~*My 20th Birthday*~Part 2

Haha....as i promise in my previous blog that i want to share about the things that made me sad which had happen on my 20th birthday.

1) Although i receive a whole pile of SMSes from all of my frens, whom include my new cell group member, churchmate, frens and others.....there's one sms that made me feel....disappointed.....that's one of the sms from my best friend....i remember for her birthday.... sing a birthday song for her and send it to her by using voice sms....i plan sooo much for her birthday....i spend sooo much time on her present where i walk almost all of the shopping mall around KL....However, things was soooo different for me....i do not receive any birthday song from her....but i do receive one FORWARDED sms from her....somemore that sms had to be shared with other ppl....this means that...in one sms, there are 2 persons name in it....i'm sooooo depressed....

2) I've never receive a present whereby made me feel sooooo disappointed....i receive an iron chain with a cross on it.....this present doesn't sounds bad rite....(since i'm a christian)....but my point is....it's IRON!!!!the colour is like....it just make me feel sooo disappointed....i just cant believe that someone whom i expect to know me well give me such a things....if someone who know me well will know that he/she shouldn't give me jewellery as a present....i've had more than enough since i was young....i do not need someone to give me an IRON as a gift!!!!i think that....it's rude....it's just....ridiculous!!!!super disappointed.....

3)On my birthday...i do not have chance to spend that day with my best friend....this is because every year...one the 23/6, it was her best friends' bf birthday as well....so she have to celebrate for her best friend....somemore she have to tell me that she's in lagoon wearing beautiful swimsuit playing with her fren happily!!!!well....i know we've only know each other for like....not long....only1-2 years....but....at least, every year on her birthday...i was there!!!why it's my turn n she's not there???i....i know i'm kindda shelfish to think like this...but....i just cant understand....

4) I do not want branded coffee (from starbucks or coffee beans)...i do not want very expensive cake(from breadtalk or starbucks)....i just.....can u just let me feel your sincerity in those present???I know....i do like coffee and cheese cake....but...i just cant feel your heart...your sincerity inside it....it's different....i just feel like it's not a birthday present for me....i just feel like i buy the coffee and the cake myself....it would taste better if i buy it myself!!!

well....it seems like that's all for the things that made me disappointed....i just...maybe it's because i care too much....i...sometimes just give out my heart too much whereby other just giv out the outermost layer of their heart to me....maybe it's because i expect too much from her....so that's why it makes me feel sad....that's not the first time that disappoint me....but....N times....huh....tired....

~*My 20th Birthday*~

huh....see how times fly....thank God that i've been on this earth for 20 years....it's....unbelieveable....i mean....i cant believe that i'm 20 now....i'm telling everyone around that i'm 20 years old this year!!!huh....i still cant believe this....hahhaah.....that's we....human.....we need to grow up....

well...this birthday is the most special birthday that i have.....there are a lot of special things that happen on this day. Let me list it out one by one:

1) 23/6/2006....i'll never forget this date in my whole life....coz....i din sleep since 22/6/2006....it's all because of the stupid ecology final paper that would be held on 830am(althought i've get used to having exam during my birthday time)....this means that on the day when i turn 20, i still have to sit there all ALONE, study the whole lot of notes about my ecology.....and that's the worst subject...i don't think i can pass that paper....coz i've fail my internal....then i've to get real high for that final paper in order for me to pass the whole subject....23/6/2006 from 12am to 10am is the most stressed birthday moment for me.....

2)My best friend, Shin Yee who stay in Negeri Sembilan come down to KL purposely for me...i was soooo touch....all the way down....taking ktm down to KL central to meet me....all by herself....alone.....when i saw her in KL central, i was sooo touched....i just don't know how to express my feeling to her....we've been knowing each other since form 2, which is 8 years ago....i learn a lot of things from her....last time i used to be a bad temper person....but from her i learn to calm myself down...and.....a lot of things.....we went to sungei wang together.....gossiping like i've never done that before....n she buy present for me....a cute purple blouse where i like it very much.....THANK U FREN...I LOVE U!!!MUAKZ....

