rest one more day and tomorrow onwards i'll have to start work.

Spore here i come

2molo is d day tat i left my footstep off onto the plane again...but this time i'm not goin back to KL yet but to Singapore...I'm there to relax...to breath the air outside Malaysia. Wahaha, honestly i do not had any excited feeling now. But i don't know whether i'd had it 2molo. I haven pack anythin yet. Maybe becoz i've been there before so i felt nothing. Still remember the same days back in one year ago, i'm leavin to NanJing airport and start to enjoy my South China tour. I totally din sleep the day before i leave KL to KK. So i didn't really get myself prepared and only realise that i'm already in NanJing. Everything just happen too fast that i don't have time to get excited. Now that i'm leaving to Singapore, i had the time which is more than enough for me to get prepared and excited. But now, i feel nothing. I just feel like it's another flight that i'm going to take.

Nvm. Maybe by the time i reach there i'll get excited. Hehehe....

My Japanese Name

Haha....just go to my bro-in-law's blog found out my Japanese name....I love this name....Ogawa Kumiko!!!Wahaha.....funny....beautiful child somemore ler....

小川 Ogawa (small river) 久美子 Kumiko (eternal beautiful child)

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Easy n Fun!!!

Emptiness

It's been bout one week since d day i left my footstep at d place where i live in sunway. Though it's so good to be back, maybe becoz i've get use to d life that i used to have there so i'm kindda like not used to d life that i'm having now. Whenever i'm free and alone, i'll started to miss everyone that i used to meet there....especially the instructor in California....like for example, today is Thursday, i used to go to BodyCombat by the most beloved instructor....i miss them so so much...i cant imagine that i had to face all these kind of sufferin for 3 months and i still have 2 months and 3 weeks elapsed.

There's just some kind of emptiness inside....no matter what i do i just feel like i'm lackin of energy. I feel like there's just lack of something. I mustn't deny that there's 'her' appearance in my mind as well. There's no one making fun besides me, no one punch me, no one argue with me, no one laugh at me, no one tease me....very boring la!!! Although we do send some stupid sms to each other, but it's just different. Haha!!! And of coz my housemate there....i miss the time where we used to sit and gossiping till midnight. This is what we girls will do....hahaha....and the most important is that....i miss my Combat and Spinning instructor so so so much!!! Whenever i remember d phrase 'I'll Miss U!!!' My heart just sink down an inch. Though i know that he might had mention this phrase to everyone, i still feel bad when i heard that.

This is the first time ever i have this kind of feeling. I never felt like this before. I always feel excited and happy to get onto the plane to see my beloved family in 2 hours times. I had no idea why i had this kind of feeling this time.

Last Day In California

See.....how time flies....It's like i just mention bout gettin back to California after my exam....and now i've to say it's the last day for this year for me to be in California. I can't believe how time flies....

Actually, last night i din sleep well...i dunno why, maybe bcoz i'm goin to meet my dear old fren who come back from Aus and maybe bcoz i'm goin to c my beloved instructor....i dunno....i just din sleep well...i keep on wakin up in d middle of the night...i dunno i'm excited bout wat....most probably i'll b back home soon....so get excited also....especially when i see all those things that i've buy n left on d floor....wahahah....

2day i'm so happy....coz finally he came to talk to me....AUTOMATICALLY U KNOW!!!!Wahahah...he ask me 'y u cut ur hair so short?!?!' wahahha....this qs make me stunt a while, coz i dunno how to answer him....then ho....d whole cls ho....i'm standin in front of him ma....wahaha....i get a closer look at him.....then ho after cls ma....i say 'c u next yr!!!' then he so curious n got ask me lo....erm...detail i no need mention la....kindda borin la....i'm so so happy finally i get to talk to him....i'm just happy!!!!!Wahahaha....seriously i'll definitely miss him when i'm back there for 3 months....then nite time i went to c another beloved him....wahaha...i have so many beloved....muahhaaahaahaa.....then ho....after d cls ar....at first i thought he was busy talkin with other ppl ar...then ho....he suddenly shout 'CINDY!!!!' (scare me ler!!!) then he say he'll gonna miss me!!!! Muahhahhhaaahhaaaa....my heart suddenly sink an inch ler....n he tell me next yr when i get back i definitely need to do some cardio b4 get into his cls....HUH!!!! He's challenging me!!!! OKOK....when i get back i'll go n do my cardio 2 keep up everythin...i'm not goin to let my stamina drop....YES YES!!!!

