兴奋...开心...期待！！！

昨夜被一个刚认识的朋友在msn敲了一下，为的就是要跟我说看见力宏演唱会的报道了！今天的报章应该登了好大一个版面了吧（本人没有买报子的习惯所以不了），但网路新闻是看到了！所以，今早崇拜完毕后，到麦当劳叫了一份我最爱的早餐后，就迫不及待的打电话通知我妈！我第一句还问她‘你有没有看到今天的报子？’我妈好好笑哦，她还以为有什么世界大新闻。结果听到我说是王力宏演唱会时就‘切！’了一声，她还说‘原来这个事你的大新闻啊！’靠！当然啦！这对我来说是天大的新闻也！等礼拜五我回去再和我妈洽谈详情，哈哈哈！我妈好象我的经纪人哦！现在的我就是整个超兴奋超high的！但，我只能选一样，就是说：我去看演唱会了，就不能去签唱会了！没关系，我忍！反正上一次我们都讲说看到有点没感觉了。所以，要往更‘高难度’挑战。哈哈哈！！！

今天的我，真的心情爆好的！女人就是有个死穴，心情好就会想逛街，心情不好也会想逛街；不管心情好还是不好，只要买到了喜欢或大减价的东西，心情再怎样不好也会立刻变好！今天的我，不只是因为逛街买了减价的东西而开心，主要还是因为我很快又要在见到力宏了！！！他最新大专辑：心跳，我已经当被功课一样听了上百甚至上千遍了！（我是说真的哦！一点都没有夸张哦！）哈哈！！！

反正我现在心情就是爆好的！连对我那些表弟都特别温柔的，哇哈哈哈！

心跳

‘心跳’是王力宏08年全新创作大蝶，当然只有王力宏能够把我心里冷冻已久的心跳再一次让它活跃起来。好久好久都没有这种感觉了！自从我一个人独自来都这个陌生的城市上班，一直到现在。原来，我还真是有这么大的能耐呀！

每当我看见力宏的访谈节目、生活录影带、音乐录影带、记者招待会... 一切的一切，就只为了向全世界宣传他的创作。看见他在录影室里不断的混音、不断的repeat他的杰作、不断的改、不断的 ... 这些就是他的坚持。看见他那积极的态度，坐在电脑面前欣赏着他那张10年不变的脸，自己开始问自己：我呢？我到底做了什么？我到底对什么事情曾经也像力宏一样这么的坚持呢？好像没有也，自己都觉得心虚起来。

我为什么会喜欢王力宏？这个问题，就好像：‘你为什么会爱上这个人？’是一样的。爱一个人是不需要任何理由的！不知不觉，我喜欢王力宏已经有11年了！不可思议吧！我才几岁的人啊，但事实就是如此。当然，无可否认，王力宏那张脸真的是比漫画人物帅！见到他本人时，我一定会重复地问我自己一个问题：我在做梦吗？怎么可能这世上可以有这么完美、这么帅的人存在啊？通常有亮丽外表的人一定给人一种只有外壳没有内涵的人，这种解说完全不能用在力宏身上。音乐人的专长就是把他们所有的思想都注射在音乐里面，王力宏就是这样。他的歌就像会跟你说话一样！就拿这账专辑来举例，80%的人一定都会说第一波主打歌‘心跳’超赞的！我不是说这首歌不好听，但我喜欢的是‘摇滚怎么了’。我也不是想喜欢一些特别的，但我就是喜欢力宏在这首歌里面所有的配乐。这张专辑我好喜欢力宏的吉他，不管是他的巴哈姆特、木吉他、string吉他 ... 我都喜欢！这张专辑，我大概重复听了，没有50遍也有49遍！越听就会越明白力宏想表达的是什么。

所以，我会不惜任何的代价，出席他的演唱会！爸爸妈妈，让我去！！！拜托！！！

SALESPERSON + INSURANCE PPL = LIER

Ever since i knew what salespersons are and what insurance are, i started to dislike and ignore this type of people. Now that i had been working and it is one of my job to deal with these people, somemore my job is graded as 'high risk' which means that i had the potential to get an accident while doing my job.

