2007 American Idol

Congrats to Jordin Sparks, the new American Idol. Although i wasn't really supporting her, but so do have a great vocal. When she sing 'This is my Now', the producer's song made only for the Finale, she even touched herself whereby she shade into tears. But through that song, i believed that she've touched everyone in the theatre that night and of course including those watching her performance that night (including me). I've already had that song downloaded and everytime i listen to her version, my hairs stands onto the end!!! Like they are standing to show respect, wahaha!!! Good on you Jordin!!!Just in case you are wondering who Jordin is, i've got a pic here from americanidol.com to show you.

Well, i feel a little bit disappointed for Blake Lewis (the one i supporting). He din get to the top. But at least he had made it to the finale and had done such a great performance ever. He is such a talent in beat-boxing. But i must not deny that he cannot do well in ballet song where Jordin do did well in this. Haha, i sounds like one of d judges. Wahaha. Here is a pic of Blake Lewis:

(this was the pic taken when he was singin 'this is my now')

HUH, i'm so into american idol these days. Although it's the end for this season, i still keep on refreshing on the performances by watching the video on youtube. Haha, really feel glad for those who post up the videos there. And also, the reasons for me to gettin mad of this reality show is that there will have a lot of great artist performin like Bon Jovi:

Gwen Stefani, Maroon 5, Chris Doughtry, Green Day, Kelly Clarkson, Carrie Underwood.....whole lots more. Besides that, there will have some artist who come and watch the shows. It's the Fantastic Four:

Testimony

I wanna spend some time writing my testimony here...I've never done it before...so i'd decided to do it now...

Last weeks is the busiest week i've ever had...i've been struggling sooo sooo much for my assignment and reports....it's been a tough time whereby i have no idea how am i goin to start for that and besides, i've sooo many things to settle like choir committee meeting, fellowship praise and worship thing...and also there's something happen in my family as well....all of these stress and tiredness makes me feel so hard to breath....how i wish i'd can skip everything here....gone far away to a world where no one will recognise me....then started to pray to GOD....tell HIM whatever i feel deep down in my heart...tell HIM how i suffered from this world....tell HIM my disappointment....then there's one day, when i came in to the class i heard people whispering bout the extension of the assignment...then this is first time ever i approach to someone i don't even know her name to ask for that....i was almost shade in tears when i heard that that girl told me...she say someone ask for the extension on the assignments and our lecturer had approve that...THANK GOD!!!Then with all the pack schedule that i used to had the day before, it change totally to the schedule which i can fit and done everything on time. THANK GOD for that....Although it's hard to believe that, it's true....it's my testimony here.

GOD is the almighty GOD who walks alongside with us....i never feel alone...whenever i'm facing any problem, i knew that there's someone holding my hands and guiding me showing me the bright path....whenever i walk too fast, HE will told me to slow down....i just can heard his voice beside me, leading me guiding me....too complicated ho....for example: when there's one time i feel super stress up and i forgot to seek for his kingdom, there will have a song that make me remember him....like BON JOVI's 'livin on the prayer' and 'keep the faith'....although BON JOVI does not directly sing the words of GOD, but through the words in his song it's sounds like GOD was talking to me....i feel sooo thankful that i had GOD to be walk with....

If u think that i sound ridiculous, nevermind. I'll continue to pray for you. I believe that there will have one day we'll be sitting together in the kingdom of glory. Do you want to take Jesus Christ as your personal saviour??? Take a deep thought of that. May all glory were given unto him!!! Alleluia....

BON JOVI ROCKS.....

I just cant believe that i'm so addicted into Bon Jovi recently because of the theme (Bon Jovi's Song) in American Idol. I'm so addicted to him!!! Although last time i've been addicted once since their album 'Crush' but now, they will be back again with their new album 'Lost Highway'....i cant wait for that....