3)An sms from Australia in the middle of the nite.....that's rite....it's from u-YEE MAN!!!!although i receive a whole pile of sms....with different birthday wishes...but i don't know why, when i saw ur sms i'm soooo touched.....sooo happy....maybe it's because i miss u sooo much....i just miss the way u talk to me....so gentle....u calm me down when i'm angry, listen to me when i'm depressed(but mostly u c me laughing rite???hahahah)....I MISS U!!!!MUAKZ.....

4) As i mentioned on 1 that i din sleep....so that whole day....i mean on 23/6/2006...i'm kindda like blur blur....stupid stupid like that....i seriously just pull myself into the church for the fellowship....coz i'm the cell group leader n that nite is the cell group gatherin nite....so i must be there....it's a tough job for me especially when i'm not in good condition...then ho...after the fellowship ho....i went back home with my housemate....then i cant wait to jump onto my bed to sleep...but ho....i haven took my shower yet...so i took my shower first....the moment that i step out from the toilet....there's suddenly about 20 peoples standing at my house.....which...kindda surprised me....they are all waiting for me!!!!they were there to sing s birthday song for me....hehehe....kindda....shock....but then ho....maybe because i'm too tired....then i din really feel like....happy....i just don't know why....but not to deny that....this is the most....'noisy' birthday for me....(a lot of people)....

5) it's the only birthday that i spend with a guy whose birthday is same as mine....one of our church member as well....one of my senior as well!!!hahahah....n d cutest thing is that he sing another version of birthday song softly(when i was on the phone, whereby he thought that i wasn't listen to him)....that birthday song is.....originally cantonese version (if u watch tvb drama they all sing that version of birthday song)...but then he sing in chinese....hahahah....cute ler!!!!that nite he hide at my house...coz he scare kena kacau by others church member (it's our tradition to have water and flour for anyone's birthday!!!!but not for me this years)haha....

6) the first time that d guy that i mention at 5 invite me out to go shopping together on d day after our birthday.....at first i thought he'll want to go one-U coz he like to go there ma....but ho...he suddenly say go Midvalley...which...shocks me....but then ho....this doesn't matter...the point is....i wanted to ask him to go Midvalley as well!!!weird ho.....is it having same day for the birthday will have same thought as well????heheheh....then ho....force me to choose a present....stupid...i hate people force me to buy things one....at last u know wat i choose???2 sticker n one cute purple bottle....wahahahah.....

7) A love dinner from my housemate....she cook a lot of things to celebrate birthday with me,the guy who had the same birthday as mine, and two other girls whose birthday had just pass and around the corner....although it's just a simple dinner....but...i'm so touched!!!all these means a lot to me than all the present.....

8) A chicken soup mee sua cooked by that guy whom have the same birthday as mine...hehehe....very touched.....as touched as my housemate dinner.....very warm!!!

well...i think that's all....(too long liao!!!)....i'll write for sad things that happen during my birthday in my next blog....

~*SAMSUNI*~

=> this are my new beloved guy la....hehehe....very 'flower' ler me!!!

wow...it's been a long time since my last post....well....it's because of my laziness la...somemore ho my english 'need help'....that's what one of my lecture write on my reports....although i have self-conscious la...but it still hurt...hai....nevermind la....

next week is my final exam n now...what am i doing here?!?!sitting in front of the computer posting my blog, chatting with frens and surfing the net for some pictures???OH NO.....if my family knows this they will definitely kill me....well...that's me....i know the seriousness of the final exam....whereby i've put sooo much effort to get into Monash....so i have to try my best.....that's what my sister tell me....and i know that for sure...but then....i'm not those top student whereby they are getting super stress up during the exam period....it doesn't mean that i don't have stress....it's just....i don't like to get myself into sooo much stress....when you are stress, u tend to think more u know....somemore one the negative side ler......i hate that....i don't want my life to cover with negative thinking....

last week i watch a korean drama...called...我叫金三顺...i super like that drama....i watch it again n again.....the point is....the guy inside is superb man!!!u'll have to watch that if u haven....this drama doesn't inspire me much....all i get is that....a not so pretty women can get her true love as well....which mean....i can also la!!!hahaha....my true love???wont have that....at least for my current situation....it's easy to like someone but hard to love someone....haha...don't want to talk more about my love sight la....all i can say is that i'm stupid....although there's no right or wrong in love....

gambateh la....