So sad la....like hearin all d ppl sayin bye bye 2 me....suddenly i feel like i wanted to stay here....but i knew tat my mum want me to get back n help her up...there's lot more things 4 me to do when i'm back home....especially life without a maid....everything have to DIY....ai....nvm nvm....so treat tat as my workout as well lo....so sad....

Relax

I'm so so so relax these few days....all i need to do everyday is to think what class to join in California....which shoppin mall to go....and what my mum and sis want to buy....hahaha.....tha's what i did before sleep everynite....wahahaa....like today, after goin to d cyclin class....i walk all alone in this pyramid....at first i thought i definitely will got something to buy.....but....at then end, i end up buyin my sis stuff n eat a lot of food....wahahha.....what a live i'm havin right now...

But ho....while i was walkin all alone....there suddenly had a lot of things come into my mind...now only i realise....besides him, i do not have any frens to go out with....somemore i think i'm botherin him so much....he got super lot of works to do and still i ask him goin out to play....i feel guilty whenever he tell me he haven finish his work....nvm....from now onwards, he wont c me again until next yr....hahaha....it's not d first time that i realise that i dun hav frens....the fact is that -- i do not have any frens!!!! Wahahaah.....Nvm....i've get use to d life liao....so doesn't matter....

FREE!!!!

Wahahaha.....cant believe that my horrible days had been gone just like that!!!!It's Unbelievable that i've been through all those suffering....mentally n physically challenging myself....especially in the middle of the night. Now, i'd like to officially announce that.....I'M FREE!!!!!Wahahaha.....

These few days i've been thinkin where to go besides California....that's all i worry these few days....wahahaha....wat a life i'm havin right now....wahahah...sooo sooo free....

California

It had been the 4th day that i haven step my foot into California....i so so so so miss everything inside there...especially d lovely instructor--Myke and Bryan....i cant wait to see them again.....and there's someone said that i've been started to grow horizontally.....WHAT?????It's only 4th day n he can notice that.....OMG!!!!But i dun deny the word that he say coz he is seriously true....during this peak period, i've been eatin every 2 hours.....it's not bcoz of hungry but bcoz i cant stop it...i just cant stop myself eatin....especially in d midnite....the situation get worst....if wanted to relate to what i've learn in my studies...it's becoz i've been using so so much energy from the brain, and brain which can only utilize glucose as fuel or energy supply had to be supplied with glucose continuously. That's why i'm eatin this much....

But.....see how the time flies....the paper that i'm goin to sit later is my second last paper....which means i have one more last one to go on 2molo mornin n that's it for this sem....this is.....FAST!!!! I cant wait to get myself workout and go out and shop like shopaholic....it's been a long time since the last time that i leave my footsteps at anywhere around bukit bintang....and even midvalley.....i cant wait for 2molo to come......

There's always one time during the midnight that i almost giv up upon everythin....i seriously thought of just don't study and prepared for the paper that i'm goin to sit....i just....tired of everythin....Thanks for him and her mental support which are always there whenever i needed.....it always comes on the right time....tq so so much!!!!Though i know u both are suffering as well....u might had the same situation that i'm facing now....but....ur support do means a lots to me....although it's just 2 simple repeat words -- + oil in ur msg....it gives me so so much energy!!!! Thank you so so much....i hope u wont be suffering as well....like wat u always tell me....this is life....u've to appreciate what u're doing rite now....Thank GOD for that....

Okok....i had about 55 minutes before i get into and sit for my second last paper....let me do somemore supa last minutes revise first.....hehehe....

人间有情 5/11/2007

这两天都把自己锁在房间里不让自己出门，连运动也不让自己去。谁叫我的考试和马拉松赛跑一样啊，连下去三天。但这样也好，长痛不如短痛咯！前天在读的时候突然有种越读越兴奋的感觉，因为三天后将会有一连串精彩刺激的计划等着我进行！哇哈哈！好期待哦！

