How i wish i'm in Taylors College....

It's been my last day of my orientation week which i'm not supposed to be at sch.....but then....i'm in computer lab now.....it's all because of my stupidness.....the system here in this school are all online....which mean i've to choose all the subjects and electives that i wanna take....all of these things are done online....and....it sounds sooooo high tech and very convenient for us rite....well....by the time u click into the webpage....there's thousands of different things in there....and....my point is.....i don't understand a word in the page that we are supposed to be....and i cant find the place where we should chooose all our units and stuff like that.....stupid la.....i mean....me...i'm the one who stupid...yesterday the dunno who standing up there briefing about how to do all the things...and i was seriously concentrating to what he says ler (which i normally will be sleeping down there)....but then....when he ask for the hands who haven done all the things...there's only my hand in the air!!!!(actually still got a few more person la)SEE....how stupid i am....this probably because i'm in a new school....everything is new here....their system....the environment...the people....everything new....I HATE THAT!!!!That's what i hate about being into a new environment....all the things have start from the beginning again....and....social life in the school campus....this is the most horrible things....hai.....somemore i got a whole lot more things to settle down here....fussy everyday....i dont feel like i'm making the right choice to get into this schoool.....but....due to my current financial problem...what can i do????everything i have to swallow into my stomach....let my multi-purpose stomach to digest it.....

Life in Bintulu (my hometown) is much more simpler.....everything is simple...all i have to worry is that did Jocelyn feel well today????Did she drink her milk???Did she sleep well???and....fill my empty stomach when there's drumming sound inside....that's all.....and...and.....go to church....i feel like sitting in the empty church right now....to calm every part of me in front of the cross....to confess all my sin.....to pray.....just probably stare at the cross for a minute will make me feel joyful....i'm lost everyday and everywhere.....i don't dare to tell my mum all about these....i scared that she'll start to worry for me since she got a lot of things to worry at home....and i don't feel like talking to anyone else these days....but.....cant.....everything have to be swallowed down....if not.....ppl will think that i don't like to be here or other bad things that they are going to say about me which i dont wished to mention it here.....

My Dear Father God, i'm soooo thankful that You leaded my path....no matter where am i, i know that You are always there by my side....whenever i cry, You'll be the only one who can comfort me.....Thankyou GOD for always being my spiritual advisor.....Thankyou God for everything that You have done to me....Please....again....help me!!!Tell me what i should do now....In Jesus Name I Pray....AMEN

A post created in Monash University

yoyo....i'm in Monash lerr....hahaha....cant believe that i'm in here....finally....after all the prayers, worries, frustration and a lot of things....i've finally in Monash University....well....it's a new environment for me....so....i've to search for the place i wanna go everytime...and i'm always lost....hahaha...well this year don't have Yee Man with me...so i've to find everything out myself...like last time she'll tell ma whatever happen the next day and whatever things that i have to do and wherever the class is....now....there's no one i know who take the same course same semester with me....all i see are new faces....hey guys....Monash got a lot of leng lui ler....serious o!!!!at least i think they are kindda pretty la....

this week is my orientation week....so....everyday will be start with a briefing....introduction of the campus and stuff like that....today is the second day of orientation.....and i'm now in computer lab......ie i din go for the orientation today.....but i was WARN by my frens housemate to attend the english test tomorrow and also the briefing on the day after tomorrow.....hai.....what a boring uni life without people i know....but then i feel sooo much pleasure and joyful to get into this uni...coz this is the uni that i've wanted to get in.....and finally i'm holding my ID with me!!!wahahaha...thank God for that....