very cute ho these article....although it din says a lot of words....but....it's sooo meaningful....and my point is.....that's me!!!!i feel like i'm the one who wrote this article...it's sooo.....i just don't know why....i'm soooo touch....i feel like i'm the author to this article....hai....that's life....someone can just find they beloved partner just like that....someone just miss their beloved partner in their whole life....someone caomplaint for their beloved partner....someone do not dare to tell their beloved partner their feeling....someone who had face sooo much trouble just to get together.....someone care too much for the others and bring disaster....someone do not care whether to get a partner for their life....someone.....there's too much hypothesis that can be make.....how i wish everything can be simple....and easy.....GOD create man with all these emotion because HE had all these as well....therefore, we should be happy that we have the image of GOD.....if everything is easy and simple, we won't appreciate whatever is given.....we won't appreciate our relationship.....

if u already have ur beloved partner, it's GOD's gift.....thank GOD for that....if u haven find one (like me)....pray more to GOD so that HE will show u who is the one that he choose for u....

A cute article that fits me sooooo much!!!!

Well, it's kindda small for u to see the font....erm....that's the largest that i can post....if u really want to know it, save it to your devices n magnify it....

Everytime i read this article, it touch my heart soooo much....i'm exactly the person that was mentioned in the article.....at first i thought that i'm recovering from this situation.....but....in real life, i cant.....whenever i see him, i feel that i must talk to him.....whenever i din talk to him, i'll have a sleepless night....then i'll start to imagine that i'm talking to him as usual n play with him.....sometimes i feel that, it's tough....to talk to him....coz i can feel that it was him who don't want to talk to me....sometimes he just show his 'black' face to me.....(actually not to me, but the whole nation) then.....it doesn't mean that i'm affraid of him whenever he show his face like that, but it's....his attitude....he wont answer your question if he feel uneccessary....However, there will be a totally diverse situation whereby he has a very good mood....he'll talk to everyone out there.....and play with everyone....i'm kindda tired of this....

Me also feels that i'm being 'used' everytime....coz he have some 'extraordinary' feel to my best fren so during her birthday period, he'll be very fren with me....treat me soooo different....like....i don't dare to say the word.....i know we are impossible...but.....i just need more time to recover from all this foolishness.....

好贴切哦！！！

第一名：巨蟹男與巨蟹女
巨蟹男與巨蟹女兩個人的感覺，是一切盡在不言中！譬如：你燉一鍋湯，他就會掉眼淚；你打一件毛衣，他就會天天穿，就是兩個人是非常溫和！巨蟹座的男生其實有一點女人性，比較會碎碎唸，一般人會覺得這種男的很孬種，不夠 MAN，可是巨蟹座的女生會覺得其實蠻好的！而且他們溝通的方式一點都不理性，都是用感性溝通，就是巨蟹座的男生跟女生本來要討論買房子這件事，然後巨蟹女說想買在海邊，巨蟹座男就會說好我們就買在海邊。

以上是最速配的星座里得冠军宝座的。真的把我形容到很贴切。。。而在我认识的巨蟹男也正是这洋的。。。但我和他是不可能的。。。一只手掌是拍不响的，所以还是把那只手收藏起来。。。埋藏在看不见的地方。。。宁愿自己受上辛苦，也不愿牵扯到他人。。。

Pack everyday....

my life here is still pack everyday....everyday pack with a lot of things to do....a lot of assignment....a lot of reports....a lot of test....a lot of.....problems as well....but Thank GOD sooo much that whenever i'm having trouble, HE is always by my side....HE is always the one who was there to help me....HE was the only one who listen to my grumbling....HE is the only one who tolerate with my childishness....GOD.....THANK YOU.....All the glories be to you.....

let me update a little bout myself....well, i'm still alive!!!but was 'break down'....i got flu....it's been a long time that i din get into sick....and finally, i'm sick!!!....wahaha.....wat am i talking about....ppl will die of sick but i'm happy with sick....hehehe....sometimes i feel that, when someone get into sick, he/she will have more attention on them.....so....does that means that i have more attention on myself as well????wahahah.....no la....u thought me that fortunate meh!!!i'm what they call "ku ming ren"....only if i die then i'll get the attention....hehehe....but then what for o, have so many attention on yourself???then you'll b lack of private time rite????hai....dun understand....

although i'm pack with assignments and reports, but i'm still ok...i mean mentally!!!i feel like i'm getting myself back....maybe because there are some problem that i have solve...it release all my burden....so....heheheh

I'm shelfish

well....sometimes i don't know how others think....i always act watever i feel to....i don't think before act.....n now cause others to suffer....i'm stupid and shelfish....

i don't want to get involve in all these things.....i wanna quit everything....back to myself....back to where i'm suppose to be...back to......

i'm tired.....