In my point of view, salesperson are trained to tell lied. Though minority of their information are facts, majority of the statement given by them are not the truth. As for those insurance representatives, once they came in to introduce their 'superb' plan, i'll start questioning inside my heart - You sounds like you are cursing me to get any accident or illness then only i can enjoy all the benefits. Or i put it in a more simple way - You Want Me to get into an accident or going to see our Father God asap just for the benefits?!?! Do i sounds ridiculous??? That's what i personally feel about what those people are trying to tell me!!! (Sorry if i've offended anyone's or anyone's relative or parents)

The Bible tells us not to tell lies, but see what am i doing here??? Because of all these people, i been forced to tell lies just to protect myself. OH MY... GOD please forgive me about that, i knew YOU would understand all these.

感情永远的阴天

昨晚看了珠光宝气，看见Constance和Terence最后还是离婚收场。虽然这部剧我只追到一半，不晓得为什么看见这一对还是离婚收场，就觉得好灰哦（我是指感情的部分）！这个Terence好胜心是很强，但他有一个很重要的因素令到他失败的，就是他的骄傲。他总觉得钱是可以解决一切的问题的，而没想到就因为他这样而伤害了他最爱的女人。咳。。。

说真的，Terence在剧里的领导能力其它什么都好，唯独骄傲这一点害了他。在我们穷人的观念里面，有钱人一定是‘大噻’‘唛都得’。是！有钱是‘大噻’，但有钱人还是人啊！你过的日子还不是和我们穷人过的一样，奇怪！当然，也有少数（是极度少数）的有钱人不是像这部剧里的有钱人一样，他们不会有身段、不会有骄傲、很谦虚、很慷慨（不是表面的而是出于真心的）。像我们家就很幸运会遇到这样的有钱人。

这部剧其实会让我追下去当然是因为陈豪啦！一开始当然就觉得‘哇，他好骄傲哦！’当然啦，人家有本钱骄傲啊！然后开始慢慢入戏，慢慢发现他的好，但是到现在就会开始对他灰心。我还曾经入戏到跟天父祷告说：希望我以后的另一半像Terence这样-你但有他的长相，还要有他的才华、办事能力等等。现在的我，突然觉得有点后悔当初我这么冲动就做了这样的祷告，但我相信我们的天父知道什么最适合我这种脾气不好、对人缺乏安全感、孤闭的女人。如果天父安排一个像Terence一样的男人做我总生伴侣的话，我一定顺服，因为我相信神有他的旨意在里面。

2009年生肖运势说我们属虎的人今年会谈恋爱，说真的我还蛮期待的也。一直以来觉得好像就是他了，但每当我接到他的的电话（虽然只有两次），和他聊了一小时完全没有重点的对话；满心期待的我隔这么久、这么难得跟他见面，他却给我那种‘我是被逼的’那种感觉出来…...这些种种种种的小细节，或许没人知道，但我就是有一点职业病的，我们这一行所有小小细细的东西都必须要观察到，对人也是一样。农历新年过了，也让我有新的思想。谈恋爱这种东西，我是100%期待，但是我一定会增大眼睛看清楚对方是个怎样的人，才决定是不是我可以托付终身的那一位。当然，这一切没有主的帮助是不可能的。

男人女人

我们女人的往往会觉得10个男人里面9个都是爱面子的，而在男人的眼中女人往往都是小气爱撒娇的。到底谁对谁错呢？只有我们的创造者知道。

我是女人，所以也只能发表我个人-也就是女人的意见。一般来说，女人一定是比较难从情伤恢复的那个。但在我23年的生涯里面，我就遇到两个男人是花了好一段时间从情伤恢复，甚至是被伤得比女人还重的那种。这两个男人，一个跟我有很浓的血缘关系，另一个是曾经和我同住一个屋檐下的（不要乱想！！！我不是甩他的那个）。其实我没有很了解他们，但这两个人还真的是蛮令我对他们刮目相看的。在我的观念里面，男生一定不会为情所困，甚至不会被情所伤。这两个男生，不只为情所困，还被情所伤而且还是伤得很重的那种。这种现象我还以为只有女人才会有，原来这世上还有这种好男人啊！！！这两个男生，我真的很替他们可惜。虽然，无可否认，这两个男人唯一的共同点就是--他们的脾气都一样坏。我们女生应该最不能容忍的就是自己爱的男人脾气这么差的吧！或许谈恋爱的时候不会对你显现出他们真正的那一面，但事实是不能改变的。脾气不好就是脾气不好，DNA就是DNA，除非你想办法让他们的DNA mutate吧！不可能嘛！