my days here in sunway are still normal....nothing much change.....except that i've change a new environment....a new place to stay....i rent a room from my church fren here...so...at least i got housemate that i've known....the only thing is that i have to buy the mattress and the furniture....so i'll going to buy that later.....there's of coz something i kindda worry.....i heard a lot of ppl (from my church frens) say that a lot of frens whom we see very close together.....are separated....once they live together....i know a lot of this things....but.....what can i do????just mine my own business....my mum soooo worry about the place where i'm staying now....she keep on asking me whether i sleep well the night before o not....and keep on reminding me to lock my door since there's guys in the house (my housemate's bf,we knew each other as well)....the rest....nothing much different....o ya....i miss Success aunty's rice....i'm going back there eat later i think.....wanna give a surprise to her...wahahah....coz i found that i haven figure our where's the cafeteria here....and i don't like cafeteria food.....but i heard them say that the food in cafeteria here is kindda nice....so...maybe i'll have to try that out one day....

whenever i'm alone here, my mind will have a lot of people flash back in my mind.....of coz....guys....and girls.....some frens that i'll never meet again when i'm here.....some frens that i leave in my hometown, Bintulu....but then....i should thank God that i still have all those churchmate i know here in Subang church....so.....jia you la.....

Back to School......

Well....it's been a long time since my last day at school....(it's not that long though,3 months only!!!)and now....i'll be going back to school this monday.....believe it!!!!yeah....last few months my life was soooooo threatened by this school thingy.....coz after my 1st yr of food tech in Taylors College i do not know where i will be this yr....well...u might want to ask me why i dont want to continue my food tech study,rite???It's not that i didn't get good result than been 'sack' by school!!!!it's....i dont want to twin to Australia....so i keep on searching for the school that provide 3+0 Bio-medic programme or Bio-tech programme.....finally.....i've found Monash Msia and AIMST(Asian Institute of Medicine, Sience and Technology) in Kedah....Thank God for that....He always listen to my prayer....no matter where i am....what i do....Thank God....I Love you....Thank you for Loving me First!!!!Hallelujah....

Now get back to my topic....i've been suffering for the whole yr.....mentally suffering....coz i do not have the confident in myself....to get in to Monash....then i pray to GOD....told HIM to guide me....only HE knows where is the right place to put me in.....well...it sounds normal for those who just wanna apply and get into a uni....maybe it's just a piece of cake for u....but for me....i've been rejected twice by Monash....that's why i take the food tech course in Taylors College....after being rejected twice.....do u still have the confident that the school will consider your application again???i don't think so.....at least i dont have that confident again....but then....miracle sometimes do happen....but only with GOD's leading....now...i'm a student of Monash University Msia!!!!which mean that....my school life will start again!!!!everything will rotate again....

there's soooo much sadness in my heart now....coz....i'll have to leave my home for about 3 months like that(hopefully)....and of coz all my dear church mate....cell group member....and the most important is my dear JOCELYN....i don't know whether when i get back here will she ever knew me again....sad....i'll feel sad whenever i think that i'll have to suffer from some....something that i dont want to mention it here....just.....a lot of things to suffer....but....hey....i've to praise GOD for letting me to go into Monash....so i should be proud of that....well...after thinking of that...it make me feel more relieve...coz i know...GOD IS JUST BY MY SIDE!!!

It's Valentine.....

Yoyo....it's Valentine today...i think u guys out there must be very busy and very romantic rite???hahaha....as for me....i'm just normal....nothing special for me on this days ever since i was born.....but then i was questioned by a lot of people for asking me whether to buy or will be receiving anything from someone special on this kind of day....hahaha....do i look like i'm not available????strange ne.....well....what i'm going to share now do not have a word that are connected with Valentine.....

Well, i just came back from the summer camp organised by our church youth fellowhip....hohoho...it's great....perfect i should say....real fun...but tiring.....the muscle from my whole body was overstretch ie pain....it's been two days now since the camp and now only my muscle are recovering.....it's was full of excitement for the camp and of coz we learn GOD's words together....but then.....honestly...i think that....i don't feel enough for the sermon and message.....i think that most of our time we are playing....jungle trekking.....resting....and stuff like that.....but overall....it's the most craziest camp i've ever been to....we even got disco party on the last nite ler....hohoho.....let me show u guys some pic.....cant wait to upload it....

i) that the pic taken when we were jungle trekking...i dont know how i get into the pic....
ii) this pic is....so unreal...but....believe it!!!
iii) the "Big Family"
iv) i like this pic very much.....coz there's someone i like in it.....
v) he is in there as well!!!
vi) get prepare for jungle trekking!!!!we all go with our slippers.....