Safely back from the Jungle!!!

Thank GOD for listening to my prayer....Thank GOD for taking care and leading me when i was in the field trip....the trip was fortunately not as bad as i've expected earlier.....but....it's physically exhausting....we're all in the mangrove....every1 are muddy, their leg was trapped in the mud where need to pull it out....and there's millions of mosquito inside the jungle....those mosquitoes are all.....mutated one ler...they don't really afraid for the mosquito repellent....somemore.....they place that it "park" was still iching after three days.....damn scary....i soooooo scare of being bite by mosquito....but then....this is the first time for me to experience leeches....i've got one in my shoes when i was out from the jungle....and of coz it was sucking my blood....when i take it off from my leg, the place where the leech "rest" was bleeding like hell.....the blood will only stop after 2 hours....walao....it's.....supreme....no words can used to describe....

but then....when i was trap in the mud....i thought of a lot of things.....a lot of things that i suddenly realise.....whenever we're trap in a tough situation, the only people that can help us is only ourself....although others can give us a hand....but we still need to help ourself to reach the hand....and....i've think of a lot of things....

FIELD TRIP FEAR

it's been a totally nightmare for me to take Ecology as my elective subject....we all must go to the field trip...where we have to get into the jungle to get the samples of the plants....or to see the species of the plant...it's getting into the jungle ler....well...i'm not that....GIRL....that i dun want to get myself dirty or what....but the point is....there's no one that i know in the trip....it's been a totally new school and new environment for me....the life here is always busy with assignment, reports and test....i don't even have time to know anyone from my class.....i'll be totally lonely in the trip....but then Thank GOD that there's 1 or 2 ppl that i know(not that fren)....they are my churchmate....but then....i still feel lonely.....

i feel sooooooo regret since the day that i choose Ecology as my elective subject....if i know there's whole lot's of this trip, i definitely wont choose this subject.....i soooooo regret that i din listen to that person who tells me not to take Ecology....although he suggest me to take business statistic....(it's business subject....where i don't like)....but now i'm totally regret....if i mumble all these things with him, he'll definitely scold me instead of comforting me.....coz it's all my fault and my stupidness......i would rather die in front of assignment, reports or test....than going to the trip with no one i know....that's horrible.....but....what can i do now????there's no way of turning back....but to try my best.....May God leads my way.....

TIRED.....and....STRESS

it's a really tought life here in Monash University....there are a lot of things to be done.....a lot of works o do....a lot of tests....everything is stress.....i feel like quitting everything....just get back to my hometown...to live for a simple life....everyday stress and tired like this....not only mentally but physically as well....how long can i stand!!!!

May GOD help me.....

Importance of Sleeping

well.....sleep is really important lerr...normally we'll have to sleep for about 8 hours a days....but then sometimes we'd rather cut out the sleeping time to do other things such as for our homework or work or even have fun....as for me....i need to sleep for about 10-12 hours a days....of coz this include my afternoon nap....if i sleep lesser than that, i'll feel like there's something that i haven complete for that whole day....

like last week....i do not have enough sleep for a few days....then on the Monday, i was pluggin my thumbdriv to the computer and get ready to do my online assignment....then i don't know why i click 'delete' for the whole folder of the subject that i have to pass up.....then when the computer was deleting the content of the thumbdriv...i suddenly like....wake up....then....i cancel the delete....thank GOD that the assignment that i safe haven been deleted yet....wow....scares me till die ler....then only i knew that i do not have enought sleep than i'm kindda like the nervous system in my brand had malfunction....huh....scary.....

that's y i like to sleep....of coz that's the fastest was of passing the time....but then...it's benefit to our health as well....so please....don't feel that sleeping is not important....the problem that i had is kindda minor....i cant imagine for the more serious situation happening.....