Recently i've been downloading some of their top songs and found that they are superbly nice....i've never knew that....their songs is soo soo sooo nice....HUH!!!! I'm getting too excited bout them....and the most important thing is that...the vocal -Jon Bon Jovi is the man!!!! He is such a gorgeous man...a nice man...he is so rational....he is so fair to everyone...he tell the truth and scold the contestant necessary....hug them and kiss them when necessary to keep the contestant feels good....WOW!!!! I'm just too addicted to the band right now....the band won't live without everyone...they are the longest rock band every present in this world....

BON JOVI ROCKS....


This is the man whom i think will be the AMERICAN IDOL 2007....he got the package...he is talented...able to take the risk where even Jon Bon Jovi say that he was rolling on a dice...but he made it!!!!YEAH!!!!

Best Friends Birthday

It's one of my best friend's birthday yesterday. In the past i used to prepare a lot of things for her during this particular day like i'll spend so many effort on her present and spend so much money on the cake or celebration and stuff like that. Well, i don't mind to spend all these for her but everytime after her birthday i'll have the emptyness inside me. I just do not feel happy after spending so much effort. Maybe because she was too popular and everyone wants to spend the time with her during that particular day. So this year, i do not spend any time with her. Of course i still buy something for her. But it's just a handphone hanger and there's no cake from me this year. I just fed up with everything. Once i spend so much effort on something, and when i don't get the reaction i want i'll feel super down. So this time i just make everything clear and simple. More expectation will leads to more disappointment. This phrase always reminds me when i'm doing something which sometimes seems to be meaningless to me.

Today there are cell group gathering. And guess what i'm doing now???I'm sitting in the comp lab here searching for info for my cell met assignment. Actually i do it purposely coz i don't want to socialize with other ppl now (although most of the members are my frens). I just don't feel like socializing with the outside world now. I'd prefer to keep everything all inside me. I started to have the feeling whereby i feel like it's meaningless for me to get socialized to the outside world. I feel like no one is going to listen to me. But don't worry, i wont collapse one. Talk to myself wont hurt my heart one. Haha

A 5 Star Weekend

I've been spending my weekend with my parents whom come here to play and live in a 5 star hotel - ParkRoyale KL. Though this is not my first time to stay there, but i still loved to live there. It's just super nice. Especially the buffet breakfast and dinner that they had. It's gorgeous. I can say that i've travelled throughout the world (in terms of food) in two days time. I keep on eating super lot of sashimi and whole lot of desserts which we can only see from magazines or advertisement. I just cant believe that i see the real thing displaying in front of me calling me to eat them. This is call 5 STAR man!!!Besides that, every morning at the reception counter there will have fresh apple for you to eat. So i took one per day and keep it instead of eating it. HUH!!!I just super like that hotel.

And ho we accidentally or rather purposely go to Sg Wang to have a walk around and see this handsome Chen Shi An and the beautiful girl JOJO (Tat's wat they call them) standing on the stage. Let me post some pic that i've taken.


Haha, these are the Malaysian artist that i met la. Although they are not that popular or well known, but at least i know that guy ler. He's kindda good looking o.

Besides that, i've meet MY fm ford everest tak gong dui in Lot 10 also wo. We all like see what they give and what they play lo. N ho n ho, when we go to midvalley...when we wanted to take the cab and get back to the hotel, we see Sultan's car parkind outside the south court entrance ler. It's seriously Malaysia SULTAN's car ler. My dad recognize that car is the most expensive car whereby it was imported from england and which roughly cost about RM100K ler. HUH!!! Cant imagine ler. Then we ask the taxi driver. He say is the Sultan here in midvalley coz only he can have his car like that (without car numbers but just the Sultan logo on the car). But then he say dunno is from which state one la. HEHEHE....i do see a lot of things ler this weekend. Too enjoy and relax liao.