Answer for Love and Like

Very cute ho this cartoon and wording....but then i found that this thingy soooo suit me....it speaks out all the feeling from the bottom of my heart...
<= this one say: in the story of Cinderella, she had the support from the angel.....but when i'm sad, only i can support myself....

<= this one say : Like is a slightly LOVE, but Love is a deeply LIKE!!!

Ang Pao!!!!红包！！！

It's Chinese New Year yo!!!I think u guys out there must have got a lot a lot of ang pao ho....well getting ang pao is real great....but as for me...i think it in a different way....i feel like....during Chinese New Year time we all go to visit all our friends and relative houses....then those who haven get married....will receive an ang pao from those who had married....this year i had a kindda dark and dull emotion....then i started to think everything negatively....i feel like go visiting to someone house during this particular time is only just for Ang Pao.....it's like we go to visiting the friends house is not because we want to VISIT them...but to 'beg' i should say...for an ang pao......then when we had get what we want...then...we'll leave the house and search for our next 'victim'.....although i know that the word that i used is kindda rude....but then that's what i think......that's why this year my ang pao are only from relatives.....i haven gone to any one of my frens houses....or maybe it's because that i cant join them......i always got a lot of things popping out suddenly.....so i cant plan anything with my fren and stuff like that....when i plan something...then i'll be the one who cancel the plan...it's always because of me....i just don't know why.....less of freedom?????i don't think so....it's just i CARE too much for my family.....when only one people get angry in my house, i wont feel like going anywhere or talking to anyone....i just CARE too much.....i heard a lot of my frens here say that i've change a lot since i've come back from study (for holiday)....well....i cant explain anything about it....and i don't have to.....it's my business...and it's your business to comment...i cant stop that!!!!Anyway.....may i have a nice and smooth DOGGY year......

恭喜恭喜！！！新年快乐！！！新年蒙恩！！！Happy New Year!!!

咚咚咚咚锵！！！咚咚咚咚锵！！！恭喜呀恭喜！！！发呀发大财。。。
It's the FIRST DAY of Chinese New Year again!!!Wahahaha....soo happy.....we kids are happy, coz only during this time we all will have "income"....wahahaha....super happy ler me here.....then also can go to a lot of leng chai and leng lui beautiful houses....this year there'll going to be soooo much different for me...coz this year....i'm allowed to DRIVE MYSELF!!!!wahahaha....no need always "lompang" people and also my mum wont need to spend her time sending me to my frens house and stuff like that....she got a whole lot more relatives to serve....wahahaha....happy happy....

Yesterday afternoon.....Chinese New Year Eve....our whole family here super busy lerr.....me spend whole afternoon baking cake....one lemon cheese cake and one is what call Sarawak Batik Cake=the one that is black black one and with marie biscuits inside the cake, no need to put into oven bake one....but then that one...me kindda fail lo....coz the cake is a bit....not like what other people do.....sooo now i put all my hope onto my cheese cake....then only today i found that i didn't dissolve the gelatine on my cheese....that's why my cheese doesn't gel together....oooohhh....ai....everyone have their first time....so this one is mine....and also....huh...i got whole lot of FIRST TIME....for this new year....

The day before yesterday....me and my family go to our grandma's house to have a BBQ "party"....wahaha....of course...all the food are superb!!!!All of the relatives from my mum's side all "drunker" that doesn't get "drunk"....hahhaa....soooo...they open a lot of XO and stuff like that...and also they buy VODKA which is a 5% alcoholic drink.....then somemore got strawberry and orange flavour....walao....that one is damn nice man!!!Guess how much i drink???I drink a whole bottle of it....(the bottle which is as big as a bottle of beer).....about 500ml i think.....huh....then....me DRUNK.....slightly DRUNK....i just feel like everything is moving in front of me (even the EARTH)....and start to have the desire to VOMIT!!!walao.....now i start to understand why girls very easy to get cheated inside a bar and stuff like that.....then i get back home i sleep without having my bath!!!!huh....that's my FIRST TIME as well.....i cant even stand up propaply and get into the bathroom!!!HUH!!!hard time...really....