LEEHOM I....LOVE....YOU!!!!!

wahaha.....that heading will make u feel that i'm crazy rite????well.....if u think i'm crazy then i am.....but then.....i also don't know why i sooooo like him.......just last week i went to his autograph session in sunway lagoon surf beach.....it was raining real heavily u know....but then.....the rain.....stop.....by the time LEEHOM presence on the stage......i think LEEHOM must have pray for his journey.....i sooooo like him.....he's....superb.....Thank GOD for creating Leehom that he become others model of life.....

let me show u some pic of his autograph session throughout malaysia....

handsome lerr.....that's my LEEHOM....

i cant tell why i like or LOVE LEEHOM sooo much....whenever i'm depressed, sad or alone....i'll look at all his pic, cd or mtv and stuff like that....then i'll feel much better.....i just don't know why....therefore, i can understand that girl who lost her memory but only remember LEEHOM....if i'm that girl, i'll remember LEEHOM as well.....

I'm depressed

i feel sooo sooo depress today...i just don't know why....maybe because i did not have enough sleep and maybe because there are a lot of things happen on me these few days....make me feels fussy and depressed.....so...i'm kindda like....easy to get hurt if people just mention something that make me feel very sensitive and sad.....but then it's mostly because of my stupidness....i always thought that i'm stupid....however...in the reality...i'm a fool....which is more serious than stupid....i just feel sad....all i want to do now is to sleep....sleep and sleep.....i'll kill anyone who wake me up.....wanna go back home.....in bintulu.....i won't be able to go back this april which i had a semester break....coz my grandma them wanna over here and play....shopping....it's kindda great also...but then....i just wanna skip all my life here for a while and get back to the life that i used to have in Bintulu.....i sooo miss Bintulu......i wont have all the things to think of....i wont have all the stupid people of stupid thingy to see and buy....i wont have some people that i don't wanna see.....i......just.....depressed....

Long time no c....

YOYO....it's been a long time since my last post....well...it's because that i'm too lazy for that....everytime i log in to blogspot i don't feel like posting a blog....coz sometimes it makes me feel that i do not have any privacy if i post every of my opinion here....maybe there's something that i don't want to share....you can say i'm shelfish or whatever you wanna say about me...i just feel that sometimes not all things have to tell.....i sooooo prefer to keep everything deep down inside my heart....and let time help me to digest it.....however, if it's a happy thing i wont mind to share...of coz....

well....my uni life has started....and...i sometimes feel that i'm back to SAM....coz everyweek there'll have reports to complete....everyweek will have homework to do...everyweek will have different things to do....presentations and stuff like that....it's sooo much like the life i had in SAM.....but it's just in a different place....which i still cant get use to....let time help me....

well...the one that i loved soooo much will be coming on this sunday....i cant wait to meet him......i can see him once a year only.....know who i'm talking about????that's my dear leehom!!!!!wahahaha....last week i even go to sg wang n queue to change for the free admission ticket to the autograph session....hahhhaah......

Uncivilize place

As usual i take the bus to school today....by the time i walk up to the bus, i heard the bus driver quarrel with the indian taxi guy outside his car because the bus had block the taxi driver's way.....and of course the bus driver was soooo mad and keep on yelling all the real HARSH word....hai....what's that for lerr.....well this was normal....and then by the time the bus was driving, there was one motorist used his hand to bang on the bus....then we in the bus can heard a real loud bang which made us thought that the bus hit something....but then it was another indian guy who wanna quarrel with the taxi driver again....i think it might probably is because the bus driver overtake the motorist or stuff like that....but THANK GOD the bus driver don't stop the bus and quarrel with that motorist...if not...i cant imagine the situation that will happen....that's....REDDICULOUS!!!!

Well, there's a lot of these kind of things happen all around Malaysia...sometimes i just cant understand why these people like to quarrel that much....it's because of FACE????or is it because there's someone put harsh word on you then you must give him/her a harsh word back???i just cant understand!!!!

Why just Malaysian cant be more civilize???Like those Singaporean.....they are sooo kind and sooo polite....at least they don't quarrel on the street like that....the different people with different culture there live together without any quarrel.....why there's always these thingy happen in malaysia????i just couldn't understand....