A meaningful Flow Chart

下面这个网站好有意思哦，我自己看了一直在那里不停的点头赞同。
http://www.oicq88.com/999/love3.htm
文章里面说到一句话：‘爱情是坚贞的也是最不可靠的东西’。哇，这句话我可是赞成到五体投地呀。看到所有的结论都是--痛苦+结束，这不仅让我怀疑爱情对人的重要性。难道人就真得不能没有爱情吗？有了爱情的那些认真的都会“痛苦+结束”吗？

这些种种的怀疑和猜测，加上看见种种没有结局的爱情的我对爱情这回事。。。看不开呀。不是因为我悲观，换做是你的话，你也不能会乐观到哪里去的。一次的失败就已经够痛苦的了，难道我还要在伤口洒盐吗？和另一半手牵着手走在街上的画面对我来说只是一场梦。现实生活里的我就连和同性的拍党一起出去玩并手牵着手的画面已经算是很珍贵的了，更何况是与异性。

我的生活里面永远都只有我自己。遇到什么困难悲伤，除了祷告求主帮助外我还是自己一个人。在我的字典里，永远没有比朋友更深的‘朋友’。就算有的话也只是在我的梦里。在梦里多自由，想干什么就干什么；我甚至很享受在梦里与力宏手牵着手逛街的画面。有时梦给人的感觉好真实，虽然醒来后会有小小的失落，但无可否认的是--那种甜甜的感觉是不会被破坏的。

只有耶稣对我们的爱是真实的。他对我们的爱是永不改变的。为什么我们渴望得到人的爱而不去接受主对我们的爱呢？那种爱世人无法给的，只有他能够。

Wireless....Hurray!!!!

I cant believe i'm using wireless to online now here in LCCT. Wahahaha, first time ler. Fortunately i've got my battery charged. Wahaha, cant believe it. Although it's kindda slow la, but i still think it's great. It's my first time using wireless ler!!! Somemore it's after my comp went into hospital. I just so love it after it was released from the 'Hospital" ler....hehehe....nothing to do now ler so post my blog lo....hehehe....

So excited i'm going back home liao. I'll see Jocelyn in 5 hours time. I just cant wait for that. I miss her soooo much. I miss her voice....I miss every part of her....Hurray....I'm so happy n excited now although i din have enough sleep last nite (for 3 hours nia o)....hahaha

Busy and Sick week

Busy is the word that i'm telling everyone around me. There are endless reports and assignments for me to hand in before i'm off for my break. Although it sounds nice, but during the break i won't be free as well. I'll have to study for my cell met whereby i'm always lost in the lec and i've to think of the self design experiment that will happen after the break....HUH....everything just come and come and come. I just don't even have time to breath.

I've been spending my whole weekend with my sis whole family. Of coz with my dearest Jocelyn as well. She's super cute. When she call me, i feel like melting. Her tiny voice was sooo cute and it sounds nice. So happy to see her again. Well, i'm getting a little bit of flu and some sore throat. Because there's one morning we brought her to the hotel swimming pool. Fortunately she din get sick, but her aunty here get sick. Hahaha...which mean i'm even weaker than her. Well, actually it's good for me to sick as well coz it's the time for me to change my internal immune system as well.

This weekend, i'll be heading to my hometown again lo. I can't wait for that. But i'm starting to worry for the books and reports that i'm going to bring back. HUH!!!! Whatever i say now is reports, assignments and study. Started to feel stress up now. Stress up in my work and stress up in socializing with ppl. I just don't wanted to even talk to those who i knew so much. I started to have a very negative feeling whereby i feel that everyone is so so so different from the outside. They are just so unreal. I just don't know why tat i do not feel good in getting to know others. I feel good with myself. So i still prefer to keep everything myself and post it up here instead of writing out into my diary. Tired....