Rainy Day!!!!

It's Raining!!!!Rain Rain and Rain outside there.....everything is soooo wet and damp.....well it sounds normal to rain in a hot day.....but hey....this rain had been pouring down since 23/1/06, which is a Sunday midnight....and until now the rain haven stop.....(although only for 5 minutes).....ho!!!Fortunately the place where i live was kindda....high i should say.....at least all the drain are all WORKING outside....so the water still can move smoothly.....well i'm not sure whether there are other place which also as safe as my place here....anyway...i hate rainy days...it's wet everywhere...if you wear long pants, you'll have to pull up you pants and the worst things is that if you wear sport shoes...it will be soaking in the water...that's terrible!!!!I hate that.....For me i like a Sunny day....i'll feel more energetic by seeing the sun shining real brightly outside there.....if raining....it make me feel dizzy and sad....coz a lot of sad story used to happen in a rainy day.....hai.....hope the rain will stop!!!!

MONASH....i'm coming

Well....i just get this shocking and breaking news this evening.....i got a phone call from Monash (Malaysia campus) telling me that i get the conditional offer from their UNI..when i heard this i almost shout out with joy!!!!coz i've been putting in my application since last year when i've finish my SAM, then i've been rejected....it was the advisor from Aused Subang Jaya who help me on all these things....she told me to appeal again...but then it was rejected again....now then i've finish my first year food technology in Taylors College...i put in my application again....n there was no news until recently....someone from Monash call me...asking for my official transcript result....then....my sister told me that they are considering me.....but after being rejected soooo many times....the heart had already been broken into a thousand pieces, there's no feeling at all for the result of my aplication....at first i know that there's not much hope....then i go to search for other school....which seems to have more chance....and i even get my ticket book lerr...the free fare one....only pay for 40 bucks....for the airport tax....now....I'VE GOT MY CONDITIONAL OFFER!!!!!!...wont mine to pay more to go to monash!!!!Ho....there r still excitement inside my body now....hohoho!~!!!!

PS::: Thank you very very very much to Sophia from Aused Subang Jaya!!!!If u guys got anything about education or uni application....go find her!!!

Dream

It's been a long time since my last post...well i cant find a topic to talk here...only till these few days...i don't know why...maybe because i've been very busy and fussy during the day time then in the night time, when i go to sleep i used to dream a lot...i dream about anything....mostly my leehom of cause...and there's other dream as well...but then the weird thing is that....(what i found out)...my dream use to reflect something to me....like these few days there's a pair of twins, my church friends here....keep on popping out in my dream...and my "diagnose" is that in real life i wish to get to know them but then i don't have the chance or maybe i don't know how....it's true!!!Sometimes dream makes me feel happy but sometimes make me confuse....i always used to dream that i'm a friend of LEEHOm....hahhaha...i'm not kidding....hahah...stupid lerr....

Like???Love???

Sometimes it's hard to decide whether you seriously in love with someone or...you only like to see his/her appearance....it's real hard to tell....seriously need to pray hard for GOD...to give us wisdom for that...Maybe it's because of i've never get into a relationship before...so i do not know how to separate between LOVE and LIKE....as for me...when i get to know a guy...maybe not very long...then i'll always had his shadow flowing inside my mind...have the strong desire to see him again....when really see him....i wont go and talk to him...this stupid thingy always interrupt my mind...not once but always....i just dont know why i'm so naive in this thing....sooo stupid...i always tell myself that it's because i want to know that guy more...if i know that guy more then all this stupid feeling will gone....but....i cant control my mind...very stupid lerr...hahaha...i'm not that easy to get along with someone whom i've never meet before...if there's other people that introduce me to someone else...then it make my life easier...hai....

It's 2006!!!!