不知道为什么，在这佳节期间遇到这种男人，突然感触良多。突然觉得，现在的世界好像女人比较挑也。应该是说，现在这个社会太败坏了，导致每个人都很自然的有自我保护的心态。现在你要我像以前一样敞开心胸和身边的人做朋友，我一定会跟你说：干嘛？？？但我从小到大就是这种人，我这种可以简称－孤庇，好听一点就是－自闭。和我认识就的人如果好一段时间没见到我一定会认为我变了，但其实我只是在默默的观察看这么久不见的你还是不是我从前认识的那个。

现在的我很用力的提醒我自己，如果要进入一段感情一定要想情楚。一旦我进入一段感情，我希望是永久的。我的心脏应该受不了那种分手的刺激吧！老实说，我幼小的心灵还真的是有情伤的伤疤也。哈哈～～～

What's going on???

What is going on with this earth??? What is going on with my family??? What is going on with the air??? What is going on with all the virus??? Are they mutated??? Are they genetically modified??? Are they the leftover of the aliens so that they can attack human and prtect the earth??? What is that exactly going on???

Someone please answer me!!! I believe that even GOD don't have the answer to that. I'm not cursing anyone or blaming anyone (or GOD) for what's happening with all of my beloved ones around me, i'm just....loosing direction. I feel useless... I had no idea what i can do in this far far away land. I so regret that i take this job that i need to leave home forever....I so regret that I leave the home behind without anyone cleaning it and that's the main problem that what is happening now. I feel like wanted to take the flight back now to make my home stay at least free of any bacteria or viruses or fungi or anything that i cant see with my eyes....Just for at least a week....This is the first time ever in my life that i feel begging with those creatures that i couldn't see with my naked eyes, i feel wanted to shout to them, telling them leave all my family alone. Just stop attacking them like the Palestinean. I'd rather all of you just came to me. Please....

Please....anyone....anything....just give me some guidance....GOD!!! I know i shouldn't be shouting at you while i had already standing at the end of the cliff, but i just loosing my direction. I had no idea what i could do now. Everything is beyond humans power, everything is onto you now my Lord. Please....this will be my last shout to You....Please....show me the way....tell me what should i do....guide me.....You are the light of my foot, the light of my pathway....Please....

Leave Me Alone!!!

至从那天在商场遇到我认识的人后，这样的时间陆陆续续的出现。今天，就和平时一样，到教堂去报到。怎知，这个古晋说大还真是不大，说它小又不对，偏偏我就是会遇见我认识的人。在这里能够遇见我认识的人，那个percentage真的是少之又少。我遇到的这个人，虽然她是很好的一个人，我就是不能把她列入‘朋友’的名单里面。我曾经很懊恼为什么我会这样，其实就只有一个原因：水和火是永远不能溶合在一起的。不是说我和她有什么深仇大恨，又或则是她曾经得罪我或我做了亏欠她的事，我和她就是那种怎样都不可能变成朋友的人。我们俩只会见到面嘘寒问暖几句然后就走人的那种。不晓得多久之前我曾经和一个知己分享过这件事，在和她分享的当儿我才发现问题的存在。原来，一直以来我和这个人不能变朋友（就是那种聊得来的）的原因，其实很简单。因为这个人是个超级世界无敌的Top Student。不只是读书厉害，她所作的每件事出来的结果都是完美的，人际关系更是超级世界无敌的广。要我跟这种人打交道简直就是要了我的命一样，因为我是个自卑的人。在这种人的面前我很难会台得起头，在这种人的身边我只会拚了命的缩进我的壳。我会觉得，站在这种人的身边全世界肯定会拿我跟她来比较一样。

咳。。。没用的我呀！今天主日崇拜一完，我就还赶什么一样，立刻走人。虽然我知道，我不可能可以躲一世，但至少让我准备好自己，让我的心思意念都成熟时再打算。

The Happiest Day since....

These two day, my boss went for travelling. This means that the environment in the office will change from 'library' to a normal office. Since yesterday i was playing around whole day with the staff, online chatting, playing internet games....i just do whatever it was illegal to be done in the office when our boss was in. This two days, i personally thinks that the staff in the office gets along so well. We get to know each other more than before (at least for the last one month since the first day i put my steps in it).