Shouldn't comment much on these....but....just feel disappointed with the people outside there....but of course there are real nice person out there as well....it's just we always see the bad one....

How i wish i'm in Taylors College....

It's been my last day of my orientation week which i'm not supposed to be at sch.....but then....i'm in computer lab now.....it's all because of my stupidness.....the system here in this school are all online....which mean i've to choose all the subjects and electives that i wanna take....all of these things are done online....and....it sounds sooooo high tech and very convenient for us rite....well....by the time u click into the webpage....there's thousands of different things in there....and....my point is.....i don't understand a word in the page that we are supposed to be....and i cant find the place where we should chooose all our units and stuff like that.....stupid la.....i mean....me...i'm the one who stupid...yesterday the dunno who standing up there briefing about how to do all the things...and i was seriously concentrating to what he says ler (which i normally will be sleeping down there)....but then....when he ask for the hands who haven done all the things...there's only my hand in the air!!!!(actually still got a few more person la)SEE....how stupid i am....this probably because i'm in a new school....everything is new here....their system....the environment...the people....everything new....I HATE THAT!!!!That's what i hate about being into a new environment....all the things have start from the beginning again....and....social life in the school campus....this is the most horrible things....hai.....somemore i got a whole lot more things to settle down here....fussy everyday....i dont feel like i'm making the right choice to get into this schoool.....but....due to my current financial problem...what can i do????everything i have to swallow into my stomach....let my multi-purpose stomach to digest it.....

Life in Bintulu (my hometown) is much more simpler.....everything is simple...all i have to worry is that did Jocelyn feel well today????Did she drink her milk???Did she sleep well???and....fill my empty stomach when there's drumming sound inside....that's all.....and...and.....go to church....i feel like sitting in the empty church right now....to calm every part of me in front of the cross....to confess all my sin.....to pray.....just probably stare at the cross for a minute will make me feel joyful....i'm lost everyday and everywhere.....i don't dare to tell my mum all about these....i scared that she'll start to worry for me since she got a lot of things to worry at home....and i don't feel like talking to anyone else these days....but.....cant.....everything have to be swallowed down....if not.....ppl will think that i don't like to be here or other bad things that they are going to say about me which i dont wished to mention it here.....

My Dear Father God, i'm soooo thankful that You leaded my path....no matter where am i, i know that You are always there by my side....whenever i cry, You'll be the only one who can comfort me.....Thankyou GOD for always being my spiritual advisor.....Thankyou God for everything that You have done to me....Please....again....help me!!!Tell me what i should do now....In Jesus Name I Pray....AMEN

A post created in Monash University

yoyo....i'm in Monash lerr....hahaha....cant believe that i'm in here....finally....after all the prayers, worries, frustration and a lot of things....i've finally in Monash University....well....it's a new environment for me....so....i've to search for the place i wanna go everytime...and i'm always lost....hahaha...well this year don't have Yee Man with me...so i've to find everything out myself...like last time she'll tell ma whatever happen the next day and whatever things that i have to do and wherever the class is....now....there's no one i know who take the same course same semester with me....all i see are new faces....hey guys....Monash got a lot of leng lui ler....serious o!!!!at least i think they are kindda pretty la....

this week is my orientation week....so....everyday will be start with a briefing....introduction of the campus and stuff like that....today is the second day of orientation.....and i'm now in computer lab......ie i din go for the orientation today.....but i was WARN by my frens housemate to attend the english test tomorrow and also the briefing on the day after tomorrow.....hai.....what a boring uni life without people i know....but then i feel sooo much pleasure and joyful to get into this uni...coz this is the uni that i've wanted to get in.....and finally i'm holding my ID with me!!!wahahaha...thank God for that....