SEE!!!!How times fly out there without our knowledge...now it's the second day of 2006 and after 4-5 more hours it'll be the third day of 2006....and after....i cant imagine that....time always pass without our knowledge...well as for me, it's been a real unusual starting for me in this year 2006...me and my mum had to babysit my sister's daughter....and...just yesterday, she cry damn loud and nonstop which make us all kelam kabut...and also at the same time there's something happen downstairs as well...my maid there downstairs was vomit like hell....my dad says she's like crawling on the floor....and my "diagnose" is that she was food poisoned....but then her situation is the most severe type la...not big deal it's just kindda scary when looking at someone vomit there and having diarrhea....so what to do???send her to the emergency ward for some medicine lo...cost bout fifty buck ler!!!what the hack is the government doing out there ha???how can they treat people with that amount of money with only a few of that medicine???huh....kindda angry...even private clinic didn't cost this much....ya...then back to the baby....she cry till....cant even describe...then i call my sis and told her bout this...she "diagnose" that her stomach is swelling...should i used the word swelling???what i want to say is like her stomach got wind inside...that make her uncomfortable lo...then after a few burp and the "booot" sound coming out she get back to sleep....waliao....that make me and my mum real busy till 12am midnight....then when she was comfortable she play herself there lying on the bed...waliao...babies nowadays arr...no need to sleep one ler....apu....but then thanks GOD sooo much for giving me and my mum soo much wisdom that we know how to make the baby calm down...when the babies cry sooooo like hell there i was almost cry u know...because of worry...then i pray to GOD...told HIM to use HIS hand to make the baby calm down...and....GOD do listen to my prayer...after like 5 minutes the baby immediately stop crying and feel comfortable....THANK GOD!!!!

HOOO.....what's a busy starting for me in this year 2006....and also....lastly....i'm sick....because of all these 'bussiness'....actually not because of yesterday night i get sick...actually all the viruses are 'living' inside my body for a few weeks liao...i know there was there inside but then i cant do anything...or should i say i didn't take care of myself???hahaha....dont worry i'll be fine...wahaha

Happy Christmas!!!!

Christmas had just gone....(soo fast)...haven even really get the time to celebrate and it's gone....well for me i'm havin a lot of fun...
of coz early in the Christmas morning i wake up then 'decorate' myself to go to church...it was fun...my church do not have this LOT of people before...it's like almost 1000 people inside one church...that was really cool....that Christmas afternoon, our whole family had our dinner at the most high class hotel in Bintulu here...we had our Christmas buffet...oooo!!!it's damn nice....the atmosphere there....the joy in our family....sooo happy...i've never had a Christmas soooo joyful and full of happiness in my heart....thank GOD for taking care of my family everytime....as my parents are not Christian yet...so we are all still working real hard in order to take them to the church...may GOD give me a lot of wisdom for this....
well....night time i went to the civic centre here in Bintulu for the Christmas Night Celebration which is organise by our church....it's a great party and a great night....i'm having a lot of fun....the celebration was awesome!!!!a very coool night!!!huh...i still having all the excited feeling inside my heart now....
Thank GOD for everything....Thank God for blessing me and my family sooooo much.....May GOD still be with us no matter what we do....where we are....give us wisdom and strenght in everything....AMEN!!!