Today, while we were having some talks on the outfit, one of the staff suggested that we could go for shopping together after work. Me, which do not had anything going on after work, agreed without any hesitation. Even today, i finish up my Prison Break marathon in the office. CAN YOU BELIEvE that!!! But anyway, i've already reach the last episode, so i'm just finish up the last episode there in the office. WOW!!! What a great day i had!!! I got paid even i did watch Prison Break! How good is that!!! Somemore i help one of the staff to mark her student work book which i joke around said that i'm willing to help her do that work if she jus pay me RM10 for just helping her to mark one whole pile of the workbook of her students and she was just so funny that she agreed. But i think she might just be kidding. But, i don't mind if she pay me for that, that one of the work which i wont even need to use my brain. I just need to move my finger a bit and than i got the money!!! How great was that!!!! And she even suggested me that i could take up the part time job as the teacher in her sch as well. This one i'm still thinking whether to do it or not coz the job is every satuday afternoon and i've buy my ticket back home every month. So....

Well, actually, what i wanted to say here is... It had been long since the last day i laugh out loud. It was these two days that i ever had the chance to laugh out loud since the day i came here for my job. I just feel....GREAT!!! Though i'm kindda sad that i get such a low pay for my job, but i thank GOD for letting me to have all the superb staff that money cant buy....Thank GOD that though i had a not so perfect boss, I had a very perfect and caring head who is a superb guy and willing to guide me through everythin....Thank GOD that i got this job which i could see that i'll be able to learn a lot from the project which will be started next month....

All this just not happen as coincidence. But GOD who answered my prayer.

I love you GOD more than any living things on this earth!!!

Year 2009

Happy Year 2009!!! Hahaha... I'm wondering how are everyone that i know spend the last minutes of 2008. As for me, my only partner of my life -NEC is taking me through the times. To be honest, on the 1st day of 2009, once i open my eyes in the morning, i was kindda like stare at all the things around me to make sure everything was still on their exact place. I was like pulling up my ears to listen carefully for any unfamiliar sounds out there. All this stupidness of me end up to discover nothing but laughing to myself. Please forgive me for all the stupid things i had said just now. This was because recently i was watching too much of the movie about the earth which will going to be destroyed or the intrusion of the aliens to our planet or the love story between the vampire and human which is kindda impossible. OH MY....What happen to me??? I think i could be diagnose as hyper-movie-into-madness. WAHAHAHA...What kind of illness is that.

But anyway, for year 2009 i should be having some kind of new target (which is kindda like a trend of something). I think my current target now is to earn for a living, earn for my future, earn for HIM. No matter how hard it is, i'm gonna bite my lips and tongue or wherever that i can bite. Maybe sometimes life is not as easy as what i've expected, life might be tougher than i've expected....i knew that there's only one person that will stand still, always in the stanby mode whenever i need HIM. With the small faith that i had, i believe that nothing is going to be impossible. I'm so impressed with CS. Lewis recently, he was a good author. He makes me realized how sinful we are but there's always HOPE out there. Thank GOD for that. Another target of mine is to stay in good shape. I knew that my body was currently out of shape, and i think it seems to be getting worst if my situation continues to be like this. But, i had no idea how am i going to keep that. I had no faith with myself. All i can do is buy a tighter belt, keep to my normal meal, try to have less coffee....

Life out of my hometown is so different from the one that i used to had in my own home. I'm still adapting to it, though i'm doing quite well on it. But still, there's some human part of me which i cant cope. I just need some more times, for time being there will be someone that had the key to unlock the chain of my heart. Just hang in there....Don't gived up!!! You're LOved!!!

First Salary

Today, a public holiday, i'm home alone. I spend whole afternoon out there shopping until i got something from head to toe. All this spend a quarter of my salary. I wonder how can i survive until end of the month. The Chinese New Year is around the corner, this is the excuse i'm giving myself. From now onwards, i swear...no shopping for myself anymore. No more accessories or luxurious food for me anymore. I'm gonna live a simple life from now on.

Whole afternoon outside wondering all by myself, get lost in the town and finally get on the correct track, makes me feel so lonely. Though i look busy, but inside of me is hollow. I feel like i need someone to talk to but only then i realized i don't have one, which is kindda pathetic. I couldn't remember when is the last time i laugh out loud, makes me feel like stepping into the cinema to watch YES MAN.

Well, my life nowadays is so simple. During normal working days, my days past real fast. However, during the weekend, my days feel like ages. I feel wanted to give up on everything and just step on to Doulos. But, i cant. The reality is holding me back. No matter how i feel right now, what i'm going to face in the future for my job, i'll be hanging there. For money sack i'll be holding what my job needs me to do now, i'm sure will get on to Doulos. So....Doulos....wait for me!!!