但说实在的，我把自己锁了一天后发现，我差点疯了！或许是因为我好久都没有像现在这样闭关了吧，所以觉得有点痛苦。像昨天去教堂崇拜啊，就觉得好兴奋哦！终于能够穿美美、看看外面的天空、看见我认识的人、看见我曾经教过的小孩子，就觉得-爽！但是到下午回家时，就发现又要面对残酷的事实了。然后啊，有一位弟兄很贴心，原本他早上就叫我去他家吃晚餐了，但我到傍晚的时候就临时放人家飞机（这是我的专长）。他还很贴心的说煮好了送过来我家给我，听到了就好感动哦！到晚上真的有人送来哦，而且那个人是我怎样也没想到会是他送来的哟！真的好感动好感动！害我在吃着的时候，眼眶有几度是满满的。如果现在是冬天的话，那我一定早就哭了！因为，那碗面线真的好温暖哦！而且，有妈妈的味道。虽然知道那位弟兄是很会煮的人，但没想到他越来越厉害。是谁把他娶回家还真是不用怕饿死的说。哈哈！在这种非常时期，突然有这种雪中送炭的感觉，真的好感动。而且，女生啊，一定会开始乱想。但我和那位弟兄他熟了啦，如果真的要有什么早就应该有了吧！哈哈！

当然，我那个死党‘姐妹’也还不错啦。知道我在痛苦也有给我加油啦，说要带我去吃好的啦、传一堆无聊的简讯给我啦之类的。但说真的，他的简讯还真的不是普通得无聊！有谁会跟你说‘i tell u one story, once upon a time, there's a little boy, stay in a small room, with no light, his eyes are closed and zzzz....’。靠！真的是有种从椅子铁下来的感觉。但也多得他这下无聊的简讯啦，这样我自少知道有人比我更无聊啊！哇哈哈！

令我顿时觉得，人间有情、幸福的感觉。哈哈！这些小小的行动都带给我很大的动力。就像我现在啦，凌晨就快三点了还能这么精神奕奕。现在是我中场休息时间，哈哈！

好混乱 30/10/2007

今天是我第一天考试，而且今天的这张是我重考的，所以没有那么紧张因为都已知道格式了。等了两个星期，终于等到这一天的来临了。还真是有点期待它快快的过，但这一段时间也是最苦的。没关系啦，忍一忍然后就可以去玩啦！而且这一次我特地多留一个星期在这里，多亏我民智的决定让我能够见到两年没见的绮敏，还真是蛮期待的。

其实在这一段所谓的study week其间，我好像也没有很用力的在温书。去运动那个不算啦，我就还会往外跑啊。新开张的Pyramid 2就来被我走烂了！加上多了一位‘姐妹’陪伴一起逛街，当然感觉就不一样啦！也不知道从什么时候开始和那位‘姐妹’的关系突然‘突飞猛进’，连我自己也有点觉得不可思议。我们真的好到一种很令人误会的程度，就连睡我隔壁房的都会常常问我一些他的事啊之类的，而且严重到一种程度就是就连一个跟我不是很熟的（也有一起去运动过的）朋友都会把我们俩送做堆。起初在身边的人还没有这些反应的时候，我还真的没有想这么多。就真的觉得多了一个很要好的‘姐妹’。

至于为什么我会一直称他为‘姐妹’呢，其实是有原因的。因为，他真的比姐妹还姐妹。你可以想象吗，一个大男人竟然可以在大庭广众和老伴在那里讨价还价（之类的）！！！怎么可能！就连我也做不出这种事。而且啊，有哪个男生带的包包是那种购物袋啊？就是那种披在肩上的！怎么可能！连我的也最起码事业个背包呢！和他走在一起就会觉得我和他的身份是调换的，我是男生而他是女生。我们有时候在打打闹闹的时候啊，我们也会互相提醒他每天在对着一个男生而我是每天在对着一个女生。哇哈哈！好笑吧！

或许就因为这样，我觉得和他一起出去玩很轻松。就觉得，我可以是我自己而不需要在乎别人会怎样看我。想笑大大声就笑大大声、想喷口水就喷口水、想讲一些我平时不讲的话就毫无考虑的讲出来（而且他也是这样）。好轻松！不知道从什么时候开始，这种感觉就已经离我而去。而我也渐渐忘记这种感觉了。所以只要是他叫到，我几乎都不会说不的，就当时出去疏解压力咯。