Love Survey...copy from Jun Shi

1.Are u serious when it comes to relationships
=>of course!!!if not what is the purpose to get into a relationship???
2. are you afraid of commitments
=>nope....
3. are u a risk taker
=>depends....better not!!!
4. what can u say abt. long distance relationships
=>depends on oneself...if u seriously in love with that person u definitely can manage it...the most important things..pray more to GOD...
5. can u luv a person who doesnt love u
=>shouldn't say LOVE...but care...i will....sometimes it's hard to define LOVE...
6. do actions speak louder than words
=>yes...it's hard to say a word....
7. have you felt/found true love?
=>currently no...i believe that GOD will give me the best that HE choose for me...pray hard!!!
8. how can you say that a person loves you
=>cannot tell....sometimes that person doesn't haev other complicated feel to you..but you'll think that he is....get what i mean...complicated....then will end out with nothing!!!
9. are you good in handling relationships?
=>no...i'll easily loose a fren...coz i'm more passive...
10. willing to give everything
=>if really he is the one that GOD choose for me then i will....then how i know if he is the one that GOD choose for me???Just...you'll know!!!
11. best thing you've learned from loving?
=>taking care for each other???tolerate with him o her???something like this la...not sure...
12. do you demand your loved one to change into
=>no need...you love him or her because of who he or she was....what for change???if force him or her to change...that's not LOVE...
13. would you let go of someone you love?
=>depends...if that guy love me and i love him as well...and the most important things is that if he is the one that GOD chooose for me...definitely GOD wont want to see us separate...everything is in GOD's hand....
14. is sex important in a relationship
=>nop....sex only enhance the relationship between a couple...
15. how do you express your love to someone?
=>care for him gua....i mean care more!!!over then a fren gua....dunno what will i be yet la...
16. what is the major reason for a breakup
=>there's no LOVE between a couple...a lot of reason....satan's attack....pray more...
17. most important ingredient in a relationship
=>communication...
18. one thing you hate about love
=>hate n love?!?!?!different thing...once you too love a person but that person dont like you, you'll hate him....hate love...yi xian zhi cha!!!back to the qs...nothing to hate when you are in love...
19. one thing you like about love
=>everything n anything
20. worst thing u did to a loved one
=> haven yet...
21. are you in love
=>complicated personal emotional feeling..got....in love???nope....not yet
22. with whom
=>leehom
23. do u have a bf/gf
=>nop...is leehom counted???haha...his fans will kill me!!!
24.why or why not?
=>not time yet....God knows that i'm not ready for that...
25. are you a hopeless romantic
=>dunno...might be!!!
26. do you get tired of loving
=>nope...it's a hapiness...
27. who has changed your view about loving
=>time!!!

My Dear LEEHOM!!!!

this few days there are a lot of LEEHOM's new coming out at the entertainment news...wa...me sit in front of the tv just to wait to see his face shown on tv....so like him lerr....LEEHOM got his new debut album coming out real soon....on 30 DEC....cant wait to have that...but then i still have to wait for kindda long in order to get his album...coz have to wait till i get back to KL then i'll go there buy....waliao.....and i got whole pile of his pic...cant wait to share!!!
<== this phone is goin to b my future phone!!!
Wondering why i like Leehom this much lerr....i also dunno why....the story begins at 8 years ago....at first of coz like other fans...."love at first sight"....then after that i found that i'm not only like him because that he is sooo good looking...it's his passion for music that touch me....he soooo like and care about his music than himself....he is really professional...of coz i know that there are a lot of anti-Leehom people out there saying that he is gay or whatever...well for me i don't care...it's just your opinion...not mine....and not him as well....why must he been insulted like that???As Leehom didn't care that media reporting him as a gay (previously), why should we care....the most important thing is his music....his music is full with LOVE....i've been touch by his songs whenever i listen to it....his make his music not because of his popularity but for his LOVING and PASSIONATE for his music!!!!

KEEEP IT UP LEEHOM.....I'LL ALWAYS BY YOUR SIDE....ALTHOUGH YOU DONT KNOW ME!!!!

王力宏泪洒新碟发片会 暴粗口怒斥包养传闻

“Bull Shit”(狗屎)！一向斯文的王力宏，面对中国时报引述电视节目“天天啃苹果”指企业家严凯泰包养他的八卦传闻，昨晚终于气愤难抑，不顾优质形象，以英文“Bull Shit”回应。王力宏激动到眼眶泛红说：“这个新闻根本不值得浪费我的时间，浪费我的口舌”来响应。　　王力宏新专辑《盖世英雄》，创下头一回在故宫举行新歌发表会的纪录；不过问到他和严凯泰的八卦，斯文的音乐才子也忍不住动怒。对于严凯泰，王力宏说：“我不认识、也没见过这个人。”他也表示没有听过这桩莫名包养八卦。虽然王力宏已经尽量控制情绪，但他承认心情受影响：“对某些媒体很失望，因为他们失去职业水准，报导一些没有真实根据的事情。”　　王力宏首次开口响应他与严凯泰的八卦，唱片公司严阵以待，媒体一问及这桩传闻时，王力宏所属唱片公司SONYBMG亚洲资深副总裁崔震东立即站在他身旁坐镇，并请出国际通商法律事务所律师卢柏岑出面发表声明。公司老板和律师都出马后，王力宏表示“其它的事相信公司和律师会帮我处理，维护我名誉。”便先行下台停止受访。　　