Only i realize how i miss it so much

Merry Christmas to those who are reading my blog, wish you had a great time to sit down and relax, cleared up your mind from all your busy living days etc. As for me, i just came back from church. This morning, GOD wakes me up. Because i tell HIM that tomorrow i'll hav to be in the church to celebrate JESUS birthday. And, YES!!! HE wakes me up!!! I didn't wake up with any alarm clock for me to snooze which i usually did, when i finally get a seat in the church, the service get started. Praise GOD for that, I'M PUNCTUAL!!!

I had no idea why the blood inside me was burning, i almost sing the Christmas Song out loud while the world was still sleeping. In the church, everything was too good to be describe. I was so glad i'm back to GOD's home again. This was superb!!! I feel like weeping while I heard the soprano solo on What Child This Is. I knew very well what child that was but i had been away from HIM for ... only HIM knew how long. When i heard that song, i can feel HIS warm and comfort arm was holding me tight to HIM. The comfort and touch is beyong everything. Even if the world fades, HE will still be standing by my side. No matter how things getting worst, HE is still there, weeping together with me, HE is my only comforter. Only HE can give me the comfort where living mans in this world can't.

In this beautiful day of Christmas, where the weather was superbly good with the sun shinning bright outside from the rainy days past few weeks, i'm sitting right here with my Nescafe beside me posting my blog, praising our GOD. Before this day ever came, i felt so much excited that i started to plan a lot of places to go for this day. But, i end up sitting at home now with my handphone locked in my drawer in the office. This was all HIS will. HE wants me to stay with HIM in this beautiful days, so that nothing can distract me from being with HIM. How beautiful everything was.

Thank GOD.
Only YOU know what i really want
Only YOU can heard the shout of desire deep down my heart
Only YOU could understand me well than every living creature did
I feel so useless
There was so many lost soul out there
GOD please provide me strength and wisdom and everything that YOU can provide me
Let me be your tools to save them
I Love YOU GOD!!!

Twilight

This was such a romantic novel which i had been reading in my life time. I mustn't deny that i do feel an urged to get a boyfriend myself, hoping that my relationship with my guy will be like them as well. But, reality always too cruel to be known.

This was a real beautiful story. I had finish the first book of it and i'm gonna starting up with the second one now. Thanks to my best friend sending me the softcopy of this and let my day pass with the romance in the air. I think i might had been get too deep down into the story, until last night, i worp up at 3am, a sleepless night, dreaming about one guy whom it will never be real for me to see him. Erm, i don't mind telling who was that, the guy in my dream is DUNCAN JAMES. Weird huh!!! I myself cant believe it as well. But, no matter what, this is all not my point. Whatever i dreamt was a totally contrast from the Twilight.

In my dreamt, this Duncan had already married and already a father of one daughter. Towards the end of my dream, i can only conclude that there was a sound crying for regret on this guy. I think he's kindda like my ex and something like that and now he had married with another women and live in a happy life which i could never imagine. Weird again huh!!! I myself was shocked as well when i dream about things like this. All of this because of this romantic Twilight, makes me feel love is in the air (which is most impossible things to happen).

The author of the book Twilight -- Stephenie Meyer, i think is because she is a girl so she write more detail on how a girl feel deep inside. I was so impress with the way she describe the inner feeling of the character, though it's a little bit boring there. But, yeah, she was success. No wonder this book sells so much better than Harry Potter.

I'm gonna get myself into the cinema and see how's the director going to make this novel into movie without loosing any romance of the book. Well, i'm gonna continue with the second book now!!!

槟城。。。我爱你！！！

这一趟的行程，感觉上好像比以前短。但这一次，是真正让我对槟城改观的一趟。这一趟，除了买了很多东西、逛了两间商场，这趟也和上一趟一样呆在医院里面几乎一整天。唯一不同的是，这一趟我吃了超多东西的。我可以说是把所有槟城有名的东西都吃了，只要我的肚子允许的我都吃了。有到了槟城一定要吃的炒果条、能够做出五星级般的菜色的大炒、有名的路边摊吃着有名的糖水-cenddol、一家应有尽有而且风景又好的大牌档.....反正，只要你讲得出来，我应该都有吃到。果然，名不虚传，槟城真的真的是一个美食天堂。而且啊，我也开始明白为什么我们家两老从槟城回来后就对它念念不忘，现在的我就是这样。