my days here in sunway are still normal....nothing much change.....except that i've change a new environment....a new place to stay....i rent a room from my church fren here...so...at least i got housemate that i've known....the only thing is that i have to buy the mattress and the furniture....so i'll going to buy that later.....there's of coz something i kindda worry.....i heard a lot of ppl (from my church frens) say that a lot of frens whom we see very close together.....are separated....once they live together....i know a lot of this things....but.....what can i do????just mine my own business....my mum soooo worry about the place where i'm staying now....she keep on asking me whether i sleep well the night before o not....and keep on reminding me to lock my door since there's guys in the house (my housemate's bf,we knew each other as well)....the rest....nothing much different....o ya....i miss Success aunty's rice....i'm going back there eat later i think.....wanna give a surprise to her...wahahah....coz i found that i haven figure our where's the cafeteria here....and i don't like cafeteria food.....but i heard them say that the food in cafeteria here is kindda nice....so...maybe i'll have to try that out one day....

whenever i'm alone here, my mind will have a lot of people flash back in my mind.....of coz....guys....and girls.....some frens that i'll never meet again when i'm here.....some frens that i leave in my hometown, Bintulu....but then....i should thank God that i still have all those churchmate i know here in Subang church....so.....jia you la.....

Back to School......

Well....it's been a long time since my last day at school....(it's not that long though,3 months only!!!)and now....i'll be going back to school this monday.....believe it!!!!yeah....last few months my life was soooooo threatened by this school thingy.....coz after my 1st yr of food tech in Taylors College i do not know where i will be this yr....well...u might want to ask me why i dont want to continue my food tech study,rite???It's not that i didn't get good result than been 'sack' by school!!!!it's....i dont want to twin to Australia....so i keep on searching for the school that provide 3+0 Bio-medic programme or Bio-tech programme.....finally.....i've found Monash Msia and AIMST(Asian Institute of Medicine, Sience and Technology) in Kedah....Thank God for that....He always listen to my prayer....no matter where i am....what i do....Thank God....I Love you....Thank you for Loving me First!!!!Hallelujah....

Now get back to my topic....i've been suffering for the whole yr.....mentally suffering....coz i do not have the confident in myself....to get in to Monash....then i pray to GOD....told HIM to guide me....only HE knows where is the right place to put me in.....well...it sounds normal for those who just wanna apply and get into a uni....maybe it's just a piece of cake for u....but for me....i've been rejected twice by Monash....that's why i take the food tech course in Taylors College....after being rejected twice.....do u still have the confident that the school will consider your application again???i don't think so.....at least i dont have that confident again....but then....miracle sometimes do happen....but only with GOD's leading....now...i'm a student of Monash University Msia!!!!which mean that....my school life will start again!!!!everything will rotate again....

there's soooo much sadness in my heart now....coz....i'll have to leave my home for about 3 months like that(hopefully)....and of coz all my dear church mate....cell group member....and the most important is my dear JOCELYN....i don't know whether when i get back here will she ever knew me again....sad....i'll feel sad whenever i think that i'll have to suffer from some....something that i dont want to mention it here....just.....a lot of things to suffer....but....hey....i've to praise GOD for letting me to go into Monash....so i should be proud of that....well...after thinking of that...it make me feel more relieve...coz i know...GOD IS JUST BY MY SIDE!!!

It's Valentine.....

Yoyo....it's Valentine today...i think u guys out there must be very busy and very romantic rite???hahaha....as for me....i'm just normal....nothing special for me on this days ever since i was born.....but then i was questioned by a lot of people for asking me whether to buy or will be receiving anything from someone special on this kind of day....hahaha....do i look like i'm not available????strange ne.....well....what i'm going to share now do not have a word that are connected with Valentine.....

Well, i just came back from the summer camp organised by our church youth fellowhip....hohoho...it's great....perfect i should say....real fun...but tiring.....the muscle from my whole body was overstretch ie pain....it's been two days now since the camp and now only my muscle are recovering.....it's was full of excitement for the camp and of coz we learn GOD's words together....but then.....honestly...i think that....i don't feel enough for the sermon and message.....i think that most of our time we are playing....jungle trekking.....resting....and stuff like that.....but overall....it's the most craziest camp i've ever been to....we even got disco party on the last nite ler....hohoho.....let me show u guys some pic.....cant wait to upload it....

i) that the pic taken when we were jungle trekking...i dont know how i get into the pic....
ii) this pic is....so unreal...but....believe it!!!
iii) the "Big Family"
iv) i like this pic very much.....coz there's someone i like in it.....
v) he is in there as well!!!
vi) get prepare for jungle trekking!!!!we all go with our slippers.....