<== 力宏在台北，故宫的新碟发片会

-->看到报纸刊登这样的新闻，试问我们这些歌迷又怎么会好过呢？看见自己的偶像被媒体写成这样，除了心痛还是心痛呀！台湾的媒体也真是的，力宏是个专业的音乐人，他又怎能和一为于音乐界毫无关系的人扯上关系呢？力宏的歌迷们都有一双雪亮的眼睛，而我也相信力宏的歌迷朋友们一定会在这时候力挺他到底。。。

力宏。。。加油！！！

Complicated Emotion

Sometimes man are very strange and unique....we have all the emotions that animal do not have...We are one of the GOD most successful result....

God first created the earth, He separated water and earth...then the sky...then all the living things...and also man-Adam...God saw Adam soo lonely then He created Eve to accompany him...

Just a brief story from the bible....i'll write more next time....

Well....human have all the emotions....in chinese we call "qi qing liu yu"direct translation is "seven emotion six desire"...that's why we know all the happiness, sadness, angryness and others...all these emotions are created by our God...Emotions sometimes are complicated...

Here a pic that make my emotion goes very complicated....


<== a picture taken after my friend's wedding dinner....

It seems to be a very pic that full of happiness....yes...it was...i musn't deny that...everyone in the pic are not from the same place...they are all from other part of malaysia (mostly east malaysia)...we are church mate back there in Subang Jaya Methodist Church....most of us are the member of EMMCF....that's East Malaysia Methodist Church Fellowship....and this picture is taken in Bintulu (that's my hometown)....when they all here, we who live in Bintulu are all very very busy....thinking of bringing them to all sort of places for fun...introduce them to every part of Bintulu....Kindda tiring but then very happy....

In this pic there's sadness as well...coz there's one of us in the pic will leave to work in Brunei...ELAINE...if u see this....GOOD LUCK TO YOU....NO MATTER WHERE WE ARE, WE'LL STILL REMEMBER YOU IN OUR PRAYER!!!!GAMBATEH!!!!

For me there's complicated feeling deep down inside my heart....sometimes i just cant understand why i have this kind of complicated emotion....that's maybe i've drop into a complicated emotional relationship and cause me to have this kind of complicated emotional feeling...May GOD be with me, help me to jump out from this kind of complicated relationship.....I don't want to suffer like this anymore....I've tired about it.....

Merry Chirstmas....It's Jesus's Birthday!!!

It's Christmas Time!!!!Although we can't feel the chilly weather here in Malaysia but we can feel the Christmas around the corner....especially all the churches are all decorated with beautiful and colourful bells, flowers, ribbons, stars, presents and much more....

For those who don't know why we as a Christian celebrate this special day....let me briefly explain it to you. Christmas Day ie 25 DEC is the day when our saviour Jesus Christ was born in a manger by virgin Mary.

"Today in the town of David a Saviour has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord." (Luke2:11)

“因今天在大卫城里，为你们生了救主，就是主基督。” （路加2:11)

"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." (John3:16)

"神爱世人，甚至将他的独生子赐给他们，叫一切信他的，不至灭亡，反的永生。” （约翰3：16)

From both of these phrase of the bible, we can see that GOD soooo love us that he willing to sacrifice his one and only son to this world just to save all of us from our sin. Although we didn't seem to have done anything wrong that will make us become a sinner, we are the heritage of Adam and Eve. It is because of the fall of man that we all are sinners. And our God don't want to see us full of sin, He want to save us from all the sin!!!