这一趟能够过得这么难忘当然，有一个人我一定是要感谢的。如果没有他，我这趟行程就只会去商场和医院。而且啊，其实我这一次是身负重任的，是他把我捧在天上，让我觉得我像个公主一样。有些东西我不好意思开口的，他好像听见我内心的呐喊一样，一样一样的帮我实现。这个人可以说是看着我长大成人的，在我7-8岁开始就看见他，每个月带着一班男生到民都鲁。这种日子一直持续到现在，但现在只剩下他一个人来了。这个人对我们家影响也蛮大的，家里的风吹草动无法解决事，他就像是神派来的天使一样来为我们解决一切的难题。现在回想起来，我们家会认识他好像不是偶然的，而是上帝冥冥之中安排的。感谢主！！！而且啊，也是他让我看见，原来这个世界还有这么好的人存在着，还真得让我对男生有一点点的期望。哈哈！！！

反正，就是难忘啦！！！买了超多东西，因为下一次出门不知道是什么时候了，吃了超多东西.....从明天开始我不可能吃到这么多好吃的东西了。我要开始减肥了！！！可怜的我，拉肚子了！！！

食客

好久咯，都没有写'剧评'了。哈哈！！！严格来说，这部剧没有那么刺激。但，韩剧最了不起的一点就是－－慢工出细活。一路看下去才能感受到这部剧的美。我这几夜，每天就是这部剧陪我收行理。我好久都没有因为看连续剧而哭了，昨晚我哭到好想我就是剧里的人一样。还好我聪明，在夜深人静的时候看，所以就算我怎样哭也没人知道。

剧里的那位爷爷，真的很有感染力。他根本就不用演，他所有的言行举指都会让人有种心疼的感觉。尤其看见他一个老人家对那传统味道的坚持，而孩子又为了扩展事业而不顾那原有的味道，弟弟为了不让哥哥觉得身份受到威胁而选择放下刀子到处流浪。。。父亲连患病了也不说出来，所有的事都是自己一个人承受，叫人看了真的很痛心。韩剧的结局永远都是令人出乎意料的，不像港剧一样。这个结局看了，真的给人一种动力！虽然有一点点不是很明白，至少可以看见这两个兄弟对食物的热情。

不晓得会不会有人和我一样入戏会这么深和有耐心的把这部剧追完，但我觉得与其看那种针锋相对的戏，还不如看一看这种让人体会人生大道理的剧。看完了真得让我回味无穷！！！


一起努力打理“云岩亭”的三个青年人


剧里的主要人物
PS：看看那位老爷爷。。。有没有很想抱他的感觉？？？


超级漂亮的女主角


笑容一样灿烂的两个人

还是梦～～～

突然觉得，我这个人还真是有点悲哀呢，所有想做的事都只有在梦里能做到。不知道是不是因为新床太好睡的关系，害我连梦也都是超级甜美的梦。哈哈哈～～～

看见身边的朋友们一个一个的找到另一半，自己开始在担心是不是会孤独一生。虽然嘴上装做不在乎，但全身的血液已经沸腾到了一个极点，心里常常开始不断的重复的问：什么时候才轮到我？？？梦里面的那个女生，好像是我没错啊，但那个男生。。。（有点无言的说）。。。应该只有在梦里面有可能吧，这么久不见的人怎么会在我梦里出现呢？？？我宁愿那个男生是王力宏，这样我会比较认命，但。。。怎么偏偏就是他呢？？？可见他的影子仍然存在在我内心的某一处。但是，当我脑筋清醒时，回想起我们以前一起玩的时光，好像被冷水泼醒一样，因为那个男生曾经跟我说过，他喜欢长头发的女生。从此以后，我跟我自己说，我的头发决对不可以比我的耳朵长出10公分。

以前的我，刚刚出来一个人生活，不晓得外面的世界有多么黑暗。被磨练了五年的我，不敢说我100%成熟了，但至少我会分是非了。

谢谢蚊子姐姐

昨夜有点被那只蚊子姐姐给折磨死了，但也多亏了它让我做了这么美的梦。昨夜的梦里有我很喜欢见到的人，也有我很想再见的人。在现实生活中不可能的事，在梦里面都变成真的!!!还蛮爽的。

刚刚傍晚的时候啊，因为那个死弟弟睡着了不跟我开门，还我没家门进，那我就去书局逛了一下。结果不小心被我看到一个心理测验的书，我忘了那个问题是什么了，但我只知道-那个测验超准的!!! 它说啊，我到现在仍然是单身的原因是因为我的眼光太高，如果我放下我的眼光，肯定会有很多爱慕者出现!!! 看完这一篇，我真的很认真地在想，真的是这样吗??? 好像是也.....哈哈!!!