全身酸痛--muscle fatigue

哇，只要我动一动我的手就觉得好痛。前两天参加团契的营会，一到家就不省人事了四小时。这次的营会，或许只有两天一夜的关系，所以没有依依不舍。反而觉得于人的关系变淡了，应该和我玩在一块的反而不理我，而我也觉得好像没话和她说。难道我们的友谊就只是这么肤浅吗？或许她觉得不舒服吧，有或许她太忙了吧。这些我都不想多想。现在的我只知道我原来是没有朋友的！！！原来好像可以和每个人玩成一块的我只是我的表面，而其实大家是不喜欢我的。虽然大家都没有表现出来，但我有一颗敏感的心。你们没有表现出来的，我都看得见只是我不说而已。没关系啦，又不是第一次这样了。难道我是第一天认识他们吗？既然知道他们是这种人了，那我也不需要这么在意了。但，难道说不在意就会不在意吗？一个伤口愈合了总会留下伤疤的。

还好有一位温柔体贴的梅琴在一旁帮助我，鼓励我。不然我真的很难想象现在的我还会不会继续把欢乐带给大家。我一个人伤心流泪就好，不要连累别人。世界因爱发光！！！神爱世人，所以我也要学着把神的爱带给其他人。加油！！！虽然这种日子会很难熬，但有神与我同在我并不孤单也不害怕。我知道有一双手永远都在牵着我，带领着我。人不喜欢我没关系，神一定不会离弃我。

Tough reports

I've been facing a real big problem this sem. My lab partner (for one of my subject) are all sucks....this is the first time i've been using this harsh word to describe someone. But i can't help it, i just cannot control myself from calling them this. I thought i was the blurress person in the lab, who knows that there was someone blurrer than me!!!How can it be!!! The girl even ask me 'what have we done last week?'. WOW!!!!This was super 'cool'. She had been attend to the lab for two weeks and she do not know what had she been doing there in the lab for 3 hours time??? This is ridiculous. HUH...*cooling down*....whatever, just don't care for them. Fortunately we don't have to share our reports as well.

Yesterday i've been sitting in the computer lab for almost 6 hours just to figure out how to analyse and present the results into my lab report. Thank GOD that i had Patricia (a good helper) sitting beside me and helping me to analyse all the statements. It was GOD who arrange her to be at my side whenever i've been facing problem in my reports and stuff. I feel so thankful whenever i see her.

Last weeks i've been busy for the church stuff. That's the first time i feel that i was super busy and i was almost getting mad about everything. Even Jennifer was frightened by me. And for this week, there's a world's toughest report to be done and handed in on Monday. Sometimes i feel like i almost collapse, but whenever i see Jocelyn's pic in my handphone or even her voice calling me fron the other side of the phone, there will be a voice telling me that i had to set a good example for her refer when she grown up. She's my motivation for everything. And of course my mum is the one who motivates me as well. I swear to myself that i must graduate and get a nice job and let her had a better life to live. I just feel useless whenever i saw her suffering there all by herself.

Soo....have to get back and do my reports....or else....i don't even dare to think about it....Gambateh!!!

Tired again!!!!

This week is the most tiring week for me. The reason that causes me to get this tired is not because that i started to have lab reports and stuff to do and to pass up, but is because of the emmcf things. Tomorrow is the day where we promote our choir. I'm the class rep for the choir so i have to be the one who handling all these things. I was super exhausted. There's a lot of things that i do not know how to do but i can see that GOD is beside me. HE is always there helping me for everything. HE bring others to me and help me so that i won't be suffering all alone. Although i feel tired and exhausted, i still feel energetic and excited for everything i've been doing now. It's different from the exhaustion that i used to had last time.

Nothing is Complicated

One of my housemate wanted to move out from the house since her sister was moving back to their hometown. Then, she was suggesting another guy to move into her room and ask me whether i wanted to move or not. Well, i was lazy to move out as you know moving out require so so much of energy and time. It's so troublesome. Somemore i only have one more year left here. So i do not feel to move. However, another housemate of mine think another way. He said he do not want someone he don't know to move into the house. Does he means that he wanted to cover up the rental for the empty room all by himself??? I definitely wont share the rental with him.

Everything is just so simply. Just one go and one in and that's it. Why must he make it so complicated??? I just don't understand.

Stupid Line

I pay soooo much to this school and get a super damn slow connection. Somemore my timetable is like hell. Who have their break for 4 hours in between? Stupid. What i am so mad about is the internet connection now. It is super super slow!!! AARGH!!! I'm so so so so mad about this....