Soooo all non-believers out there....DO YOU WILLING TO ACCEPT JESUS AS YOUR OWN SAVIOUR????If there's a voice speaking to you says YES, just grab yourself to the nearest church and we are all waiting for you. If you still not sure about it, or you don't want to...we'll all pray very very hard for you as we want you to hear this great news.......

JESUS LOVE EVERYONE NO MATTER YOUNG, OLD; SICK OR HEALTHY.

Meaningful.....

I saw an article which is really meaningful and get me into deep thought also....coz sometimes i'm suffering from these question also.....got translate down there....

喜欢一个人，是一种感觉。
不喜欢一个人，却是一个事实。

爱情是忽然有一个人，我们觉得一见如故，很想靠近他，我们的内分泌忽然起了翻天覆地的乐化，很想拥抱他。以后，无论快乐或哀愁，我们也想不起当初为什么爱他。

只有当我们不爱一个人时，才会找出不爱他的原因，因为我们开始挑剔。任何一个人，只要你去挑剔，一定找得出缺点。越去挑剔，缺点越多，我们便可以说出我们为什么不喜欢他。

分手可以有很多原因，结合却只有一个原因－那就是不需要原因！

When you like someone, it's only a feeling.
When you don't like someone, it's a fact.

Love is when suddenly we see someone that we would like to be close with, and deep down inside release a joyful feeling, the feeling of hugging him/her. In future, no matter happy or sad, you'll not remember why you like him/her.

Only when you don't like someone, you'll find tons of reasons, this is because to start to become choosy. If only you have become choosy to that particular person, you'll be able to find out his/hers weakness/bad things. The more you choosy, the more weakness you can find and by that time you'll be able to say out the tons of reasons for not liking him/her.

However, there will have tons of reasons for a couple to break out a relationship. Only get back together will have one reasons--ie without a reason!

What have you done in 2005????

This is a real serious question to ask everytime the year come to an end....there's joy, happy,grace,blessing and everything that happen this year for me....but then what have i really done is this 2005 makes me realise how much i have done and how much i haven not yet done...

I was once awake by this question when i was listening to a sermon to Rev. Stephen Tong (a very popular Rev. who speaks throughout the whole world)....it's just a simple question that takes me into deep thoughts.....WHAT HAVE I DONE IN 2005???

Hope your guys out there also aware of this question....it's not a new question....but then it's just...do we think about it in detail???Better ask yourself for this question so that you can improve everything....in the future....

now i'd like to review a little bit of what i've done in 2005:
1) i've been to taylors college.....subang jaya one....actually before i go to taylors college my mind was soooooo empty that i don't know what i should do and what i should study....(my dream is to be a pharmacist)....due to my not sooo interesting result aka poor.....i didn't qualified for that course....sooooo i've been very depressed and stress bout it.....Thank GOD who listen to my prayer always.....HE leads me to taylors college....that school wasn't that new for me because i take SAM there so i'm kindda familiar with that school.....and in my 1st yr of FOOD science there....i've meet a bunch of real great friends.....they are georgeous.....THANK GOD for that too....i'm not that kind that will get along with friends very easily....but THANK GOD,HE always by my side...teaching me how or let other people get to me instead of i get to know them....let me show u some of the pic.....

this is the class pic taken after our night class

these are all my gangs in the class...we call ourself-ONE FAMILY(From top left-yeeman,junshi,serene;down left-me n georgy)....With all of them in the class...i wont feel lonely and i laugh a lot(although i do laught always) with the presence of Georgy....they are superb....

<--pic taken at GALAXIE after our final exam!!!AKA a big happy family!!!
2)i've been to a lot of camp....my church camp i mean....kindda fun also....i've grown spiritually and also get to know people more deeply....real fun.....i also get myself into a complicated emotion....hahaha....
3)i've been suffering from some emotional feeling since june....kindda suffering also....but then now ok liao....not a matter liao la....all grown up people will have this kind of problem i guess....