言归正传，我的梦!!! 我的门还蛮浪漫的，至少我个人是这么认为的。有人主动亲近我、贴着我，那种感觉还蛮舒服、满难为情的；在我无助的时候，有天使帮助我。而且啊，我的天使是一班哦，是俊男美女的那种哦，是那种只有在梦里会见到他们本人的哦!!! 但在这个梦里，被我很喜欢见到的人冷冷的对待，甚至到那种被打入冷宫的地步。

反正，梦还是梦。不管我有多希望它发生都好，它始终还是一个梦，永远不可能发生的。醒醒吧王新娣!!!

眼不明、脑不快、口太快

一生人第一次interview的我发现，原来也不过如此。真的很感谢主的带领，我原本想说我一定会紧张到不行。结果，我的心跳一直都是保持在80-90。我根本就像和一个老朋友在聊天一样。

可能还是一颗嫩芽的我，不晓得外面世界的丑陋。事情结束后的我第一时间就和家人报告这个喜讯，心里还真的有点意想不到事情就这么快成了，天真的我还以为家人听了应该会很高兴吧! 但，好像不是也。 我反而觉得他们的语气里充满惋惜的声音。都是因为我自己了，真的真的太太太天真了，还以为外面的世界真的是我想的那样。现在的我，明明有好消息，但心情一直快乐不起来。怎办？？？ 难到我真的就这样拒绝了吗？？？ 可是我好不容易遇到一个（听起来）是我梦寐以求的也，而且我找不到理由拒绝也。

或许人家就是看到我的嫩，所以决定给我。怎办？？？ 我真的要这样放弃吗？？？ 我真的不晓得明天要怎样回覆他们也，而且他们也是我第一次看见办事效率是世界无敌的快的一家。怎办？？？

主啊！！！怎办？？？ 拜托，教教我。 好烦哦！！！ 这种事，有也烦，没有也烦。。。气死我了！！！

Still Jobless

It's been 2 month away since the day i attended my graduation ceremony. Until now, i'm still sitting in front of the computer surfing for jobs opportunities, taking care of my beloved niece and nephew. I wonder whether my life ended here just like this, no challenge nor adventure. Everyone is telling me to take it easy. Well, of coz i do. But...how long can i be like this??? With my body mass increasing??? With my saving decreasing???? I had no idea how long am i going to stay like this. I'm praying real hard for this. Even when i'm walking, i'm standing, i'm posting my blog....

Is there no opportunities awaiting for me??? How am i going to find it??? I'm lost...

好久不见！！！

真的好久好久没写部落格咯，本小姐懒惰啦！还在失业的我，每天除了追戏以外就只会吃。我已经追了无数部港剧了，追了这么久我还是无业游民一个。完蛋了啦我！

昨天刚刚追完‘家好月圆’，不知道为什么啊，以前我追‘溏心风暴’的时候啊，入戏很深也！这次，或许人老了，思想没有那么堵塞了。哎，反正就是好戏一部啦！

不写了。。。不知道要写什么。等我找到第一分工了再update吧！

The Best Room I've ever slept

This is the room, the best room i've ever slept in. The bed is superb, the weather is superb, the tv is 32' plasma in every room, a DVD player, one table pc with broadband connection, daily supply of fresh food, a heater in the master bedroom, bath tab with bath salt provided, oral-B toothbrush provided (which i needed it the most coz i forgot to bring mine), a tv inside the toilet - above the bath tab....

I feel like i'm a queen!!! All the hard effort that i had been working on paid off with a bonus like this!!! Thank GOD!!!

Let me show some picture of the room.

(Pls ignore the shoes one the floor)
Pic 1: The office desk in the room, with a PC, fax machine and a super comfortable CEO chair. The M&M (yellow pack) on the table is FOC as welcome gift!!!

Pic 2: The super comfortable sofa in front of the 32' plasma TV

Pic 3: Bath Tab (the blue thing is the artistic bottle is the bath salt)