Back in my room (KL)

Time has been working so hard that it didn't even rest for a while. My 3 months holidays had become a history just like that. Now i have to accept a brand new year 2007 with my study here in Monash.

This holiday i have been through a lot of things. There are good and bad of course. Sometimes when i cool down myself and think back what i've done, i realize that i was such a bad tempered and rude girl. Besides that, i'm very good at covering up myself so that others won't know the inside of me. Sometimes i was impressed with myself bout that. When someone tells me that how rude i am, i was like poured with cold water all over. Only then i realize that i am rude. So, this time for me to get back here in KL is for me to change my attitude, change my temper, change my manner. I've got to train myself to be more patient expecially communicating.

It's been a long time since my last flight to KL by using MAS airline. Well, it seems ordinary. But this is my first time sitting on MAS airbus. This airbus was so so different from airasia airbus. This airbus is very long and wide inside where it have 8 seats per row. WOW!!! This is my first time for sitting in such a huge plan. Although i do feel a little air sick, but i do manage it well that i did not vomit out. It probably because that i'm stuck in the middle of people and make me feel dizzy.

HUH....2molo 12pm is my first class...better get ready for everything....

High tech hp

This is ridiculous! I'm using my hp 2 post my blog here! Cant believe tat this new N73 of mine was so 'powerful'. At first i was just try n c whether i got load d blogger page, n now i'm here posting my blog! Wow!

Well,i'm in kch now. Enjoyin my last few days of my holiday. It's kindda sad tat i cant meet up Sophia, but i still can meet up Jen n others. Last nite, my dear Yee Man had fly back 2 aus. I so hope 2 meet her up end of this year.

Haha, wat a good phone my dad buy me. Although it's kindda huge 2 hold in hand, d function is awsome! Muakzz my dear N73...lov ya!

Last day at home

I cant believe that the times flies sooo fast....It's like yesterday i've been telling my parents that i'm going back home and now i'm telling them that my flight is tomorrow....

It's been a tough and tiring and joyous holiday. Although there are too many things that happen which seems to be unsolved, at least i feel that everything had been going on smoothly. I was mentally tired but not physically. I feel that i'm having such a joyous time spending times with my beloved Jocelyn. She was such a cute girl (although she was kindda naughty). I'll definitely miss her when i get back there.

Today i just allocate my timetable. It seems ok whereby i do not have any crashes. But....i have too much break in between....3-4 hours per day....Oh No!!!So i think i must join the swimming club then i'll go swimming during my break times. Or maybe i can used that time to do my report and stuff....but i afraid that i'll get lazy and get online to download all the stupid stuff and watch....OH....watever...i must must must work hard...I wont let myself to fail anymore....i must fight.....

Happy Valentine's Day

It's Valentine's Day again....for me, this is just another ordinary day. I do not deny that i was very warm to have someone holding my hand or even just have the hand over my shoulders (where i use to feel super warm in a cold weather when the driver in China put his hand around my shoulders). I always thinks that this is the day where i'll get myself into more trouble. In my recent life, whoever i meet are those very popular ones (for guys i mean) so there's one time that i used to be answering others questions about one of my best friend in this peak time. So this time, i'd just keep everything to myself. I didn't attending church fellowship and didn't even go to sunday worship service. I know i cannot be stopping from all the meeting at church but i just cant help myself. I just don't want to go out and social with others. Moreover, i think that the fellowship is getting 'bigger' and 'bigger'. I just feel like it's hard for me even to squeeze into the crowd. I don't want anyone to recognize me or even notice my appearance, but i just started to questioning whether the purpose for the new crowd to get into the fellowship is for GOD sake or any other things else.

Whatever it is. What i wanted to say now is that....I'M IN LOVE AGAIN!!!!! HAHAHA :D This is kindda ridiculous right. Well, i don't have a real guy for me to love to so i'd have to love on someone that everybody love and shared together. There are a lot of guy i like in my life. Well, let me listed all out.