最近的我，思绪里又多了一个影子出现。这个影子应该是遥不可及的，就像我喜欢王力宏的那种感觉一样。而这几次和他有多一点的接触后发现，原来我还真是个花痴啊！还真是有点笨！从昨天开始，那种感觉就少了很多！因为就发现原来他并不是我想象中的那样。有期待就有失望吧！感谢主！主真是最了解我，他知道哪些是对我是无畏的，所以都会慢慢的帮我清除。感谢主！

溏心风暴2

这几天总算把所有的功课都交上的，所以就把溏心风暴再看一次。不知为什么，以前看到常在心和程亮两人的问题就觉得很不想看下去。就觉得他们两个人的关系搞到我这个看的人很累。现在，再一次看一遍突然觉得感触良多。

常在心这么用心的为她和程亮的感情付出，而程亮他因为一时的贪念而和常在心最好的朋友染上。整部剧里，就觉得常在心很可怜、很痛苦、很累。

我不会为常在心觉得不值，也不会因为程亮的过失而讨厌他。我只是觉得，一段感情就是这样，一定会有过渡期。只要你熬过这一段痛苦又漫长的过渡期，往后的日子就没有什么好忧虑的了。但是，在现在这个世界，如果每个人都这么努力的在为自己的感情付出及珍惜，那离婚率就不会这么高、为清闹自杀的人就不会越来越多。现在对自己所可以得到的东西往往都觉得不足够，以至有这么多的问题出现。这部剧里有些台词真的很有道理，让我在看的同时也可以学习到一些人生的哲学。

感情这种东西，还真是又期待又怕受伤害呀！不知道从什么时候开始，所有的男生对我来说都好肤浅。专家说的果然没错，男生是用眼睛来思考而女生是用心来思考的。神的创造好奇妙哦！这样不同的两种人怎样能够结合呢？好多人都会对我说，我等待的那一位还未出现。而我会觉得，为什么一定有一位是我等待的呢？难道，我不可以一个人过吗？为什么一定要我等呢？难道我不可以自己去找寻和我心意的那一位吗？这一切的一切，我已经问过千百遍。如今，我已不想再问了。我深深的相信，神已经有我的答案只不过他觉得我还没预备好。这个答案或许会很令人痛心，又或许会很令人开心，但这一切都不是我们-人可以掌权的。唯一的掌权者是那位尊贵的天父。

在我的字典里，爱情是一个遥不可及的东西。说我不想要有一段感情是骗人的，但我不会麻木的让我自己随随便便进入一个感情的圈套，为的是要保护我自己。如果自己都不保护自己，那谁还会来保护自己呢？就像我现在这样，生病了也没什么大不了的嘛。只不过是半夜会咳嗽咳到醒来甚至会咳到流泪。这就是身体在抗议了！抗议我为什么没有好好照顾我自己，搞到现在这么痛苦。当然，多一个人在我身边关心我照顾我这种日子真的好幸福好令人期待，但是谁有那么多美国时间无时无刻在你身边提醒你要做这个不做那个的？就算真的有，我应该会觉得他很烦吧！

人就是这样咯！想又不是，要有不敢。做自己吧！不要想这么多，我还有一大堆书要读呢！

Energetic

Today is 27/10....n my first paper is on 30/10...which means i have 3 more days to go to reach my d-day!!! To be honest, i cant wait for that particular day to come and even hope for it to end....i cant wait for 8/11 where i'll b totally free!!!Everyday whenever i'm lockin myself at home, i'll always feel sleepy and in low batt mode. The situation will get worst when i sit in front of the table with my notes and books open. Why am i always so low batt??? This time i definitely can feel d FAIL words comin again....

Yesterday, as usual when i went to spinning class...and after all the workout and shower...Bryan tell me that i'm very energetic. Coz the class seems to be very easy for me....Whua....i cant believe that!!!! It's the first time ever there's someone use that word one me....i just too shock....Thanks for his words also, i do feel energetic that whole day.

Then when this mornin, when i was readin my daily bread, i read a article on a lazy man who was sooo lazy to do whatever things which he thinks is difficult...his father was so worried bout him so he ask around of his friends in order to get him one easy job....then one day, one friend come and tell his father that he have a nice and easy job order for his son....that's been a guard at the graveyard! All he have to do is just sit there and guard. Then after 10 days, the guy quit his job. He tell his father that it's not fair for him to sit there but all the people around him lyin there.