1) My dear Jesus Christ -- He is GOD one and only son....He came to the earth because of our sin...He sacrifice himself on the cross for all of us....He LOVE everyone including sinners....He is the son of GOD....He listen to every word that we pray....He guide us through a light and correct pathway....I Love Him....

2) Wang Lee Hom -- He is no only good looking but also talented in music as well....He get very serious in doing everything....He is such a nice person....I've been in love with him since i was 12 (wow!!!)

3) Bosco Wong -- He is a new TVB artist which i'm recently mad with. He is such a happy guy. The reason that i like him is because of his laughter (weird ha!!). Whenever he laugh, i'll laugh together with him (in front of the tv) as well. I just couldn't understand why but his laughter is so powerful that it affect the person sitting in front of the tv. Besides that, i get to know that he is good at cooking as well. This was the point that i make me get mad at him this much. Maybe no one knew who he was. There's a pic shown beside, that's him. But one thing i'm concern...i think he is a little bit skinny. He can gain somemore weight i think....then he'll be perfect!!!!!

That's what i mean by the guy where everyone loved and share. I'd rather spend my time with these guys than any other one else. All the guys out there are so realistic (for me), even more realistic than girl. Guys think with their eyes but girls thinks with their heart. I always keep all these words in my mind.

A Beautiful Girl Just Die Like That

There's was a shocking news i heard yesterday night at around 9pm after i come back from outside still chit-chatting with my frens. What i heard was that a female taiwanese star whom got an accident on saturday was rushed to hospital in a very very bad and serious condition whereby she was already in coma condition when she was sent to the hospital. I think a lot of people must have heard of this shocking news happened in taiwan. She was such a beautiful and nice girl. Although i do not know her very well, or haven even watch any of her series...but this was a very shocking news to me.

Life is just like that. It can be a continuous...It can be meaningful...It can be life without a purpose...It can be ended without any reason....LIFE IS JUST LIKE THAT...We cannot predict what will happen in the next second. But all we can do is that we must live a PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE...We must live for GOD's sake!!!

Life is precious
Life is gold
Life is most valueable things on earth

Tired....

These days my life have been full of challenge. I started to feel exhausted and tired. I'm tired of facing all the stupid thing. Some of the things which seems ridiculous had happen in my family. I'm tired of everything. I feel like running away. But, where can i go? Everywhere will be a problem for me if i run away just like that! There are some words deep down in my heart that i cannot tell people. It doesn't mean that i don't want to, but just don't know how to put them in words.

I'm tired not only because of life. I'm tired of relationship between man as well. I'm tired of love. It's hard to be alone, but at least you won't hurt yourself when you are alone. Well.... i'm just tired....may GOD give me enough strength to face all these thing.

Tough

I always like the phrase-- Life is mean to be tough. For me, i think that my life is getting tougher and tougher as i grown up. There's more problems and troubles popping out anywhere whenever and whatever i do. If it wasn't because of GOD, i won't be able to face all these challenge. It was GOD that always holding my hands and facing all these challenge with me. I've been facing so much troubles and problems to face this few months. All these things keep me occupied. All these things keep my emotion at the most intense state. I feel like never had enough sleep although i sleep almost 10 hours a days! It was all those troubles that i have to face that keeps my body and soul busy and tired. I'm tired of everything. Sometimes i would even think of quitting everything. Just stay where i am and do what i wanted to. But i'll never be alive if i did that. The earth won't stop rotating because of me. The whole universe won't stop just like that because of me. So, I MUST BE TOUGH!

Although my body feel tired, my soul are exhausted, i always remind myself that there's always that special SOMEONE by my side. I knew that HE is just standing besides me, always ready by my side and giving me a hand. I knew for all that HE has done to me. There might have some unsolved problem that i'm facing right now, i knew that HE will definitely make way. All i have to do is continue to trust in HIM. Thankyou GOD!