WHUA!!!! After i've read this article ho....there's like a big slap on my face....i almost become tat young man!!! I've finally wake up!!! All the while i've been sleeping....i'm just like that young man...whenever i started to read, i'll feel sleepy...what's the different between me n d young man????

From now onwards,i'll swear to get fully charged whenever i study....use the words that Bryan had used on my wisely....

Love is in d air....

Yes Yes Yes!!!! I swear i'll go to the mornin combat cls....Yes Yes!!!At first i was just trying my luck to sit outside of the class tryin to cool myself down, just wanted to see whether he'll come and talk to me o not....and he does!!!WAHAHA!!!!He ask me-'mou dok shu meh?' wahahaha....then he ask me to come again for d combat class later in the evening....seriously, before he ask me that i've never thought of coming to another combat class again....then my heart is kindda like...shaken when he ask me that....WAHAHAHA!!!!

Honestly, the combat class just now wasn't really tiring like the normal one. And we also didn't work on our core muscle as well. So, it's kindda like...not enough for me....later went back home i'll do it myself....hahaha....back to the combat class just now...there's only 5 people in the class....and 3 out of 5 are first timer....so he teach so detail just now....first time ever i've attended a combat class with the instructor standing in front of u tellin u how to do ur posture right....first time ever....and with him!!!!Wahahaa....

Wahahaha....Wahahaha....Wahahaa....just let me laugh to myself now....i just cant stop it!!!! Wahahaha!!!!

The Dream I Had

There's something i must shout it out loud here.... o else i'll seriously get mad!!!

This morning when i was suppose to force myself out of the bed, i get back to sleep again and this is the time where i had the weirdest dream i've ever had....this dream interrupts my emotion for the whole day where i cant concentrate on my study...the dream keep on popping out in front of me....it's weird...and it looks sooo real....

Well, actually, it's not the first time i've been dreaming bout instructor....but this time....it's d most...how should i say....i've never thought of that instructor will ever come into my mind....it's sooo soooo real....and when just now i get into his class, when we use to clap each other hand, there's some kind of 'electric shock'....i had no idea what that....weird...i don't want to have that feeling....although he is a supa nice instructor which motivates me a lot....but i've never thought of he become the main character in my dream as well....i just....cant believe that!!!

HELP....HELP....HELP!!!!! Help me get rid of all these stupid things....i'd try to keep myself busy and not thinking bout watever i've seen in the dream this morning....it makes me feel bad...and interupt my emotion so badly.....PLEASE....GOD....Giv me wisdom...to stop myself from all these stupid things.....

I'm sick

It's been a long time since the last time i fell sick....i was the one who din take care of myself...i din drink enough water then cause dehydration inside my body....tat day when i stay awake the whole nite just to finish tat stupid genomics report, i already feel not good....tat day i din really go to toilet....i mean for the big one....i'll go for the big one...daily ler....but tat particular day i din...so i know there's something wrong inside...

then on friday, when i was lying on the bed trying to recover all my sleep from the previous nite...i just feel like i'm having difficulties to sleep....i can feel the heat coming out from my bed....it's hot....then only i realized the heat comes from myself....the whole nite i din sleep well and there's mosquitoes keep on biting me becoz of my high body temperature that attract them....

again on the next day, saturday, the volcano had finally erupted....every heat goes up to the head and it pains like hell....i seriously feel like i wanted to bang my head on the wall to make myself feel better....somemore tat nite is another busy nite for me working at church....i feel so so uncomfortable tat nite and just feel like lyin on my bed instead of standing there cleaning all the mess....it wasn't mean that i'm unwilling to clean up the church but....jus....tired....

now...my throat always feels ichy....especially in the morning.....there's no one take care of me here so i have to take care of myself....no one will pass me medicine or bring me food....i'll have to do everything all by myself....there's always GOD besides me...instead of man....

I feel like 1 2 kill myself

Wat is this kind of life i'm having now....all of the report due on the same days....somemore d lecture had rejected my extension....Wat kind of world this is. Y is there no kindness??? I do have the faith in myself that i can finish it these two days by skipping my sleeping time. But, i don't know where to start and wat to do. That's the things that i fear most. It's not the matter of time. God created 24 hours per day means that it's enough for us to do what we wanted to do in one whole day. Somemore i have more than 48 hours to do this two big assignments and report. Time is not the factor but it's me. I'm the one that is stupid and cant understand whatever we're doing in the lab. I'm stupid....stupid...stupid....

I seriously have the thought of killing myself now.....then i wont face all the suffer i have in this world. But....to be honest....i don't think GOD will let me go into the heaven with such a irresponsible me....He wont let me go to heaven this easily by just jumpin from a high rise building or watever....This must the challenge that GOD sets for me....HE believe that i can do all these things with the time HE gaved. Y should i disappoint HIM? There are sooo many people out there have faith in me.....I'M NOT GOIN TO SHOW MY WHITE FLAG TO ANYONE AND ANYTHING!!!!

NIKE~~JUST DO IT!!!!

ADDIDAS~~~IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING!!!!

Low Energy

I've get back here in Monash Library typing my blog again....I've come back from my one week break. It wasn't a break for me, i've got tons of work to do. Those lecturer are evil....they set the due date for all of the subjects on one same day and same time....what the hack?!?!They thought we are supernatural is it?Well, that's no big deal actually. It's my last year in Monash and i've kindda get use to this kind of life but i always feel "low battery" these days....i just cant gather up my energy and do my work. Whenever i start up my comp, i'll just stare at my desktop (stare at my wallpaper-me n Stephanie) and do nothing. I just feel blur and down everyday. Whenever i c my lab manual i'll feel bad, my eyes will even fills with tears. I don't know anything for my reports and i cant find anyone who can help me. I just feel useless. I feel like i'm stupid and i cant do anything. I'm just tired and down. I'm trying so so hard to gather my energy now. Well, the combat yesterday to help me a lot. I work so hard that i can feel my thigh now. I so so love combat. I work so hard till i can see the effect on my arms and thigh. I like that!!!

On the day when i've get down from the plane and reach subang, there's a bunch of my frens ask me out for dinner before i step my foot in to my house. Thank GOD for them. At first i seriously feel very down and low power when the plane had landed. They all cheer me up!!!Thank GOD for them. That's the reasons why i like to be with them recently. I think there might have some 'whisper' out there asking bout me n the guy that i always used to be together with. HAHAHA!!!! So funny. I know sometimes we both is like....more than normal friends. Erm, i admit that we are more than friends. At least i feel that. We are 'sister'!!! WAHAHA!!! Don't worry, i wont get into relationship this early. The door for relationship in my heart had closed for long. For me, i've three stages of friends. First stage or the lower stage is the nomal friends where i only say HI to, second stage are most of the friends that i had, third and the highest stage are those can knew the inside of me like you (who r reading my blog now!!!) or someone that i like to play with. Haha!!! You should be proud with that!!!

Whatever....i don't care whether there's someone outside hate me a lot o wat...i don't care!!! Nobody is perfect. I just need to be myself, there's no point for me to change because of the environment or wat. Me is Me. I'd only change myself for the earth. SAVE THE WORLD!!! I do believe that the scene we see in 'The Day After Tomorrow' will happen one day like the flood in GENESIS. I do believe that!Get Prepared!!!

Black Friday -- 5/10/2007

In 3 days time i'll be on the plane flying back to my beloved hometown again. How time flies....for this week i feel like i have difficulity to breath....there's been too many things pop up right in front of me for me to do it....my assignment of coz...choir stuff....family....workout....u might probably think that there's something that i can put aside and do the important ones first...especially d workout part....i'd guarrantee u if i stop goin to workout, i'll definitely had commit suicide in my room without anyone notice. That's d only way i can release all of my stress....especially going into the combat n balance class....of course, the instructor do affect as well....i like Yvette as the balance instructor.....her posture is so so so accurate and motivates me whenever i'm in her class.

It seems happy then i'm going back home again. But it's totally different situation. After the one whole week, i'll have all my homework due....ALL u know....everything for every subject....i'll have 3 reports and 1 project for one subject that have to be passed up on d first week of Oct and another one big assigment....This is crazy!!!Somemore there are 3 same things due on the same day!!!Crazy!!!Wat the life i have here in Monash.....I cant wait to get rid of the life here in Monash and the life here in Sunway....I cannot face all those stress all by myself....I'm just not that strong.....I'll definitely collapse all by myself....

May GOD provide me wisdom on time management and a strong body.....Keeps me motivated....i cannot give up....my family needs me....i must not disappoint them....I CANT!!! I must stand up tall myself then only i can help them....i have to be strong....